Thread 82081024

write your suicide note ITT

my heart dropped reading this thread. i haven't felt like killing myself since i graduated highschool but the thought of even entertaining the idea fills me with great dread. i am horrified.

If I were going to. I'd just say sorry to Jordan. Nothing else matters whatsoever.

>>82081024 (OP)
It's not you, it's me.

>>82081024 (OP)
yeah, I died don't bother burying it theres not much left

i love you mom
i love you dad
i love you brothers
I love you friends
I'm sorry for the way i treated you. Make sure to test my brain for mental illness so nothing like this ever happens again.

>>82081024 (OP)
bye, don't want a funeral btw

also i shoved your chicken nuggets up my ass

Dr Pavel,

I'm CIA. Uhh you don't get to bring friends. And why would I want them? Bane? Get them on board I'll call it in. The flight plan I just filed with the agency lists me, my men, Dr. Pavel here, but only one of you. First one to talk gets to stay on my aircraft

If I were to kill myself, I'd write something for my little sister apologizing for everything. Not going to do it RN because I'll probably end up bawling. Maybe when I actually kill myself.

>>82081024 (OP)
I basically made a self-pity post earlier that kinda branches into why I'd consider suicide. I'd include all of that, but also add:
>Truthfully, I've been considering this for years, and it's not like I didn't try to warn any of you or try to keep it pushing, I've simply failed. to those I've warned, most of you have deaf ears. to those of you who have taken heed with some exceptions, you have done little to truly understand and convince me otherwise. it's not your fault though, this was always an eventuality. to my friends, sorry that I was the first one to crack, I recognize my role as a symbol of strength and I have failed you all. to my wider family I have similar regards, and I hope you will all learn from my actions and words, even if it's in post-haste. to my sisters, I'm sorry I wasn't a better brother. to my estranged neighbor who I grew up with, I'm sorry I couldn't have been there for you during that fight, and that it put so much strain on our relationship, especially knowing what you were going through with your dad, long live his memory. to my mother and father, I feel no resentment nor affection towards you. only indifference and a feeling of dread knowing I'll be running into you both again eventually. to the rest of you I'm a cautionary tale, don't do anything stupid while I'm gone. love your lives and what you will all go on to do, and please for the love of god don't give me an AI funeral. P.S. sorry about the mess, try vinegar and peroxide to get the stains out.

>>82081024 (OP)
>if you're reading this i overdosed whoops lol sorry xd

>>82081210
How old are you? How many brothers do you have?

>>82081024 (OP)
To whomever it may concern,

The money is in a tree stump behind the house near 48.006,-123.008. Where we had the hangout. Walk up the hill from the power line structure with the three poles.

Cheers.

hey
if you are reading this then i killed myself
don't blame yourself for it. i just made too many mistakes to catch up from. you've all been nothing but supportive and positive in my life. but i wasnt able to overcome my mental illness and made this selfish decision. please don't have a funeral, and try to forget about me after I'm gone. I don't want this to make your lives any worse.

>>82081024 (OP)
Apologies for the delay, I only get to do this once.

>>82081024 (OP)
This world, it isn't meant for a man like me.
I was never going to be able to fit in.
I was never going to be able to have love.
I was never going to be able to succeed in the ways I wanted to.
Things were stacked against me in the worst way possible.
So I chose to fold.
I didn't care if I was young, the writing was on the wall.
It was suicide or a life spent working until my joints stiffened, my muscles rotted, andy vision faded.
It wouldn't have mattered, not even of I kept on going for the sake of being a good man.
Work or die.
Those were the only choices I had.
I chose the latter, hopefully in an awesome and spectacular way.
Family, forget me.
I was only ever an outlier. Do not feel regret or remorse.

I used to want to commit suicide, but that's what losers do. No longer will I be be an impotent loser. I will fight until the bitter end. I will make it through sheer willpower. I will win in the end.

>>82081024 (OP)
Hello Thier if you are reading this i am already playing Domino's with Hitler yeah I am surprise as you i didn't think i cloud do it but hey we all have our breaking point I enjoyed watching the human experience creatures with infinite potential and ability but alas was too much for me to handle if you are sad Don't be i hate to bring more people around me you are probably thinking if I do this or that I could save him but no i already made my mind and I wouldn't change that no matter what few people have the luxury to decide what their last seconds would look like and I got that privilege Nice sunset bottle of vodka pack of cigarettes a smile on my face while listening to Lonely Lies - Interlinked [Slowed Reverb
Anyway you have a life to live sucker so enjoy it peace out

>>82081024 (OP)
To those I may have known,

I don't need to be here. My physical being is no longer needed. I will be back again soon.

