Thread 82111409

I realized I have no self-identity and everything I do is curated based on others. If I don't have someone to impress or gain admiration from, I can't do anything.
>haven't had to go outside for anything in a year
>stopped brushing my teeth
>stopped taking showers
>stopped doing laundry
>wear the same clothes for months on end
But if someone texted me and said they wanted to hangout tomorrow, I'd immediately do everything I can to clean up. I've done it before.

Anyone else like this?

>>82111409 (OP)
>your grandparents died before you even got laid

Truly I am , a loser

stopped reading after first line but old lady sippin monster on rollerskates thru fish eyed lens is sick

>>82111435
She has an insta where she lifts weights hardcore too. Truly a rad gran

>>82111409 (OP)
Sounds like clinical depression, dude.

You could either treat it by seeing a shrink, get some 5-HTP from the store or do it my preferred way:
>get some shrooms from a plug or the shrooms chocolate from the local vape store.
>Trip your balls off.
Instant cure for depression. I just took a dose on tuesday then this morning as well. Depression went from an 8/10 to a 2/10. Starting to get a lot of shit done that I was supposed to get done ages ago. Trust me, it works.

>>82111496
>get some shrooms from a plug
my internet friends kept shilling this as a magical cure-all but what the fuck is a Plug, where do i get one, and how do i even have a trip without a trip sitter

>>82111496
Also you should be keeping up with your vitamins, such as Vitamin D and all the B vitamins. You might just be low from not eating right or going outside.

>>82111506
If you have a vape store nearby, just go there and get whatever shroom product you can find. Ask the cashier which one is the most popular. A lot have chocolates which make it more palatable.

>how do i even have a trip without a trip sitter
Start with a low dose. dedicate the rest of the day to staying home, not calling anyone, not texting anyone. Once you leave the house or contact someone you might do something you'll regret once you are sober. Like doing or saying something retarded. Have music ready. Some people like to watch TV while they trip as well. I like watching nature on my porch. Just don't do that shit at a bad time like at work or in public.

>>82111566
what should i expect? i know its not gonna be crazy visuals like media depicts but i mean moreso mentally, how exactly does it "fix" people

>>82111409 (OP)
>I realized I have no self-identity and everything I do is curated based on others
You may have schizoid personality disorder

>>82111673
Like the King Crimson / Kanye West song ??

>>82111653
After 30-45 mins, expect a wave of overwhelming happy feeling. It is typically difficult to control and can make you panic. This is where the music and TV comes in. If it gets really bad, I suggest lying down in bed. Sometimes you can see visuals, but the furthest it will really go is lights will look really strange, everything will be super defined, and things just might get a little bit wavy.

The high lasts about 4-6 hours and afterwards you are way more motivated and generally your mood will be fixed. This is due to muscimol heavily binding to GABA and serotonin receptors. It is actually an approved treatment for depression in Oregon and Colorado.

>>82111695
Exactly. Girls will definitely love you because of that and not at all think you are a weird freak (speaking from experience)

>>82111673
>>82111721
Schizoids show little to no interest in social interactions or forming close bonds with others. That doesn't sound like OP.

>>82111704
thank you for replying anon, this might be the post to make try it
what turned you onto shrooms? do you take them regularly?

>>82111738
Schizoids avoid interaction (as OP says he does), but when they do interact they often mirror others personality in an attempt to please them. This is generally thought to be a result of neglect/abuse in childhood. The child learns to please his parents at all costs as a self defense mechanism. This is also one of the reasons schizoids find social interaction so exhausting and uninteresting.

>>82111764
I take them about once a year since I was 15. Just whenever the depression gets bad. When I was 15 I was trying to buy weed from my dealer, but all he had was shrooms at the time, so my friend and I bought some. Best off the cuff choice I ever made. I went from a retarded incel to making straight As and banging chicks. Changed my entire life. I would be in some hole somewhere without them.

>>82111721
Fuck anon if only Kanye was still cool, I could yell 21st century schizoid man if its ever brought up on a date.

>>82111779
surely, youre being hyperbolic
you wouldnt lie on the internet, would you?

>>82111836
I promise you I am not lying. I would recommend this 100% before antidepressants. It works very well. You even said yourself that your friends have been telling you it is the magical cure-all. They are correct. Just give it a try.

>>82111861
well, to be fair i was skeptical since they themselves never tried it, just parroting what they read on the internet and popsci articles
but hey, maybe ill be the first to report back on whether its BS or not
thanks anon

>>82111836
Btw, if you are starting at a low dose and you have more leftover, I would take the next doses every other day. That is what I have been doing this week (tues and thurs) and I am going to take the last of it on saturday. That should probably tide me over for the next year

>>82111868
No problem. Safe travels, psychonaut.

>>82111496
>>82111673
OP here. I do. I was diagnosed with severe depression, severe OCD, severe anxiety, schizoid personality disorder, and some other shit. History of childhood trauma and whatever other pathetic shit. Though my understanding of relationships (both platonic and romantic) are more based on practical and instrumental needs rather than a longing for deep emotional bonds.

>>82111496
I've been tempted with trying out shrooms, but with my current medication I'm already at the border of serotonin syndrome. Shrooms would probably push me over the edge. I'll try it out when I ween off my meds though.

>>82111893
>>82111948
The ones you get from the drug dealer (psilocybin) will definitely fuck with your serotonin. But the ones you get from the vape store (muscimol) I think are mainly GABA modulators. I think the vape store ones would be fine with an antidepressant but don't quote me on that.

>>82111968
I'll definitely check it out. Thanks.