>be me, almost 30
>since 11, basically living in isolation
>endless internet scrolling, video games, porn, drugs, booze
>once OD'd on IV heroin while drunk, almost died
>ICU for 3 days, rescued last minute
>suicide thoughts nonstop, self-hate and self-harm daily
>nightmares, breakdowns, can't sleep at night, zombie during the day
>never learned any skills
>been seeing therapists since 13
>diagnosed with depression, anxiety, social anxiety, ADHD, schizoid, bpd, autism, c-ptsd
>on psych meds most of life, abused them too
>alcoholic dad neglected and abused me
>childhood friends bullied and beat me
>bullied by classmates, teachers humiliated me
>skipped school, barely finished with shit grades
>junk food addict, never exercised
>skinny-fat since 7, gynecomastia, puffy nipples, feminine body shape
>acne face, arms and legs covered in self-harm scars
>never slept well, hygiene and cleaning a joke
>never learned to drive, never socialized
>panic attacks around people, avoid eye contact and touch
>no friends, no girlfriend, no romance
>never been kissed, hugged, touched, or had sex
>no studies, no job, no car, no money, >no place of my own
>still live with parents
>literally just rotting
>starting to realize I wasted my entire life
>regret hits like a freight train
>since 11, basically living in isolation
>endless internet scrolling, video games, porn, drugs, booze
>once OD'd on IV heroin while drunk, almost died
>ICU for 3 days, rescued last minute
>suicide thoughts nonstop, self-hate and self-harm daily
>nightmares, breakdowns, can't sleep at night, zombie during the day
>never learned any skills
>been seeing therapists since 13
>diagnosed with depression, anxiety, social anxiety, ADHD, schizoid, bpd, autism, c-ptsd
>on psych meds most of life, abused them too
>alcoholic dad neglected and abused me
>childhood friends bullied and beat me
>bullied by classmates, teachers humiliated me
>skipped school, barely finished with shit grades
>junk food addict, never exercised
>skinny-fat since 7, gynecomastia, puffy nipples, feminine body shape
>acne face, arms and legs covered in self-harm scars
>never slept well, hygiene and cleaning a joke
>never learned to drive, never socialized
>panic attacks around people, avoid eye contact and touch
>no friends, no girlfriend, no romance
>never been kissed, hugged, touched, or had sex
>no studies, no job, no car, no money, >no place of my own
>still live with parents
>literally just rotting
>starting to realize I wasted my entire life
>regret hits like a freight train
