Thread 82121209

I give up on love and women. I don't care that much about sex I mostly care about love and shared interest, spending time togheter and being sweet with each other. I would only ever have sex with a virgin because anything else feels just disgusting. I still a khhv in my late 20s and I know I will never find a woman. I have not much to offer, I don't have much money only an average job, I grew up dirt poor in a abusive household and had to work for the small things I own. Also I am autistic making it even harder to connect with people. It is best if I just accept reality that I will never find someone and make peace with it. That way I can focus on the things that make me happy. Yes I will be very much alone I know that but I was always alone anyway. The few times I have tried with a woman turned out very badly and I got very badly hurt. Yes it was nice while it lasted (I only ever did online dating) but they are all the same in the end leaving/ghosting me. I really thought that me who was born a loser could somehow change my destiny. Nobody will care about this but I have nobod I could share this with. I am just so hurt from everything in this world, that I don't even want to life anymore. Getting my heart hurt by women made so miserable. Maybe love exists in this world just not for me.

>>82121209 (OP)
I hope you find the love of your life one day

>>82121473
The love of my life left me, we were togheter online for 6 months. I don't want to be hurt like this ever again. It hurts so much to trust someone only for them to leave you even if you do anything for them just stay with you. And besides nobody wants me anyway. It is just not worth it getting hurt over and over again even if you just want to love and be together.

>>82121209 (OP)
Literally the exact same story here except I'm 19 and instead of 6 months it was 3 years

>>82121209 (OP)
>It is best if I just accept reality that I will never find someone and make peace with it.
Yes you're getting too old to hold onto delusional optimism and fantasies. You'll go insane if you refuse to let go of unrealistic expectations. That's why we keep seeing broken fags sperging out and going on murder/suicide missions in the news these last few years. Too many Millennials and Zoomers were raised to have a delusional worldview. They can't handle how brutal and disappointing real life.

>>82121532
>That's why we keep seeing broken fags sperging out and going on murder/suicide missions in the news these last few years.
I respect them far more than some cuck deciding to escape and pretend that everything in this life isn't fucking wrong and backwards

>>82121545
Forgot to say I'm not OP btw oops

>>82121528
You are only 19 you still have a chance to make money and to find someone. I am in my late 20s and don't have much money and I am too old and sensitive for any woman to want me. For me it is too late. I nearly had it but then lost it all. I thought last year everything would turn out good but so much bad things happend that I don't think I will ever recover from this. At 30 you are pretty much dead anway and an old man.

>>82121545
Killing random assholes because you can't handle real life just makes you a retarded jerkoff. I have no respect for those weak fools but I understand why they throw their tantrum then off themselves. Pretty much nobody is happy with the state of humanity yet everybody gets on with their lives despite how unfair and hard it is. Sperging out like a toddler is just pathetic.

>>82121532
True I thought somehow it would turn out good, all my work turning into some happiness. But I have nothing, I am just some namless number who will be alone and forgoten. The world is very unfair some have everything while so many have nothing. I am so much behind in everything that I can't even think about trying to get back on track. I often think it would be best if I would have never been born in the first place. All of this suffering for nothing.

>>82121589
Moving on with your life is defeatist mindset. There's nothing worth living for, as such there's literally no reason for them NOT to sperg out and kill people. Or, "like a toddler" as you say, in your vain attempt to minimize what they do. I can do the same for you. You're sperging out like a toddler over shooters on the internet, despite being a grown man. Doesn't that sound retarded to you?
Still, I'd rather they kill the ones who actually made this happen. The you know whos.

>>82121600
Pretty much and the thing is your situation and circumstances are not uncommon at all. Millions of people live struggling and then die alone and it was all for nothing and they're instantly forgotten every day. I grew up with a few guys my age that had shitty toxic poor dumb families like mine and I saw their entire life stories with everything, school, work, women, friends etc and it was a nightmare of misery just like mine and then they died at 27,29,33 and it was all for nothing they never got a single experience they really wanted. That's when it really sank in for me what life really is. That people who believe in the fairytale narratives and that "You'll get what you want in the end!" just because you want it are retarded and life is way more brutal, unfair and stupid than people narrate it to be.

>>82121616
Usually if those guys really wanted to get "who is responsible" they should of shot their parents in the face and then themselves. But so many of them are brainwashed into thinking it's all their own fault and their retarded scumbag abusive parents are "innocent good people".

>>82121209 (OP)
I am the same anon. I shed my tears and now must return to being alone. I've chosen not to hate them but it seems like women don't really want love, at least not from me.

>>82121667
It is okay I think in the end. I went further than someone like me even should have. But in the end I made to many mistakes that costs me everything. I could keep living like this if I had a purpose something that drives me but I don't have that. Having a gf who loves me was this purpose for such a long time and making money somehow to give us both a happy life. I once had over 300k in crypto and made good money with it but blew it all on stupid trades and the only girl who ever loved me back left me. I don't think I will ever have so much luck ever again. Looking back this was the high life of my entire life. I know it is pathetic compared to other people but still. I was happy back then even if it was not much. I can't tell myself I never tried, I honestly think dying is the only way out of this hell. I just hope I won't be reborn with such a shitty life again.

>>82121719
I can't hate them as well, I just can't no matter what. I could post her nudes online and ruine her life but I just can't bring myself to do that. I mean I still love her and hurting a person I love is just something out of my mind. Some people just have love and care others simply don't that is just how it is in the end.

>>82121209 (OP)
happy misaki friday, chuds