Thread 82077582

im so tired of forcing myself, a sperg, to fit in with other people, get a job and friends.

my brain just works fundamentally differently from this people and no matter what i try or force myself to be, i'll always be the same old.

i can't force myself to act normal, or handle the mental workload of a job.

part of me is tempted to just mellow out and apply for disability with my autism,
so i can embrace being a hikky neet and sperg out on obscure japanese games and shows and other spergy interests of mine all day.
forget people and hermit mode completely.

maybe go to college for those spergy interests of mine and get a degree later, if AI hasn't replaced us all yet.

modern society is wondrous!

>>82077582 (OP)
Same except I can't be content sitting down and watching shit 24/7. God I hate interacting with people

so many fucking typos i hate typing on a phone.

>>82077588
i like to just walk all day when i don't know what to do. it changes from looking at a screen all day.

What sorts of things stand out to you as blatantly apparent differences between others and yourself?

>>82077608
-i have a lot of difficulties with social communication, i have a hard time speaking out what i want to say and nuance oft falls on deaf ears.

-i am often very disorganized and extremely clumsy and unfocused, i have a hard time with fast paced social or work environments due to not being to process the necessary input in time, or differentiate between the different sensory inputs. that's my attention deficit side of thing

-some things i just don't get the same enjoyment, due to aforementioned issues or on a fundamental level. i have a hard time grasping some social concepts that seems innate to a lot of people, and have a hard time straying from my systematic thinking and preferences.

could go on. basically a bunch of things that subtly but ever so slightly ruin my chances at a normal functioning life.

>>82077582 (OP)
going to college won't magically let HR pass you through their nepotism checks or give you a job
plenty of anons are neet despite going to uni and getting "real" degrees

>>82077582 (OP)
I feel the same but I need to get a diagnosis to get autismbux but I'm too poor. Oh well, I guess I'll just keep struggling to hold down my part time job until my parents die and I'm homeless.

>>82077582 (OP)
just spergmaxx. fitting in isn't worth it. "normals" are broken differently

>>82078697
>having a job so you can afford to live isn't worth it, bro!
>just be a hobo eating soup kitchen slop for the rest of your life
>muh freedom