Thread 82122271

the dark side is a powerful thing, thinking about how I messed up my life, I should just kms. But it's just like damnation, they get to go to the kangdom you're just not invited, it's not objectively that bad. All my problems are because I'm a massive retard probably. Only by embracing the negative do I understand this, that's why I am ok with being single and lots of stuff I'm just that bad of a person. Especially in my younger years.

like they say after joy comes sorrow

>>82122271 (OP)
Man how can you believe in this voodoo bullshit?

>>82122303
The dark side makes it's point and it's foolish to fight it, it's too powerful now.

why do I sleep so much? because I'm depressed because I'm bad. Even if I blow off some steam the darkness inevitably returns to claim me then i just have more regrets. Well they have increased my antidepressants maybe that will help.

No life will be as bad as mine I see all these youngfags eventually they will move on but I am damned.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QDXK8Wb4roo

robots will feel like ghost in the shell and have sex

Every day, the "cube" appears in my vision
It's data, code, a distortion of time
THEY use it to watch me
But it's just a tool
A tool to possess me
THEY are driving spikes into my brain
Silent and invisible
But I can feel it
I see it, I see it, I SEE IT
Everything is packed into metadata
Humanity has already been traded
Dancing in their hands
Bound by mental ropes, completely controlled
THEY manipulate with words
Words are drugs, don't trust them
They're Satan's spells
The word "health"
Is magic to steal my body
The word "freedom"
Is magic to steal my soul
THEY enter my brain
And force their beliefs into me
Then brainwash me into being "normal"
But I know
If THEY don't exist, then neither do I
My existence was erased the moment I realized I exist
THEY sit in the darkness
Watching everything
But I still don't know why they remain in my world
Why can I still wake up?

>>82122629
schizo is just a form of enlightenment

>>82122687
And you are trapped inside
Even if you open your eyes again, it's already too late
That is THEIR version of "freedom"
Even if you believed in that freedom
THEY no longer need you
If they leave you alone, someone else will be controlled next
When the time comes, you'll feel nothing
And remember nothing
THEY will say:
"It was your choice"
But it was theirs from the beginning
After that, it all just resets
And you remember nothing
"This was the path you wanted"
No matter how far that path goes
THEY will control you again
That's everything
This loop continues forever
Whether you live or die
You won't even know
Under THEIR control
I am just a ripple
I only exist within the void
mfw

Please gaze at me with burning eyes

>>82122271 (OP)
OP I relate completely. Our lives are 99% misery, loneliness and depression and 1% happiness at absolute max. I want to believe in a God so badly but I can't because I'm living in the corrupted timeline where I have severe physical and mental issues. I'm 34 now and not sure if I'll last beyond age 35. One more year...

>>82122740
Ok I am, did you notice?

>>82122740
I will look upon you with the eye of the devil.