Thread 82119285

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

another one
sorry for letting that one die

>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Hello
Here's a bunch of helpful links

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>82112513
>love playing the games on emulators
have you played anything interesting recently?
>usually suicide
doesn't sound good
but it's good at least you don't like those dreams
>sleeping its almost 2 am for me lol
how was your sleep?

>>82113059
it already happened
as long as you're trying to stop the periods between relapses will get longer and longer :>

>>82114494
>um is it wrong to be attracted to girls with self harm
I think it's okay as long as you're not encouraging them to hurt themselves

>>82114919
hello
hope you have fun playing today

>>82116257
I don't know what you should do sorry
what could this hospital give you that you don't have already? how long will you have to stay there if you go?

>>82116949
heyo how's your productive day going??
>do you guys have any cool plans for today?
nope I worked on a project and now I'll just play some patapons and chill

>>82116803
hope today goes well for u!

>>82119285 (OP)
>>How are you doing today?
Fired up!
>>Any plans for today?
Did a final test this morning. No idea how I did.
Started filing a labor dispute.
Plan to drive to the city and get a ticket for a show tonight.
>>Is there anything bothering you right now?
The company I have been with for two years has now instituted an "anti time theft policy."

This means I can no longer clock in early for a shift or clock out late. This includes breaks. The time clock physically won't let me. The managers can edit this time, but I get points if it happens more than twice a week.

The time edit policy alone is a problem because the website running the time clock is prone to malfunction and often requires several attempts to punch in correctly on a good day.

The bigger problem is that engineering has a post shift pass down that normally takes 15-20 minutes on average. Either the night shift comes in early or the morning shift leaves late to do this. This is now unpaid labor.
Every department has shift exchanges and people that come to pick up shifts. We need this to make up for no shows. Now, it's punished.
Sometimes, the night shift doesn't clean or dose correctly, so the only way to open on time is to clock in early. This is now required to stop happening.
Maintenance workers like myself are low staffed and often alone. If they are on break and get a call or the fire alarm gets pulled, we are no longer able to clock back in to be paid for our services. We have all agreed to sit on our hands for calls now.

I'm not crazy right? This is clearly a labor violation?

>>82119365
hi cat, how your project is going well.
>>82116949
good morning vento
how was your day?
>>82116803
hi yu, how was your day?

haihai new friends!
>>82119365
>have you played anything interesting recently?
last thing i played was persona 3 portable, it wasnt bad

>how was your sleep?
it was actually surprisingly good, not without some nightmares but i dont even remember them so its fine lol

>heyo how's your productive day going??
well... i still didnt study today but i went outside, so that was nice, i think i give myself too many goals which i cannot accomplish just yet :/

>I worked on a project and now I'll just play some patapons and chill
sounds pretty cool to me ^^

>>82119593
>I'm not crazy right? This is clearly a labor violation?
youre definitely not crazy, thats pretty messed up, i wish i could help

>how was your day?
it was fun! but i need to get a job to help with my studies

>>82119285 (OP)
>sorry for letting that one die
you better have a good reason that! >:[ hey catbro! ^^ what's up? how's your project coming along?

>>82119365
>hope today goes well for u!
i think it went alright. glad it's over, though.

>>82119593
hi cynic!

>Fired up!
let's gooo! :D what exactly are we fired up for?

>Did a final test this morning. No idea how I did.
good job. i'm sure they'll tell you soon enough.

>Started filing a labor dispute.
what's going on?

>Plan to drive to the city and get a ticket for a show tonight.
cool. :> what kinda show is it? i think i'll just lie on my couch for the rest of the night and that's about it.

>anti time theft policy.
i could go on a rant about who the real time thieves are, but i'm to tired to get all riled up now. -_-

>This is now unpaid labor.
only thing you can do about stuff like that is to actually drop everything you're doing as soon as your shift is over.

>I'm not crazy right? This is clearly a labor violation?
sounds like one. at least it takes the good will of the workforce and turns it against them. the only real way to show those upstairs how stupid stuff like this is to follow the instructions to the letter. nobody their to take over for you? just shut everything down so you can leave in time. :p

>>82119765
hello vento! how's it going? any plans for tonight or the weekend?

>>82119593
forgot to reply to this
>how was your day?
it went ok, i think. feeling less like mentally breaking down any second, so that's a plus.

