Thread 82053674

hi anon. how are you? what are you thinking about? good job on getting to the weekend! whats the song you like the most right now?

>>82053674 (OP)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qpFAKRH6Jsw&t=55s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7bRJLkNqNXI

>>82053689
never went much to church but i always liked the choirs they'd sing during mass. also the second song is nice. country songs always kinda give me some nostalgia for a place i've never been at.

>>82053674 (OP)
hi hi hello hi hello anon
>what are you thinking about
im thinking about jobs and how my life is kind of a mess
>whats the song you liek the most right now
idk,,,,, i like this song. im in the process of organizing my music files
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pfV9MgjbHx8

>>82053674 (OP)
>how are you?
I'm feeling it now, Hu Tao-non
I'm letting it all sink in...
>whats the song you like the most right now?
https://youtu.be/ku_WZoTtT8Q?si=tH4sQvjpRq6jpz4c

>>82053907
wow hello hi greetings!
>Im thinking about jobs and how my life is kind of a mess
what kind of job are you looking for anon? my life is also a mess. i have been thinking about it too much today and it made me depressed. is there something in particular bothering you today?
>song
cute song anon. very jazzy! feels like bossa nova a bit.
https://youtu.be/GCrs2K5ZEUs?si=2IwNs2_WuMjO1qmL
u can hab this
>>82053918
>I'm letting it all sink in...
...im guessing its not a very good feeling? hope it will pass soon if thats the case.
>song
lovely song. i've never seen an ukulele with a fender headstock before. the melody was great though, very calming! thank you for sharing anon

>>82054063
>what kind of job are you looking for anon?
idk any type of job which i dont have to speak that much because i have a speech impediment.
>is there something in particular
not really, but i want a girlfriend
>cute song anon
thanks i also liek this song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lgg11CtFEf0

>>82054173
>which i dont have to speak that much
hm, i guess factory jobs would be ideal but they're soul crushing. maybe stacking some shelves could be nice too since it seems chill and not too hard to do
>not really, but i want a girlfriend
me too anon, me too
>video
for whatever reason that video is banned in my country so i cant watch it lole

>>82053674 (OP)
greetings hutanon. if I may, why did you pick hutao as your av? i get that she's similar to you, joyful and lighthearted on the outside while harboring a deep relationship with death and impermanence, but was that deliberate or more of a feeling based choice? also, have you chosen other avatars/names in the past? were they meaningful to you?

>what are you thinking about?
lots of things, but as of now i'm centering my attention on buying a new monitor and building an altchan.

>whats the song you like the most right now?
i switch between song genres and repeat songs a lot (but mostly keeping it japanese), ordered by feeling just so you don't get whiplash:

joyful-melancholic:
> particularly goated - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M9lF9Z7cSS8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z13hzDHruo8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAcHKPXLnUY

melancholic:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E81-limA2uM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=92eMyV4u6ZE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dz91MGWK83g
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mU4_Bx2Inks

i could add many more to the pile, but i don't want to saturate you. just don't expect any consistency lol

Hello, Hu Tao anon. First of all, thank you for keeping your threads up!
>how are you?
Pathetically apathetic (just for the pun). Anxious about going back to the classes, they start now, 08/04, but I don't feel too motivated with them... though neither do I with my current routine. It would be easier if I were motivated and eager for learning, but suddenly that's not the case.
I don't know, I'm not too motivated, don't feel too much passion and life is becoming flavorless. I'm seeking ephemeral pleasures to try to feel better, but of course that ephemeral measures leads to ephemeral results.

BUT... I'm also happy to have 4chan by my side. Some boards are really fun! I can laugh, share my thoughts and fill the time. I love nice posters too, so thank you so much, s4sers and r9k's comfy posters!

>whats the song you like the most right now?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kuNixp-wvWM&list=RDkuNixp-wvWM&start_radio=1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=537HUcj7CLQ&list=RD537HUcj7CLQ&start_radio=1

Well, Hu Tao anon, thank you for opening this thread, since I like to talk about myself on chans (sorry for being a low quality poster lel). If you want to, feel free to talk about yourself too. I may not respond since I will play games now, but maybe someone can answer you.

>>82054063
>im guessing its not a very good feeling?
it's not
but it's what i need right now

i needed to realize some shit, and i realized it

i wrote the reply so carefully and then i accidentally closed the tab. im going to cry.

