"Finding e-girls"
Does any other anon ever take 5-10 hours of their time once or twice a month to go e-girl scouting... Typically it ends in nothing but every once in a while I find cute e-girls,, and I'm not talking about finding instagram e-girl #4959 but finding them from comments in videos that aren't viewed as much or videos about niche topics. Of course, if they are pretty you would expect them to have many followers, yes? Well you are right, but often they distant / seperate with two accounts going on between internet and real life, making cases where they only have 80 or 100 followers/subscribers/whatever. Anyways, I archive everything they post and store it in a document to look upon it for nostalgia.. no contact is made until the no contact rule is over, // joining a discord server or groupchat she's in to see how she talks to other people doesn't count as contact
But here comes the best part, when the no-contact rule is broken. I do this after 2-3+ years of them having been absent from e-girling or just the accounts (implying they haven't deleted them because 9 times out of 10 this is what usually happens) and finding a way to message them, typically it lasts to 3-4 hour chats which helps me with the dopamine boost and nostalgia reasons too. I don't know, it just feels good, being completely infatuated with a girl who would never know you until years later where you talk to her about it, I can't get raw conversations so this really is the best I can do
But here comes the best part, when the no-contact rule is broken. I do this after 2-3+ years of them having been absent from e-girling or just the accounts (implying they haven't deleted them because 9 times out of 10 this is what usually happens) and finding a way to message them, typically it lasts to 3-4 hour chats which helps me with the dopamine boost and nostalgia reasons too. I don't know, it just feels good, being completely infatuated with a girl who would never know you until years later where you talk to her about it, I can't get raw conversations so this really is the best I can do