I don't think I'm going to that show. woke up early to start my workout before the test. Now I'm tired from lack of sleep throughout the week.
It okay though. I didn't buy a ticket.
>>82119972
>what kinda show is it?
a true crime podcast tour. I still debating if it's worth it while tired and going to work tomorrow to passively protest.
>just shut everything down so you can leave in time. :p
I think that's what I have to do.
I wrote up a two page note to post this weekend.
>feeling less like mentally breaking down any second, so that's a plus.
That is a plus! I hope it gets better.
>>82119765
>i still didnt study today but i went outside,
well, air is always good.
>i need to get a job to help with my studies
yeah don't we all

>>82120135
>I don't think I'm going to that show. woke up early to start my workout before the test. Now I'm tired from lack of sleep throughout the week. It okay though. I didn't buy a ticket.
it's ok to be tired, especially since you have so much going on at the same time.

>a true crime podcast tour. I still debating if it's worth it while tired and going to work tomorrow to passively protest.
sounds fun, but also like the stuff i'd put on to fall asleep to, so maybe not the best show to visit when tired. ^^' might i suggest just to lie down, put on one of those podcast and see what happens?

>I think that's what I have to do. I wrote up a two page note to post this weekend. well, wouldn't want to end up as one of those dastardly time thieves, would ya? hope they'll get the message.

>That is a plus! I hope it gets better.
thank you. i'm mostly fine today. i just don't know how to spend my evening. i'll probably just watch youtube until it's time for bed.

>>82119765
heyoo
>played was persona 3 portable, it wasnt bad
oo I'm thinking about playing persona 4
one day I will
>was actually surprisingly good
glad to hear that ^^
>dont even remember them
phew
hope tonight's event better!
>still didnt study today
It's okay
I know how hard is it to motivate yourself
>give myself too many goals
hm maybe that's true
what goals do you have for today?
>pretty cool to me ^^
it is :3
now I went to bed and I'm going to watch crap om ma phone
wbu? are you doing anything now?

>>82119972
Hellooo
>better have a good reason that! >:[
D;
>what's up? how's your project coming along?
it's coming
slowly but it's happening, not sure I'll have time for the graduation project, I can write a form to request more time but that's stressful and I'm not sure how it works
How was your day?

>>82120135
Hey cynic
>from lack of sleep throughout the week.
>It okay though. I didn't buy a ticket.
sorry to hear your week's been so tiring you basically have to spend your free time on recharging

>>82120600
>it's coming slowly but it's happening
awesome. :> keep it up!

>not sure I'll have time for the graduation project, I can write a form to request more time but that's stressful and I'm not sure how it works
sounds like a good idea, though. at least it would remove some pressure. might be worth to look into.

>How was your day?
boring, but that's not a bad thing right now. ^^' what are you up to tonight?

>>82120852
>keep it up!
thank you :D
>it would remove some pressure
it really really would
but also I might have to talk to the professor overseeing my project to get that
and tell him I haven't even started...
ar the same timt I shouldn't feel bad it's not like a moral thing of "I screwed someone over" or something, the only person it really affect is me and for him it should just be an information
>but that's not a bad thing right now. ^^'
true true, at least you van relax and you have weekend in front of you
Gonna watch anything?
>what are you up to tonight?
just watched videos on youtube
Don't know what to watch though so I'm just watching random stuff

>>82120600
>what goals do you have for today?
none anymore X3, im done for the day its time to rest.

>now I went to bed and I'm going to watch crap om ma phone
SAME, tho im feeling very eepy

>>82121053
>done for the day its time to rest.
yay :D
just what you deserve!
how are you going to rest?
>SAME
hey if u even find anything you'd like to share feel free to send it
>tho im feeling very eepy
sounds it wouldn't be a bad idea for you to get to sleep early, maybe even it'll make you wake up earlier tomorrow and you'll have more caturday to enjoy ^^

>>82121028
>I might have to talk to the professor overseeing my project to get that and tell him I haven't even started...
that'll be annoying, but better get that over with so you know'll where you stand when you talked to you prof.

>the only person it really affect is me and for him it should just be an information
exactly. and if they wouldn't want you to do it, they wouldn't give you the opportunity at all.

>least you van relax and you have weekend in front of you
yeah. going to work out tomorrow, but i don't have anything else planned. should be nice.

>Gonna watch anything?
no. can't find anything that i can just put on without thinking too much.

>just watched videos on youtube Don't know what to watch though so I'm just watching random stuff
guess we have the same problem atm.

