>>820892675 months is a bit long yeah, look all i can do is giving you a list of things that work for me, sorry i cant be of much help
>try to find something to obsess on, great if you already have one>design your entire life around it>get good at it>delude yourself into thinking you can make it bigat this point you either discover something you are very good at, and can even make a living out of it, or have a new hobby that you enjoy and have goals about
i know it's not easy, but just keep an open mind about things, go ahead and try if you can