I don't care what you do with anything I owned

See you later

>>82081886
>The money is in a tree stump

don't do this it will fuck with you psychologically don't even think about starting to write it

you were the only thing keeping me tethered. i love you. im sorry.

why would i need a note

>>82081024 (OP)
the utilities are paid through the end of the month

>>82081024 (OP)
Dear everyone,
I had always hoped to go out in a better way than this. Some sort of spectacle. I wanted to be someone famous who got assassinated because I had an impact on the world. Like a politician or celebrity. I feel pathetic leaving you all like this, without ever having made something of myself. Nothing to be proud of, nothing to remember. That is my biggest regret. To all my friends and family, know I loved you more than anything, and for what it's worth, you didn't deserve this. Especially my dad. You are my biggest inspiration in life, and even though you weren't perfect, I would never have traded you for anyone. To my little sisters, I'm sorry if I failed you. I'm sorry I was never a role model for you, and I could never protect you in the way I should have. And to the world.
Freedom is everything. Its more important than happiness and more important than safety. If you take anything from my death, please don't let it be that words aren't worth it. They always are. Always. They are what make us individuals, what makes humans such beautiful creatures. I will never regret being human. I love you all, but I am not sorry for this. Thank you for everything. I look forward to living on as a memory, for however long I can.
love

- [my screenname], ([my legal name)]
(or at least that's the best I can come up with while I'm drunk )

i have been in mental decline for years, my suicide isnt to do with anyone else but myself. i cant live in this world, its too difficult. i love everyone and hope none of you blame yourselves for this final sin of mine against you; i wish i had another way out. goodbye

>>82081388
>to those I've warned, most of you have deaf ears
a guy on discord gave off those vibes and nobody said anything. i don't want to be the guy who makes it real in front of everyone in the group. dude is an online friend but also i can't make myself responsible for him. maybe others are in denial. then again i'm also thinking about doing it every day so i guess all i could say to him is welcome to the club?

I'm going to go be with my sister. Thanks for doing your best to take care of me but I'm just done

>>82081024 (OP)
Probably just something short like "I tried".

>>82081024 (OP)
Fuck this shit, ill be waiting for you guys on the other side

>>82081024 (OP)
Hey Dad, Mom, family, friends and beloved. If you're reading this...I'm grateful. And I'm sorry. Just know that it wasn't your fault, you had nothing to do with this, you couldn't have stopped it either. It was an internal struggle and you had nothing to do with it.

Why? To put it simply the pain was too much. And I wanted release. I've read alot of NDEs, perhaps death really is like falling asleep. Either way, I just didn't want to live anymore. Sorry.

To mom. Please don't feel guilty. I'm glad I was born your son.

To dad. Sorry we hurt each other. I forgive you and forgave you long ago. You have nothing to do with this.

To Emma. I'm sorry I couldn't go to the moon with you. I know this will hurt you but I couldn't stay strong for you. Please stay strong for me, for everyone. I'm sure you'll find some one special one day. I will be with you in spirit.

Goodbye everyone. Sorry it had to end like this. I know it's selfish but I just wanted out. I know it's easy for me and I'm a coward but I hope you can forgive me. I hope you can get over this. Please forget about me, I will see you all eventually anyways. I'm sorry and I love you. Goodbye.

i wish to see more suicide notes, they are interesting we should make this a recurring thing

>>82081024 (OP)
I guess it's about that time. Those close enough to me to read this will probably know the clock has been ticking on this for some time. I want you to know it ain't because I don't love you, it's just something I have to do. I raised my right hand once. Said I would defend this country from threats external and internal. Still believe that. Today I make good on it.

Don't report me missing, please, at least for a while. I need time to get this done. Take care of each other. Take from what I have amongst yourselves, and please don't fight over it. I love you all.

Everyone is afraid to die alone. Thankfully, I get to take some people with me.

>>82081024 (OP) my note would say:

It's a pretty view.

Long way down.

>>82081024 (OP)
already yoinked it long ago

By reading you this, I ask you to carry a burden one last time. I am going to Holy Land to preach and try to save other souls or die trying. Bye.

>>82081024 (OP)
I'm tired. I can't feel happiness. There's no purpose to be found in this life.
Take care of [dog's name].

*My dog is dead, I'd just want my mom to take her ashes.

>>82085445
sucks man
when my cat will die (1-2 years) i will have truly nothing
genuinely scares me

Bye lole

Attached to body:
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>Take out the trash, non-recyclable.
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>Thanks,
>[Name]

later fags

>>82081024 (OP)
I'm just fucking lazy, that's it. I'm not in unending despair and numbness with a hole in my chest or anything, i just can't fucking stand having to struggle for anything be it a job or a partner or a degree. That's it. I didn't need to be reminded that NEETing wasn't forever since i was well aware that useless cunts like me just starve to death in nature. It's tiring to be constantly reminded that you have the self-reliance skills of a toddler. I don't really know if i even have autism because my dad didn't care at all about the child psychologist recommendations, but i feel there's gotta be at least a slight genetic component to my utter mental retardation. Life is just a chore and i just want out. I know a couple of people will be sad but sorry i'm not really fit to live for others. I will spare the ugly sight of a corpse for you all though, since it's doable and i don't see the need to cause further mental pain, but please understand that i just don't feel like going on living. I hope you can understand.

Yo, I don't want a funeral and preferably limit as much as possible the number of people who know about my death. Make my last fucking wish come true at least, I'm serious. Now, bye.