It's been just a little bit of time hasn't it? Hope everyone is doing all right. Stressful past few weeks, won't go into it, but things are looking pretty good now and have some exciting developments coming up.
Looking forward to the weekend now

>>82121229
>but better get that over with so you
yep, it might be :/
>they wouldn't give you the opportunity at all.
true
I'm not asking for a favor, it a thing I can literally submit a paper for
>going to work out tomorrow
not trying to know better
but r u sure?
>can't find anything that
I decided to watch some vids about flintlocks and other old guns on forgotten weapons channel
You can watch it too if u want
here's an interesting one
https://youtu.be/fRLIYz8f58E?si=T12XERKgZAENSfV5
japan was very closed off and was still using and improving matchlock guns when the rest of the world moved on from those

>>82119285 (OP)
How many of yall are genuine biologically female girls vs dudes

Very few dudes cut themselves back in the day, the manly ting to do was to instead burn yourself with cigarettes but I guess that's much harder to do with a vape pen these days

although there always one kid who like cut himself because he claimed he could heal super fast because he was part werewolf, or one kid who was way too much into metal

Also 100% of all girls I've ever been with as well as most of all the other ones I've been attracted to were cutters. Not sure how that always plays out.

>>82121439
hello officeanon! welcome back! :D i've been wondering when you'd stop by.

>Hope everyone is doing all right.
i'm ok. last few weeks haven't been too kind, but i think i'm a bit better now.

>Stressful past few weeks, won't go into it, but things are looking pretty good now and have some exciting developments coming up.
that's ok. i'm just glad things are improving.

>Looking forward to the weekend now
you deserve it. how are the girlfriend and the house doing? everything in order?

>>82121446
>yep, it might be :/
rooting for you!

>I'm not asking for a favor, it a thing I can literally submit a paper for
that's the spirit. :>

>but r u sure?
i'll try to keept it on the lighter side. also don't want to disappoint my friend.

>You can watch it too if u want here's an interesting one
thank you. i'll check it out later. i just put on a movie for once. a cure for wellness.

>japan was very closed off and was still using and improving matchlock guns when the rest of the world moved on from those
you only can work with what you got, i suppose.

im falling asleep, ill answer you sweet messages tomorrow, sleep well everyone

>>82121819
good night and sleept tight. hope you'll have nice dreams tonight.

>>82121502
>How many of yall
almost none
just because men don't admin to it doesn't mean they don't do it

>>82121586
>rooting for you!
thanks ^^
>keept it on the lighter side
good, don't get all sore again fren
>just put on a movie
would you look at that
hope you're entertained
>you only can work with what
yep and that's why it interesting

>>82121439
Hey :D
it's lovely to see you
>Stressful past few weeks
sorry to hear this
I really hope this changes one day
>have some exciting developments
oaa wanna tell what they are?
>Looking forward to the weekend now
hope you get to relax

>>82121871
sleep well

>>82121819
goodnight and sleep tight!

>>82121586
Hi Yuanon! how are you doing?
>i've been wondering when you'd stop by.
I'm glad to be back. Just way too busy balancing so many things, but I'm taking time to relax this weekend and evening.
>think i'm a bit better now.
glad to hear. were you sick or just feeling off?
>girlfriend
she is fine and all is well, just a bit busy. She is getting ready for the next level school she needs so busier studying for all that.
>house
good other than it's been way too hot this month so I've been keeping my AC set to not run and keeping in the basement where it's cooler. Need to do some chores I just haven't the time to do, but maybe a little this weekend.

>>82121871
goodnight Yuanon

>>82121819
goodnight vento

>>82121984
heya cat, it's great to see you again! Missed talking with everyone, just been too damn busy
>I really hope this changes one day
me too, but hopeful some changes are coming.
>wanna tell what they are?
I'll post if it happens, but I feel good about it. Don't want to jinx things after all! But should get rid of a fair bit of my recent stress if things go as planned
>hope you get to relax
already starting to. Started new anime I'm enjoying

Hello everyone!
>how are you doing?
I was doing much better but my mental health is starting to slip again
>any plans for today?
I learned to play a couple of songs on the piano even though I should have been studying
>when was the last time you hurt yourself?
back in april, but I've been thinking about it more

hey, said this yesterday but feel like my dream, everything i wanted has already been ruined cause i did it to late :/

>>82111623
>you're not doing enough to earn his friendship
okay thanks i did
>taking this very seriously
well yea of course, i better start figuring everything out now then deal with it later
>you found anything good?
nope besides a vod of someone playing my favorite game. you?

>>82111637
>eepy
eep well
>was on a bikeride today so that was nice :3
that does sound very nice, hope it was fun
>letter kind of thing I talked about a bit ago, do u rember?
the thing were we'd send a very long message and just talk in long messages and stuff?
>least tomorrow's friday
true it's another day

>>82121439
hey good to see you again

>>82121971
>don't get all sore again fren
i'll try not to

>would you look at that hope you're entertained
it was fun enough. more on the odd side of things, but still fun. some visuals didn't hold up, but what can you expect from 9 year old cgi.

