Pretty much given up hope at this point. I feel like I'm fundamentally broken somehow. I earn $180k in a semi-rural Midwest town and I can't even be a beta provider because something about me repels everyone, especially women.
my guess is you both had the same path as most I see in my work:
>in school you did what you were told >at home you did what you were told >you just followed rules >until they stop telling you what to do >and then you had no idea how to live
>>82125895 (OP) >>82126138
Do you actually try to get laid and fail? I'm a 31yo virgin but I don't really care and I went on a few dates in middle/high school but my whole adult life I've self-isolated and never tried to form any relationships or have sex.
The girls at the mall who dress up in sexy costumes are satan. You can talk to them, his real body is just as pretty. You never know what the devil might say. Just be cool, thats actually the devil. Literally immortal and pretends to be a girl.
>>82126241
Yes. I've tried every app, the freaks from soc, approaching randos, etc. I'm pretty ugly and also balding but even when they can't see me something about me just repels everyone. I can't even maintain regular friendships with other dudes no matter how hard I try or if I try putting on a fake persona or just act naturally or whatever.
Maybe there's a gypsy curse on me, or maybe God hates me.
>>82126263
Sorry anon, that sounds rough. If it's any consolation I admire your grit to keep trying even after facing rejection. I'm the sort of person who gives up easily and goes back to my comfort zone after facing any sort of difficulty.
>>82126301
Lol thanks but I gave up years ago. I've been coasting for a while, just waiting until I have enough saved to retire early and play vidya all day
>>82126444
Never mind I read the rest of your post.
Maybe try to hang with like-minded people long term. Become a regular. People are pretty unsociable these days.
>>82126444
I'm above average height and you can't really tell unless you look at my head from above so I'm pretty sure it's not that. I've also tried shaving my head.
>>82126456
Yeah I've tried that but I'm basically invisible to most people unless I try to insert myself into things, which repulses everyone. I don't feel like I say anything wrong, I've even been told my voice is sexy and that I could be a radio announcer. There's just something inherently repulsive about me.