>>82054492
hi anon!
>why did you pick hutao as your av?
hm, other than the things you listed, i simply really like her. shes cute but determined, she can be silly but serious when its needed (i could go on), but most importantly all of her outfits have flowers on them! and since she works in a funeral parlour, she has a connection with spider lilies (which are my favourite flower) and that's the cherry on top! she's the perfect girl is all im saying.
>have you chosen other avatars/names in the past?
yes, i used to post with a different avatar though not as much, and it was years ago. im not telling you which one! they weren't as meaningful as tao is, i just liked that character.
>buying a new monitor and building an altchan.
is it a 144hz monitor? and good luck with the altchan! how far are you into building it?
>song
i really really liked the first 3! thank you for sharing. i'll definetly add them to my playlists.
we need more teto songs desu.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qXn0mnMWIcc
here's one you might like!
>songs part 2
a part in the first one reminds me of strobe last, and its really nice. nier's soundtrack is so good also. wish i could hear it for the first time again. the third one was great too AND it had my favourite flowers in the cover art, 10/10! feel free to share more if you want i will listen to all of them!
>>82054493
>thank you for keeping your threads up!
its my pleasure! thank you taking some of your time to post anon
>Anxious about going back to the classes
you got this anon. perhaps a change of pace will do you good! im anxious about starting again too. but i guess it beats rotting in my room
>don't feel too much passion and life is becoming flavorless
i get how you feel. i kinda lack the motivation to do things im supposed like too. hopefully it will pass for the both of us. ephemeral pleasures are not really something you can rely on sadly.

cont.

>>82054847
cont.
>>82054493
>songs
teto is awesome.
the second one was really cute!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dujs_PeSoEs
here's a teto song for you but on guitar!
>I can laugh, share my thoughts and fill the time
yeah, this site can be okay sometimes. i wish everyone was a bit nicer but it is what it is i guess. thank you for being nice too anon! it goes a long way
>If you want to, feel free to talk about yourself too.
oh its okay, i already feel like i talk about myself too much so i enjoy listening to other people's troubles and interests. what games are you playing anon?
>>82054678
>needed to realize some shit, and i realized it
then thats good. sometimes bad experiences and feelings are exactly what we need to be better. what did you realize if i may ask?

>>82054847
> she has a connection with spider lilies (which are my favourite flower)
interesting...

> is it a 144hz monitor?
yeah of course, i'm lending an ultrawide right now that's only 60hz and i thought my os was bugged or something, but no turns out that it's just this slow. and it's nausea inducing. i'm thinking of buying an oled though, and dropping some cash on it and having it last for years, so i'm taking it very carefully, even mapped out a spreadsheet to compare specs and prices and all. but i "need" it for muh paintings, so its okay

> how far are you into building it?
i just wrote the first line :)
it's not a hard project by any means, and if it wants to be anything more than a proof of concept i should focus more on advertising it rather than just building it, since i'll probably have it finished by tonight. without any social media accounts and no traction on any site though, that will probably prove to just not work. i have a very specific niche for it too, which might be its salvation or its ruin, yet only time will tell.
>i accidentally closed the tab.
i'm also hoping to implement qol features so this doesn't happen at all. 4chan is so outdated desu.

> watch?v=qXn0mnMWIcc
oh come on only one? i already heard it though, siinamota is legendary, and this song is also really good.

> strobe last
you really like siinamota hm? accordions are very underrated, they make it all feel so much more victorian

> feel free to share more if you want i will listen to all of them!
that's exactly why i stopped lol, i know you'll listen to all of them. but sure, since you asked, this time without any categories for the full whiplash experience:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XLwmEuM0dIw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WtCQuaR7qqs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dpT-ZAPVvyI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D99SnTqyvzI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WhRBeW8IOgs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6NsBztSGbOw

teto song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aoEDZrzHd8c

>>82053674 (OP)
Those pants are so slutty

>>82055088
>interesting...
do you like them too?
>and it's nausea inducing
honestly after trying 144hz you can never go back at 60hz. its like a whole different thing
>so i'm taking it very carefully, even mapped out a spreadsheet to compare specs
lole i do that kind of stuff too whenever i need to buy new pc parts, its like min-maxxing irl
>>82055088
>i just wrote the first line :)
rome wasn't built in a day
>since i'll probably have it finished by tonight
maybe rome was built in a day?!
>i have a very specific niche for it too
humu, what kind of niche? also with altchans its to be expected that they wont get popular. theres loads of them and honestly as long as 4chan lives i doubt most people are ever gonna migrate to altchans.
>qol features so this doesn't happen at all
god i wish. i would be so happy. it happens too often
>i already heard it though
i thought so, im not that knowledgeable when it comes to voicaloid, im still new to the genre desu. whast your fav song by siinamota? i can play young girl A on the guitar! (kind of)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AaCTAnZiGN8
not vocaloid but perhaps you'll like this one too!
>you really like siinamota
he's my favourite vocaloid artist yeah! lots of great songs. accordions are such underrated instruments indeed! i love the sounds they make. i always stop by and listen to street artists whenever i see them with one.
>for the full whiplash experience
they were all great, thank you! third one was my fav. the title of the second one reminds me of the artist's name that made that uno miku song... the teto song was honestly fantastic too. how do you even find these?

