>>82087070 (OP) >You dont give yourself enough credit
Maybe >you wont open up to anyone
The only person who cares to deal with me is my therapist. I have no one else to talk to.
>>82087178 >What meds are you on?
None right now. But I used to take Lexapro, buspar, and abilify. I'm never trying meds again. Although my therapist has been trying to get me to consider trying again. I think she thinks I'm bipolar and that's why the meds I tried didn't help.
>>82087070 (OP) >And you wont open up to anyone
I have been experimenting on this. I have been opening up to people online for the past year or two, and it's only worked against me. Whereas, if I stay distant as I do irl, I managed to make two pretty close friends somehow. I don't think I'm a bad person, and I don't hold hateful ideologies, but it is what it is.
Actually Im an open book. So much so that people will fuck themselves up trying to wrap their heads around my honesty. People are weak and disgusting. I'm here because I am VOLCEL.
>>82087271
opening up to people online is a terrible idea especially on 4chud. no-one on the internet has any sort of personal interest in you. plus your opening yourself up for a bunch of randos to make fun of you. I'm sure if you opened up to your irl friends they'd listen.
>>82087070 (OP) >You dont give yourself enough credit
i work hard, that's it. >And you wont open up to anyone
i'm not supposed to, and when i have, i've only embarrassed myself
no woman would ever want a man with emotional baggage.
i'm supposed to be perfect.
not that i won't try to be, but i have to fix myself first before i open up.