I don't relate to any of my lifelong childhood friends anymore. And I also feel like there is some weird social dynamics where they are trying to one-up me. I dont know if its all in my head but it makes me feel like shit.

My natural response is distance but Ive done that with so many people in my life. I will actually be alone. Is it still possible to build meaningful new friendships as an older guy?

>>82082026 (OP)
you need to be kind of desperate for attention to bother with friends. all you really need is a girlfriend.

>>82082054
A girlfriend is so far down the line. I feel like I need a more stable friend group first. What life would I invite my girlfriend to if I dont have many close friends, just show her around my house? Just do whatever with only the 2 of us?
I dont have parents to introduce her to either.

This is part of why I am glad that almost everyone I knew as a kid lost touch with me. They were never true friends, evidently.
>Is it still possible to build meaningful new friendships as an older guy?
Almost impossible. Especially in today's shit and atomised day and age.