Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

Heyoo wishing everyone a happy caturday!
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Hello
Here's a bunch of helpful links

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>82129510 (OP)
hellooo catbro! happy caturday! :>

>>82129565
hey heyu :D
how's it going?
today I've been just chilling
found a cool thing to watch, old "knife show" just some southern guy on tv trying to sell cheap chinese crap as if it's gold
https://youtu.be/ZGHYhEjrZo0?si=JHIJdLduzssczYyU
There's lots of stories in the comments of people talk about how they used to enjoy watching it at night while high and stuff
it's interesting

>>82129823
>how's it going?
going alright. not much happened today. how are you?

>today I've been just chilling
same. i cancelled my workout plans and just stayed at home. i rewatched the first naked gun movie. some of the jokes still get me. ^^ then i caught up with sakamoto days. it's one of those shows i just out on because i don't feel like doing anything else. now i'm watching some elden ring nightreign twitch rivals thingy. not sure if i'll watch it til the end, though. don't really care for the game at all.

>There's lots of stories in the comments of people talk about how they used to enjoy watching it at night while high and stuff
there's some artistry to being a good snakeoil salesman. i remember watching infomercials with my friends back in the day. it was especially funny since they often would just shittly dub the original versions. i also remember watching some british guy on youtube who bought all that crap to test it. can't remember his name, though. i also watched a lot of bob ross at night. he's the embodiement of unintentional asmr.

>>82129510 (OP)
heya cat, how's your weekend going?
> old "knife show
>frost cutlery dragonslayer
hell yeah i'm sold!
> enjoy watching it at night while high and stuff
i remember these types of things when too sick and awake really early morning hours. Not a huge fan though lol

>>82130024
hey yuanon!
>not much happened today
how mine feels too. I've just been kinda tired and out of it. Decent workout this morning, but that's about it. Cooking coq au vin in a little bit, first time I'm cooking in a while
> i cancelled my workout plans and just stayed at home.
just not feeling it today, or any other reason?
>shittly dub the original versions.
voicing infomercial dubs is a hell of a career lol

hello everyone. still feel very weird and conflicted and scared obviously. just feels like life sucks rn even tho i got my dream. also had a very bad dream last night

>>82129565
hello yuanon

>>82130265
hello officeanon

>>82129510 (OP)

>>82129823
found the guy i was talking about

https://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL19DFlTh4hRukKzdaIzJ5Kg9Zw8qAh0CQ

also, while we're talking about infomercials and swords. absolute classic:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=m47NiCAfLLg&pp=ygUZa2F0YW5hIGJyZWFrcyBpbmZvbWVyY2lhbA%3D%3D

>>82130265
hi officeanon! :>

>how mine feels too. I've just been kinda tired and out of it.
no surprise there. you just got out of a very stressful phase, so no wonder you need a chill day for once. just get comfy, relax and watch some stupid stuff on youtube. ^^

>Decent workout this morning, but that's about it.
awesome job! (*^*)9 how's your progress?

>Cooking coq au vin in a little bit, first time I'm cooking in a while
do tell how it turned out. i haven't cooked anything elaborate in a while. maybe i should make some chili again. that's always nice.

>just not feeling it today, or any other reason?
yeah. fell asleep super late and woke up feeling a bit sick, so i told my friend i wasn't up for it today. we'll head out tomorrow, though.

>voicing infomercial dubs is a hell of a career lol
true, you can tell they had a good time, though. ^^ there's also a popular series on youtube where weird influencer people i have never heard of or seen before meet a bunch of voice actors and have to figure out which characters they voiced based on some lines. and holy shit. the guy who voicey luffy's looks like he's about to explode every time he does the voice. ^^

>>82130310
hey gator! how was your day?

>still feel very weird and conflicted and scared obviously. just feels like life sucks rn even tho i got my dream.
change is always rough. you'll get used to it.

>also had a very bad dream last night
oh noes! D: what was it about?

>>82130024
>going alright. not much happened today.
that's okay, have a nice time relaxing
>how are you?
basically same
>cancelled my workout plans
that's okay, at least you have more time for urself
>some of the jokes still get
glad you found a way to enjoy yourself!
>artistry
i this in his case it was the lack of any artistry that made it entertaining ;>
>was especially funny since they often would just shittly dub the original
same here :D
>who bought all that crap to test it.
was there anything useful?

