>>82073963 (OP)Unironically porn
I have always considered myself straight, and I have only been romantically interested in women. I have never been attracted to a man in person.
However, I discovered gangbang porn in my teens, and eventually I started to self-insert as the woman getting gangbanged. Nowadays, gangbangs (straight and gay) are the only porn I consume, and I always imagine myself as the person getting gangbanged.
Now I'm planning to lose my virginity by getting gangbanged by dudes. Pursuing and conquering a woman feels alien to my submissive personality, and the idea of giving myself to be defiled by men sounds incredibly arousing.