>>82053674 (OP)
Heyo, been better, been worse. Thinking about fapping right now, then gonna eat, then watch vtuber streams until it's eepy time.

>whats the song you like the most right now?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=39C4--CnhEc

Probably this one, it's great workout/being high music. How are you doing?

>>82053674 (OP)
i have very bad long term memory and im starting to remember some things. and i hate them all, especially the good ones. i know ill never have those kind of memories agan and it hurts. i wish they would just go black again.
https://youtu.be/KXaJg3IKnI0?si=sqsq-9pDrCCdjdze

>>82055543
do not zerk off anon it is bad for you
>song
very nice. its going to go in my "cocaine" playlist
>How are you doing?
im awful. but im used to it so its whatever
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Plu8_rCyaG4
u might like this song
>>82055593
i hope these feelings will pass soon anon. endure!
>i know ill never have those kind of memories agan
i get it, i often think that never experiencing something amazing might be better than experiencing it and then never being able to get it again.
thanks for the song also, its lovely.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ThYwOfvmK3k
here's one for you!

>>82055781
>i get it, i often think that never experiencing something amazing might be better than experiencing it and then never being able to get it again.
it is better to have never loved at all than to have loved and lost, i suppose. tho, replace love with experience
>thanks for the song also, its lovely
im glad you liked it!!
>here's one for you!
ty, its very pretty

>>82055503
> do you like them too?
you'll see soon enough, hopefully

> maybe rome was built in a day?!
maybe not because i corrupted my fucking bootloader for fun. i'm going to try to flash a live usb into a micro sd card using my drawing tablet as an adapter, hoping that won't nuke my tablet in the process. if i succeed tho that would be insane

> what kind of niche?
quality over quantity but turned it up to its theoretical limits. i really like the idea of this board and r9k in general because it demands a smudge of originality and effort and in practice it's actually rarely bypassed, but there are no real quality controls beyond that, so it's mostly a cesspool in the most general sense. "why do wimen nut lub me" "chad this chud that"... posts like yours, or blogposts that actually try and make some coherent sense like kaguyanon's yukkuri posts (which were recently raided by that blue archive fag for whatever reason) makes me believe that there's a dormant community that would like to have a place to post in that wouldn't feel like launching flares in the midst of a forest hoping the right person sees them instead of mistaking them for fireworks. idealistic? absolutely, i've always been extremely idealistic, and have wanted to build a myriad of systems to improve just about everything i had an issue in (i also made a publishing site because every mainstream one is riddled with ai garbage and a mini video publishing site because i hate youtube), so it's not particularly out of character nor am i oblivious to its most likely failure. but hey, another project to the pile.

i also despise the 2k character limit, as you might have realized.

>>>cont.

>>82053674 (OP)
>what are you thinking about?
crying over not being a woman and not being on estrogen as usual

>>82055503
>>>cont.

> whats your fav song by siinamota?
you're gonna kill me for this but.. none actually. i don't really like mainstream jp producers because they all end up sounding the same, especially ones like deco27 and alike. in a vacuum, their songs work, which is why i complimented it (i like it), but i don't listen to them on the usual for that reason.

> i can play young girl A on the guitar
that's so neat i didn't know you played guitar. if you're ever up for recording yourself i'd be more than glad to hear, though i have no experience in that instrument. i did use to play piano though, and i've been wanting to return to it for a big while now, but it's just so much stuff to do and so little to get it done.

> perhaps you'll like this one too
>tsurupettan
newfag

> third one was my fav
sheeno mirin is clinically insane with instrumentals, all his songs are a treat to your ears
> made that uno miku song
nununununununununununununununununununu? i knew him before that fuckass song invaded his entire presence, his skits are actually really funny but i'm kinda sad that he got the issey treatment
> how do you even find these
seek and thou shalt find.