>>82121984
>sleep well
you too

>>82122195
>how are you doing?
could be better. just lots of stress at work and i have a hard time dealing with it.

>Just way too busy balancing so many things, but I'm taking time to relax this weekend and evening.
there's more important stuff than hanging out with us, but i always appreciate you taking some time to have a chat. it's good that you finally have some time for yourself.

>were you sick or just feeling off?
since i'm back from my vacation everythings just been too much. my health seems to be deteriorating, which also wears me down mentally, which leads to me making mistakes at work which means more stress. you know how that goes.

>she is fine and all is well, just a bit busy.
i see. hope you two aren't too busy to spend some time together here and there.

>good other than it's been way too hot this month
ugh. tell me about it. it was way hotter in italy, but the humidity here makes even way cooler temperatures absolutely unbearable. :/

>Need to do some chores I just haven't the time to do, but maybe a little this weekend.
but just a little. you need some time to recharge.

>goodnight Yuanon
have a nice rest of your day!

>>82122551
hello mr stocky!

>I was doing much better but my mental health is starting to slip again
what's dragging you down, fren?

>I learned to play a couple of songs on the piano even though I should have been studying
heh. i guess we always find a way to keep us from what we should be doing. ^^' at least you did something creative.

>back in april, but I've been thinking about it more
it's been a while. well done. :> what makes you think of it?

>>82122948
>what's dragging you down?
that's the million dollar question, I'm not sure, it may have been a game called class of 09, it's a great game, and really funny. But it's also what gave me the idea to first start cutting. I picked it up again, and put it right back down once I noticed that it was impacting me.
>what makes you think about it
a while ago I found an X-acto knife that I forgot to throw away. Today I was about to use it but broke it and threw it away instead.

>>82122884
hey gator!

>everything i wanted has already been ruined cause i did it to late :/
you might be a bit behind, but you'll be able to make up for it later. i promise. keep your course and don't let anything deter you.

>okay thanks i did
hope he'll understand.

>i better start figuring everything out now then deal with it later
you already have way more determination than i ever did.

>you?
just watched a movie tonight. a cure for wellness. i had a good time, but now it's finally time for bed. talk to you soon.

>>82122948
> what's dragging you down?
just remembered something, in the past year or two my dad did a complete 180 and became super conservative, he manages to turn everything into a tirade against "the woke types" or how human rights violations don't count against "illegal aliens" I don't know how it started but I feel like I can barely talk to him anymore.
he's also been doing a lot of infuriating stuff like seeming to blame me for cutting, basically calling me stupid for it, and telling me that if I'm going to cut again to do it on my ass where no one can see

I dont know. . . I miss the smell of the forest right by my workstation, the tasty cold breeze in my bedroom at night, the bird chirping in the morning, the privacy, and the connection I had formed with someone there, plus much more in my old home

too often I just want to fall asleep, and wake up next to her again, back there. as if she never changed

>>82122997
>it's a great game, and really funny. But it's also what gave me the idea to first start cutting. I picked it up again, and put it right back down once I noticed that it was impacting me.
glad that you noticed. it can be hard to let go of things you liked, but when they're affecting you negatively, it's definitely the right decision.

>Today I was about to use it but broke it and threw it away instead.
wow. that's impressive. well done.

>>82123036
>became super conservative
i can see how such a turn would throw you off. lots of people these days are looking for something or someone to blame, so they fall for all sorts of populist rhetoric.

>I feel like I can barely talk to him anymore.
you don't have to. there's no point if both of you get agitated.

>he's also been doing a lot of infuriating stuff like seeming to blame me for cutting
that must hurt a lot. sorry you have to deal with that. try not to react to that kind of provocation, if you can.

>>82123094
good evening, juuzouanon! (^-^)

>I dont know. . .
change is always hard to deal with. it's ok to miss what's been a part of your life for so long.

>too often I just want to fall asleep
i hope you'll be able to look ahead again one day. i'll be heading to bed now. for real this time. good night.

>>82123000
>you'll be able to make up for it later.
idk, i doubt I'll be able to without delaying everything
>keep your course and don't let anything deter you.
I'll try to, just doesn't even feel worth it with everything now, life has become pointless no hope anymore for me
>hope he'll understand.
he said he doesn't think i am
>just watched a movie tonight
movies are great hope was a good one
>finally time for bed. talk to you soon.
okay goodnight see ya

good night everyone, wishing you all a very comfy evening. Stay safe!

Shitty photo, but moon was very beautiful tonight