>>82130265
Heyoo
>how's your weekend going?
just chilled a lot today
hbu?
and watched some stuff you can see here
>hell yeah i'm sold!
spacial limited edition handcrafted custom design!!!!!!!!
>remember these types of things
I remember watching them as a kid, they were entertaining
I don't know if they're still making them, I don't have a tv anymore

>>82130310
Heya
do you have time to chill this weekend?
>conflicted
yeah makes sense :/
maybe you just need some time to adjust

>>82130631
thanks !
and ty for recommendation!!

>>82130822
>that's okay, have a nice time relaxing
thanks. i will. day feels a bit lost, but i also slept way longer than usual. maybe i needed that.

>basically same
chill day all around, it seems. :]

>at least you have more time for urself
technically true, but for some reason today just flew by.

>glad you found a way to enjoy yourself!
have you ever seen it?

>i this in his case it was the lack of any artistry that made it entertaining ;>
sometimes all it takes is just a guy, some garbage and a camera.

>same here :D
some things never change. ^^

>was there anything useful?
i think the hose was alright.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=XcQPIYeb8d0&list=PL19DFlTh4hRukKzdaIzJ5Kg9Zw8qAh0CQ&index=9&pp=iAQB

>and ty for recommendation!!
you aint seen nothing yet. these art auction segments are awesome.

https://m.youtube.com/@alicetherat/videos

>>82130631
>how was your day?
fine i guess. how about you?
>change is always rough. you'll get used to it.
eh I hope so, just everything is changing, probably have to transfer to being a freshman
>what was it about?
just something about my friend and stuff

>>82130822
>do you have time to chill this weekend?
hopefully yea. do have a few stuff to do tho
>maybe you just need some time to adjust
maybe. how are you doing btw?

>>82130310
hey gator! good to see you. Been a while since I've just been so busy these days. But things are starting to get better.
>still feel very weird and conflicted and scared obviously.
looked up on archive what was going on. Just hang in there. Things are probably rough and will be, but honestly is promising in the sense things are changing

>>82130631
>so no wonder you need a chill day for once.
trying to be a little productive too, but brain is kinda messed up now
>relax and watch some stupid stuff on youtube
am watching more anime lately which is fun. About half way done with chainsaw man, which am enjoying more than I thought something that sounded so absurd
> how's your progress?
decent. I passed what I was doing before my vacation, so definitely making gains
>do tell how it turned out. i haven't cooked anything elaborate in a while
will do! It's hard, but I don't mind taking the time today, since do find it relaxing and easier to focus if I get enough I want done
>make some chili again.
always a good choice as well. Simple but very satisfying
>we'll head out tomorrow, though.
don't push it if you're still not up to it of course!
>you can tell they had a good time, though.
i can imagine they do haha
> explode every time he does the voice.
never watched one piece, but how intense some shonen line deliveries are, i can imagine it's tougher work you'd think in passing that's funny though and premises like that (the series you mentioned) are always wild. Little disconnect seeing real people doing voices you recognize


>>82130822
>hbu?
about the same as you. Just an easy day today
>custom design
i've come to find the more boring a knife looks, the better the quality, as sad as it is.
>I don't know if they're still making them
there's probably still some very old people who watch them to this day. I'm with you though, I don't really use a tv at all and have no desire to check

>>82131171
>day feels a bit lost,
not truee
you spend it on recharging !
you just do things so often that relaxing feels like wasted time to u
>for some reason today just flew by.
any plans to make tomorrow slower?
>have you ever seen it?
yep :D
I remember the beaver scene because for the longest time I didn't know what was the joke
>just a guy, some garbage and a camera.
and a southern accent !
:0
I need it what a deal!
>these art auction
I've seen the video of the kissing one
piece of art indeed

>>82131182
>have a few stuff to do tho
what kind ?
>how are you doing btw?
today I was just chilling and watching old infomercials ^^
sent some here >>82129823
yuanon sent some too

>>82131316
>Just an easy day today
I'm very glad you can relax a little
what did you do?
>the better the quality, as sad as it is.
there are some ccrazy custom ones though but they're also crazy expensive
>probably still some very old people
that is true
there's still a market for it

hey everyone
uhm, sorry for the late reply but i was sleeping for most of the day and had to go to a family dinner...
i slept way too much

>>82131728
hello
ooh dw take your time if you need to ^^
you don't have to be here, it's not a requirement, though it's very nice when you are ^^
>family dinner..
what rid you eat?
>i slept way too much
any dreams?

