Thread 82059005

i need to socialize to be happy and for my brain to be healthy, but i fucking despise socializing. every fiber of my being screams "get me the fuck out of here" whenever i'm around anyone. but whenever i'm not around anyone i get depressed and ask "what's the point, why bother". i know i'm a diagnosed autist but does anyone relate to this

>>82059005 (OP)
Yes, except I can't socialize to save my fucking life so it's mostly the latter

That's because youre putting pressure on yourself to get something out of the interaction (which you never will because everyone else just wants validation too)

>>82059064
i can't socialize either, i deluded myself that i could in the past but i realized i did a piss poor job compared to normies who've had everything spoonfed to them. now if i have to be in a social situation i only speak if it's immediately needed and only say what's necessary and nothing more
>>82059078
if i don't put any pressure on myself (like i do nowadays) then i just sit there saying nothing. entire conversations will go by and i'll barely say anything, because what the fuck is there to say. everyone just says whatever bullshit passes through their mind, i don't have a single clue of what to talk about in any given situation, unless someone directly asks me my opinion or whatever. this is just autism in a nutshell but if i'm doomed to experience this hell then i'd rather let loneliness degrade my brain until i can enjoy being alone

>>82059005 (OP)
>i fucking despise socializing. every fiber of my being screams "get me the fuck out of here"
You should try to find people like you (search for communities and happenings online), then you'd be comfortable to be there and will have more relevant things to say.
>whenever i'm not around anyone i get depressed
It gets better. Being alone becomes a habbit that will later be hard to shake off.

>>82059188
find other autists, got it. a shame most of them never go outside, or maybe good on them since there isn't much for them out there.
>Being alone becomes a habbit
it feels like a bad habbit right now, i'm hoping that it'll become a good one

I relate to this. What you have to do is think of socializing as a stat you need to survive like food. Chicken and rice taste shit but you must eat it to get yolked. Likewise, socializing is shit but you must do it to retain a baseline sanity.

>>82059005 (OP)
I cant socialize unless I drink

>>82059111
>i'd rather let loneliness degrade my brain until i can enjoy being alone

sorry anon, that's not going to happen

Socializing isnt real. If u talk to a man it is gay. If u talk to an ugly girl u r low genetic quality. Nobody wants to talk, but society sells it as an activity becuz this world is indescribably poor.

>>82059216
>a shame most of them never go outside
Search in cons, gamestores with game nights and online. I found a LARP group online that met once a week in a forrest. Had all kinds of socially inept people. We got along.
>it feels like a bad habbit right now, i'm hoping that it'll become a good one
If you choose that path, know it'll get better with time. But it'll take a lot of work to undo.

A part of you is lying to yourself, you know exactly which one is.

>>82059005 (OP)
https://youtube.com/shorts/997PgAjZ-3c?si=AwgDAyWe-7VT6j2q

>>82059283
>sorry anon, that's not going to happen
it has been demonstrated that it does though

>>82059005 (OP)
>whenever i'm not around anyone i get depressed and ask "what's the point, why bother"
yeah i also feel like that all the tiem anon. for me its slightly different because when im around people i feel more like nobody likes me. i dont really know if theres a solution, but we should keep trying to socialize until it works i guess.