>>82071526 (OP)
I'm the same way, but when it comes time to eat or drink, I still consume four or five thousand calories a day. I don't know how to stop myself. Food and alcohol are the only things that make me happy.
>>82071526 (OP)
I think disgust or self-loathing is absolutely normal. I don't think there's a single normal person in this world that you can truly love.