>eat ~1200 cals every day for 3 years
>typical meals are 800cals
>1 meal
>some months intense exercise, walking lots of kilometres every day, situps, weight lifting
>some months no or little exercise
>take meds to kill hunger and lose weight
>drink energy drinks to kill hunger
>junk food only two times a month for those 3 years
>still cant fucking lose weight
>only took inducing diarrhoea for 12 weeks to lose 4 kilograms after 3 years

what the fuck is wrong with my fucking body oh my fucking god

i know i have medical conditions that fuck with weight loss (pcos mainly) but i basically need to starve to see results. i had an ED before this where i didn't eat shit for 2 months and only lost 5 fucking kilograms

>>82062564 (OP)
>>drink energy drinks to kill hunger
You know those have calories in them right and kill your good gut bacteria which contributes to your gastrointestinal issues and weight loss issues, right?
You're not consuming 1200 or less calories a day. That's all there is to it.

>>82062589
the ones i drink have 14cal

>>82062564 (OP)
Try fasting. Longest I lasted was 42 hours. Very salty water.

>>82062564 (OP)
That gif tells me you like being fat.

>>82062602
mentioned in post i starved myself for 2 months (occasionally ate and threw it up) and barely lost anything

>>82062606
its just the name of the gif i downloaded

im ok with being fat because i hold my fat nicely in every way except my back and face. i feel a bit embarassed by it tho

>>82062564 (OP)
>Have a black coffee and half a protein bar for breakfast
>Go for a 5km run
>Don't eat lunch at work, space out and stare at the wall instead
>Get home
>Skip rope for 30 minutes
>Drink like 20 standard drinks of vodka and pass out
I have an inkling as to why I am gaining weight...

>>82062637
even with the vodka you really shouldnt be gaining if youre barely eating

>>82062642
Alcohol calories hit differently and bloat you out.

>>82062564 (OP)
maybe you are just naturally fat, accept it.
for real it doesnt make you less attractive if its how your body is meant to be
like imagine your fat friend or mum or dad or whatever, itd be wierd if they were skinny
take it easy you still have an eating disorder or something like that it seems
is crazy how accepting yourself can be harder than starving yourself or inducing diahrea for 12 weeks

>>82062629
Giving yourself bulimia actually makes you gain weight easier since you expand your stomach and cause your body to burn less fat due to percieved food scarcity.

>>82062650
ah right i forgot about that

>>82062660
i just hate it, my mum and dad are skinny and underweight but for some reason im so large, i dont look bad despite how fat i am ill admit that, but i get so deeply jealous of others.
when i had fat friends they looked so gorgeous when they lost weight i couldnt compete.
its hard to accept myself no matter what happens cause i always feel imprisoned and ugly, makes it worse when someone skinny shows interest in me cause i almost take it as a competition
i definitely have an ED still but my doctors dont care cause im still fat and ill never be taken seriously as a fat fuck

even when i went into hospital for my 2 months of starving when it sent me into shock they called me a crazy methhead (ive never touched it meth) and discharged me in an hour

>>82062700
well i still cant lose weight the normal way either after 3 years so wtf

>>82062712
Worst case, you could try a gastric bypass. Although I'd really recommend exhausting all other options first. Or yk just go on a date with me, either one works. Ever been on ozempic?

>>82062712
Bullimia is not fasting. Food triggers an insulin response, which takes your body out of ketosis.

>>82062729
they wont approve either of those things cause im not obese enough ive already asked about ozempic

>>82062564 (OP)
Better than being hardstuck at 58kg like me.

>>82062564 (OP)
Stop with the junk food and energy drinks immediately.
Only eat canned food. Why? Because there you can calculate the amount of calories exactly. No vague guessing, ever.
Only ever drink tap water. Zero calories and good for you.
Start consuming only 1000 calories a day. If that does not work in bringing your weight down, make it 900. And so on until it works. And it will, it is basic science.

Unless you cheat and do not count your exact calories all the time with total discipline and honesty. In which case all bets are immediately off.

Good luck! <3

>>82062743
And uh... w-what about the... second to last thing I suggested?

>>82062777
id literally kill someone to be 58kg or even just to lose 5kg or ANYTHING

>>82062786
i always calculate my calories as best as i can but the boxed food i eat estimates 800cals fully prepared but i add less of certain ingredients like butter

i only eat 1200cals like 8 times a month cause otherwise its 800cal meals

i only drink tap water but i cant cut the energy drinks theyre only 14cal anyways i have massive migraines without them and get out of bed

>>82062787
why would you ever sign up for something so awful im not interested in relationships until im a better weight anyways though sorry anon

>>82062827
Well you yourself said that you're still pretty even though you're fat, and I'm already really into fat chicks, especially the types who are fat but still have stamina from walking and exercising. But you're not interested so it's fine, I'll just go masturbate now ig.

>>82062855
i dont understand why men are suddenly so into fat girls

skinny has been the standard for so long but it feels like everyone is into fat girls now it really bothers me

>>82062564 (OP)
>pcos
Good luck, you're fucked
Aside from 100% fasting or ozempic it's basically impossible
Fuck pcos

>>82062883
pcos is evil i hate this shit so fucking much

i wish they would put me on ozempic cause they know how badly i want to kill myself already itd make me so much happier if i could be skinnier

how much do you weigh now? are you actually fat or do you have BDD?

>>82062923
im actually fat my bmi is like high 27 im so close to obesity

im 174cm and 84kgs and it makes me wanna kill myself

>>82062883
>>82062901
why not just fast?

>>82063080
i have before i literally said it in post