>>82125516 (OP)
I don't know, man. I'd compare getting into your first relationship to climbing a steep mountain. People start at different distances from the top. Some guys when they're young, they have to climb quite a bit uphill. But the more time passes, the more you slide down, because women become more and more disgusted with your inexperience the older you are. And it's not something you can hide reliably. It comes out in the way you interact with them. So it was hard at first, and it's only getting worse. Much worse. It's all very demotivating. Now it's just a perspective of having to put up with a lot of pain, humiliation, and financial costs, and all of that is likely to not even amount to anything. I don't want to say I gave up hope. Unlikely events sometimes happen. But I'm not really in the headspace to deal with dating. I'm too unhappy, and I feel like I'm in a vicious cycle.
