>>82065897 (OP)
I really like this question. Seriously, most of my family are about to die. I am about to die as well. More than that, I don't have enough money to make all of my family comfortable. Aside from that, I suffer from mental illness and I don't think that I will find somebody do make me happy either. Also, I think that I lack the IQ to have a decent career.
TLDR: I don't know fuck about shit and I think that I'll die that way.