Thread 82059181

How isolated are you? What are some weird qualities in you that have resulted from your isolation?

>>82059181 (OP)
lets see
i got really good at doing voices
i pace around and make pew pew sounds
i randomly start shadow boxing or doing stupid kung fu noises
and i talk to myself relentlessly

>>82059210
U r not talking to urself. U r speaking to a giant immutable brain which exists outside time n space. He speaks using telepathy to ppl n makes it seem like u r having conversations with urself. Becuz it is extremely offensive how we r made to live, his presence is totally unwanted. So he does it by force, huge crime.

>>82059181 (OP)
looking for masonic symbolism in kpop videos

Not super isolated. But I do talk to myself a lot. One thing Ive started doing is coming up with theories. My most recent one is that the world and my experience are heavily influenced by my thoughts and feelings, like if im having a bad day it will start raining outside.
>>82059227
I like you.

>>82059181 (OP)
>How isolated are you?
I usually don't see or speak to anyone besides my parents, sometimes other family and a therapist.
I did start going to some meeting thing for young people that are "mentally vulnerable" that my therapist recommended but it's been some weeks since I went there due to being on vacation with my parents.

My qualities from it I guess is that I'm pretty independent I think. I don't care about loneliness or being alone like most anons here.

>>82059295
Ur mind is a musical device which makes sounds. U merely interpret the sounds as words. A giant immutable brain speaks with telepathy by playing ur mind like it is a harp. U can not replicate the sounds ur harp makes becuz u r not in control of it. He can talk for thousands of years without stopping n the subject will never notice becuz he believes he is controlling it. He can also speak to u in person. He srsly does this to ppl.

>>82059181 (OP)
i'm very isolated
i have 2 people i'd even remotely consider friends, the rest hate me and want to see me suffer, but it's better than loneliness. my family at best pretends to love me, they don't treat me badly but they neglected my mental health as a child. I very rarely talk to people even then, most of my social interactions are on this website.
I've been isolated for at least a decade now.
>what are some weird qualities you have due to your isolation
I frequently imagine conversations, events, or even people that do not exist. I often reminisce for half an hour on these things in a dreamy state before realizing they never even happened. I've also begun to despise humanity and myself to no end, i constantly imagine violent scenarios right after romantic ones. I am slowly developing some sort of severe mental disorder in addition to this.

>>82059181 (OP)
>How isolated are you?
I have two irl friends these days, basically a guy and his wife. We interact when we meet at our hobby group, but not much other than that. People do talk to me at work though.
>What are some weird qualities in you that have resulted from your isolation?
I'm not diagnosed autistic but I show many autistic traits. I am functional enough, knowing most social conventions and all that, but my execution is often in a weird way that people can tell something is off with me. I also don't have many share the same base desires as most people. One of my hobbies is very popular but I don't have anyone to talk to about it because people generally aren't as into it as I am.

I am very isolated. My isolation results from my kindness empathy and emotional vulnerability. I have been called weird or gay or a fag or a creepy incel. I don't actually have any weird qualities. The average person is selfish and cruel and ive never met exceptional ones.

>>82059181 (OP)
I'm isolated cuz I'm a sperg. I don't interact with people cuz I make a fool of myself

>>82059181 (OP)
>How isolated are you?
I can go months without seeing or talking to another human being
> What are some weird qualities in you that have resulted from your isolation?
I seem normal to me, I don't know
I hate small talk and rambling

>>82059181 (OP)
Very but I have a good relationship with my family and boss even tho I dont talk to them often.
I talk to myself a lot especially while playing video games. Some weird porn preferences like anthro mommies, nothing too crazy i guess.
But i've gone a bit too hard to nietzschean philosophy so i feel like i see the world very differently from normal people now. I dont view it as a bad thing.
Albert Camus' "The Stranger" is a book the resonates with me very deeply.

>>82060542
>anthro mommies
kinda based
do you have any online friends at all

>>82060579
Not a single one. I lurk here for maybe 30 min a day, talk to my cats and listen/watch youtube videos. I dont feel lonely at all.

When I think about something embarrassing I'll outright say "I wish I was dead," without thinking. It started as painful thoughts but has progressed to actually uttering it.

>>82059353
also long time isolated, the imaginary conversations in my head are getting to me too, although i have them with real discord people i've never actually spoken to

>>82059181 (OP)
I was isolated after high school where everyone shit on me and never defended me or even made friends with me.
I hated them and after graduating high school it was like a breath of fresh air. I suddenly didn't have a source of antagonism or spite. I did get anxious because I never had normal socialization but I do reasonably now. I still don't have friends 14 years later.
>weird qualities
I'm more honest and I enjoy the mundane things a bit. The isolation did heal me a fair bit, though I still had to work on my confidence.
I like the furry pornography but that stems from me just hating people until they stopped looking attractive. I don't hate people anymore but that's just something that never got fixed. I know how transactional real relationships are and what I can expect from them. I'm an overall severed person. I doubt everything because when I was early on in the solitude I was wrestling with the shame that was paralyzing me so I sat down and thought about the source of my shame. It always came back to society with its whims and wishes.
I believe we can live alone without adverse health effects for example. It was causing me more problems to believe that I needed relationships to do anything. It sounds downright stupid that the solution is, in the most practical phrasing: "stop feeling shame", but it is.
My goal, if nothing else, is to be a living contradiction of all the garbage that weighed me down for too long. I will be a better man alone, I predate the MGTOW movement and their delusions of what it means to be alone. And if that makes men cringe and women dry up who fucking cares? I've seen what makes them cheer. I don't care if society wants me to shack up and make kids, I'm doing the bare minimum. Suck my dick, choke on it. Peace.

>>82061998
Maybe you should have some kids and raise them properly

>>82059181 (OP)
>How isolated are you?
Spent 5 years in my room at home.
>What are some weird qualities in you that have resulted from your isolation?
Tapping on things
Talking to myself a lot
Inability to talk to people and maintain eye contact
Inability to go outside without being overwhelmed

Recently I've developed a strong sensitivity to light. When I see strong lights now, it feels like someone's pinching me and it feels deeply uncomfortable. Also, I get in these moods where I feel gross in my own skin, and when I look at other people they also look gross. If a person's face isn't lit up by warm orange light they look disgusting to me now, no matter how attractive they are.