Thread 82097433

Do you guys have too much on your plate right now?

Some shit happened IRL and I've been trying to re-prioritize what's important in my life, so I took the time to write 'em down and holy shit I'm doing too much
Somehow I'm *trying* to balance
>job
>class/assignments
>taking care of a sick relative
>friends
>family
>future gf
>my own health & fitness
I think I'm losing it, might actually die from stress

>mfw it'll all work out in my favour
OP here, I did some reflecting, I'm better now

>>82098042
I'm glad you feel better man.
I wish I was as accomplished as you, I have been ignoring all the shit on my plate

>>82098378
>accomplished
i don't "feel" accomplished, anon
i feel like i'm lagging behind

>>82097433 (OP)
I would do my best to cut the future gf concern until you take a couple things off of that plate. Regardless, I hope things work out for you. Sick relative going to recover or is that a "waiting for them to go" situation?

My dumb ass is
>Trying to schedule home repairs
>Possibly going to lose my job (contract ending)
>Rehabbing a broken leg
>Trying to get back to the gym
>Applying for the Police Department
>Single dad

And man I wish I was fuckin dead.

>>82098701
>I would do my best to cut the future gf concern until you take a couple things off of that plate
Yeah, that was part of the self-reflect I had - I re-prioritized my priorities
>Regardless, I hope things work out for you
Thanks anon, you too
>Sick relative going to recover or is that a "waiting for them to go" situation?
The latter - though I'm taking a step-back on this too, I have some tea to spill if you guys are willing to listen

>>82098730
>tea to spill if you guys are willing to listen
Why not? I'm stuck at my shit ass job with nothing to do

>>82098730
not anon but would like to know

>>82098765
>>82098779
So, the tea is that I have a lost "branch" of the family
My grandma had a daughter, my aunt, but my aunt's dad is not my grandad - turns out my grandma was married before and had my (step)aunt and got divorced, then she married my actual grandad and had my dad and uncle - total 3 kids in all

I said "had" a daughter because my aunt's dead, way before I was born, but the fucked up part is that once she died, her husband (my step-uncle?) went off grid and brought his kids (my cousins) along with him. They've been no-contact since forever and both my dad and uncle refuse to even talk about them, their own fucking nephews and nieces.

So now I've got this "lost branch" of the family that I'm trying to re-connect before the sick relative I mentioned, my grandma dies. We'll see how it goes but I'm hopeful I can get them to reconnect.

>>82098820
Interesting.

Being completely honest I've always had trouble understanding the need to connect with lost relatives though. From your standpoint, they should just be strangers that happen to know someone you do as well.

Could be because I was never close with my family though. Or it could be because I'm autistic.

Anyhow, have you actually gotten a hold of any of them or did you just reach out and are awaiting a response?

>>82098848
Oh, I don't care either, I'm just doing this for my meemaw - maybe they'll have a clear concsious and wanna reconnect before she passes
I don't know how they'll react, I've never met them
>Anyhow, have you actually gotten a hold of any of them or did you just reach out and are awaiting a response?
I'm going to force my uncle to give me their contact infos, I'll talk to them directly
I have a way with words, I'll try and get them to see reason

>>82098870
>doing this for my meemaw
Understandable. Gotta love Meemaw

>have a way with words, I'll try and get them to see reason
Neat. Let's hope all goes well

>>82098881
>Let's hope all goes well
I'll drink to that, anon

>>82098898
I should drink again. Hard to find the time for it, I've had a bottle of 101 in the freezer for like four months

>>82098997
Same
I'm gonna go buy me one of those cheapo 12oz whiskey bottles later
Just the right amount to get shitfaced drunk

>>82097433 (OP)
yup, it's all too much for me.
I got like 20 anime I need to watch and like 30 video games I need to play.
It's all so tiring.

>>82099043
I should probably start doing that

Last time I drank I overdid it a bit. Blacked out and woke up in the woods. Covered in mud and I had stolen someone else's tent. I think it was abandoned though

>>82099068
Wahey, nice!

Last time I got blacked out I slept outside the club, and I remember a friend of mine lifting me up and walking me to my car
Next thing I know, I'm asleep in bed with a guy and a girl next to me

>>82099055
Have fun, anon
You can do it!

>>82099096
>asleep in bed with a guy and a girl next to me
>picrel

I used to do some goofy ass shit, but I've started to settle down a bit as I've gotten further into adulthood.

>>82099290
>started to settle down
Whatever floats your boat, man
I just don't wanna be mediocre

>>82099340
I say settle down, I'm realistically just being careful about getting in legal trouble or going to the psych ward (again). Might fuck up my career prospects for law enforcement

>>82099457
>Might fuck up my career prospects for law enforcement
Oh yeah, that'd be bad for ya
Here's hoping you get your dream job, anon!

>>82099549
>hoping you get your dream job
Let's hope so. Hard to die in a gunfight as a civvie, you know?

>>82099628
>Hard to die in a gunfight as a civvie, you know?
I don't ever wanna know, anon

>>82099648
I do. I hate the thought of shitting myself to death in a nursing home. Rather take a couple shitheads with me, and leave the world faster than I came in.

>>82099661
The flame that burns twice as bright burns half as long, eh?

>>82099727
I plan on burning bright as Hell.

>>82099791
>I plan on burning bright as Hell.
Hell yeah! Ride on, brother!

>>82099825
>Ride on, brother!
Blessed be the Lord my God, who strengthens my hands for war, and my fingers for battle.

The righteous will rejoice when he sees vengeance; he will bathe his feet in the blood of the wicked

For there can be no forgiveness without the shedding of blood.

Now is my sould troubled. And what shall I say? "Father, take from me this hour?" But for this purpose, I have come to this hour.

>>82099899
Save me, O God, for the waters have come up to my neck.

I sink in the miry depths, where there is no foothold. I have come into the deep waters; the floods engulf me.

I am worn out calling for help; my throat is parched. My eyes fail, looking for my God.

Those who hate me without reason outnumber the hairs of my head; many are my enemies without cause, those who seek to destroy me. I am forced to restore what I did not steal.

>>82099963
It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end

The light shines in the darkness, and the dark has not overcome it

And if we live, we live unto the Lord. Or if we die, we die to the Lord. So then, whether we live or die, we belong to God