>>82053674 (OP)
>finished some important stuff ive been working on for months
>very close to a possibly life changing moment in life
for the first time in god knows how long, i feel hope, i feel like i may have a future to work towards to after all

>>82053674 (OP)
Feeling very bored, so I decided to play HOI 4.
This song is on my mind now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FAISGq0BCk0&list=RDFAISGq0BCk0&start_radio=1

>>82055828
>it is better to have never loved at all than to have loved and lost
i think it might be different with love. depends on the situation, but having been loved once is better than have never been loved imo. yes, it hurts when you lose it, but at least you know someone was capable of loving you. i guess, i haven't been able to compare anyway.
>ty, its very pretty
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-wCA8NSV6ic
here's another! though you probably know this one already. i like this song a lot, it makes me feel things
>>82056204
>you'll see soon enough, hopefully
mysterious...
>i corrupted my fucking bootloader for fun
type 3 fun enjoyer i see! i hope u can manage to fix it.
>wouldn't feel like launching flares in the midst of a forest hoping the right person sees them
hm, i get what you mean, and sure i would love a place to post free of all the shit that haunts this board but, something really important for me when it comes to posting is finding those people that need the flare. it wouldnt be the same posting on an altchan with only the same people. i enjoy interacting with new anons a lot, and i dont want to abandon possibly new frens and leave them here alone.
>wanted to build a myriad of systems to improve just about everything i had an issue in
i think thats a great mindset to have honestly. good job anon!
>i don't really like mainstream jp producers
i didnt know he was considered mainstream...
>if you're ever up for recording yourself i'd be more than glad to hear
sure, ill see if i can find a recording! piano is such a great instrument. dont give up on it!
>newfag
im trying my best...
>all his songs are a treat to your ears
i will look him up then!
>his skits are actually really funny
yeah i've seen some and they're great. hopefully he wont turn cringe
>>82056243
then do something about it!
>>82056311
thats awesome anon!! you got this. do your best!
>>82056336
>HOI4
im scared to get into that game desu. whats so fun about it?
rather unique song also.

>>82056375
HOI just makes me think im cool dictator when im absolute loser irl

dafuq are you thanking me for?

i am back from a walk. I'm feeling a little tired
this song is stuck in my head rn
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ttnl-lWPg04&list=RDTtnl-lWPg04&start_radio=1
makes me feel things

>>82056375
appreciate it dude :)

>>82056375
>then do something about it!
i'm too afraid of fucking up

>>82056375
> i hope u can manage to fix it.
glad to be back writing from my arch install then. i ended up using my tablet as a makeshift micro sd adapter, flashing a live os onto the micro sd it used for its drivers, mounted my system and completed the update from it. all's well that ends well.

> finding those people that need the flare.
i've thought about this as well. i have tons of experience running indie circles, have made lots of servers and hubs in the past, and the one thing that was missing was always variety. that's the paradox, value is relative, and if you get a friend group and separate it from its origin place it does bring sterility and peace but those are only good on dosed amounts. that's why it's mostly a proof of concept, the coding is easy, the actual system is not.

> i think thats a great mindset to have honestly
if it ever worked...

>>82056385
fair enough. i like to larp as a crusader when i play mordhau
>>82056400
huh?
>>82056423
hope ur walk was nice. pretty good song, that album is good in general imo. good vibes
>>82056427
you're very welcome! go get em anon
>>82056472
isnt the fear of doing nothing and regretting it for the rest of your life greater? still, i guess you should be careful with things like that so maybe ask a doctor first.
>>82056820
>all's well that ends well.
nicely done! i have no idea how any of that works but yup. good job
>bring sterility and peace but those are only good on dosed amounts
yeah, i fear it would turn boring after a while. the idea is nice though.
>if it ever worked...
eventually it will!

>>82057041
> nicely done! i have no idea how any of that works but yup
basically, i needed to fix it externally, which would usually mean using an usb drive since i needed an outside storage, but ended up using my tablet's micro sd card as said storage to fix it. and now my tablet boots linux (but i can revert it its fine).

> yeah, i fear it would turn boring after a while
but then again, that's not even the point. it's not supposed to be a time filler or a dopamine activator, but something that takes deliberate action and effort from you. if you want to be entertained and nothing else then go to one of the billion short form content apps there is today. but... i get your point, i guess. i just wonder where the losses start exceeding the gains as you keep opening the gates and lowering the standards. thank you for entertaining my dumb idea though.

> eventually it will!
yeah...

>>82057041
>isnt the fear of doing nothing and regretting it for the rest of your life greater?
i could really fuck my life up tho