>>82131182
>fine i guess. how about you?
let's gooo! :D i just had a drink that made me a bit tipsy. other than that not much of note happened. i just chilled the whole day, watching the old naked gun movie, youtube and streams.

>probably have to transfer to being a freshman
it sucks, but watcha gonna do? :/

>something about my friend and stuff
let's hope you'll have a nice dream about him tonight. :>

>>82131316
>trying to be a little productive too, but brain is kinda messed up now
i know the guy can be an idiot most of the time, but sometimes you just gotta listen to that ol' noggin of yours. take it easy, pal.

>am watching more anime lately which is fun.
noice. :> what shows?

>About half way done with chainsaw man, which am enjoying more than I thought something that sounded so absurd
hm. maybe i need to give that show another chance. i dropped it relatively early. it's great you're enjoying yourself, though. what sold you on it?

>decent. I passed what I was doing before my vacation, so definitely making gains
look at you go! that's great! :D keep it up!

>I don't mind taking the time today
soemtimes you just need to reward yourself with something nice.

>Simple but very satisfying
exactly. and you can make a lot of it at once.

>don't push it if you're still not up to it of course!
no worries. it should be fine, but i'll stop if it isn't. o7

>never watched one piece, but how intense some shonen line deliveries are, i can imagine it's tougher work you'd think
absolutely. one of the reason i don't watch many shonen anymore is the damn screaming. when the screaming per episode outweighs the plot progression, i'm out.

>>82131316
>premises like that (the series you mentioned) are always wild. Little disconnect seeing real people doing voices you recognize
it's a complete mindfuck. i'd link the show, but it's in german, so no point in that, really. it also gets worse when one voice actor dubs several other actors. like johnny depp and christian bale were voiced by the same guy before both starred in public enemies. it's also very irritating when they change a voice actor, but sometimes it's necessary. they gave david schwimmer a rather high pitched, goofy voice in friends, but that would not have worked one bit in band of brothers. ^^'

>>82131723
>not truee you spend it on recharging !
you're right. it just feels lost because it went by so quickly. i don't know where the time went today.

>any plans to make tomorrow slower?
if i had the power to do that, i'd use it every day. ^^' maybe getting up a bit earlier would help?

>I remember the beaver scene because for the longest time I didn't know what was the joke
yeah. some jokes don't really work if you don't know the context and it gets even harder when it needs to be translated. i really lost it at the gag where he exchanges money with the guy at the docks.

>and a southern accent ! :0 I need it what a deal!
true. makes a person way more trustworthy.

>I've seen the video of the kissing one
piece of art indeed
than you indeed have seen something already. ^^ sometimes i wonder how long furries have been around doing there thing and then i remember that the lowenmensch (lion-man) figurine is 35000 to 41000 years old.

>>82131728
hi vento!

>had to go to a family dinner...
how was it?

>>82131316
>good to see you.
you too ^^
>things are starting to get better.
happy to hear that
>promising in the sense things are changing
yea i guess so, just everything scares me and everything has its upsides and downsides

>>82131723
>what kind ?
just some stupid stuff with school
>watching old infomercials
oh that's pretty interesting, i remember watching some a while ago there pretty different
>sent some here
I'll check them out

>>82131958
>had a drink that made me a bit tipsy.
well hope you're not too tipsy then
>watching the old naked gun movie, youtube and streams.
sounds pretty nice and chill then, good
>watcha gonna do? :/
idk nothing i guess. i just want something to not have so many downsides
>you'll have a nice dream about him tonight. :>
yea.i really hope so too

>>82132420
>well hope you're not too tipsy then
all good now and i'm in bed anyway. time to get comfy. (~.~)

>sounds pretty nice and chill then, good
it was a nice day.

>i just want something to not have so many downsides
the good, old question that has been on the mind of the greatest thinkers through all ages: why can't shit just work out the way i want for once. i'd love to have an answer or a solution to that. sadly, i don't.

i have to go slep
goodnight fren !
sorry for not replying
hope you all sleepy very well

>>82132705
good night! i'll head to bed, too.

>>82129510 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
Much better than I've been for a while now. It's been a full week since I stopped drinking and it's starting to get much easier. I've been extremely depressed for a while and now I feel like I'm finally starting to feel like my old self.

>Any plans for today?
Work. I'm not getting home until at least 12:30am. Depending on how I'm feeling I might play some vydjya, or go straight to bed.

>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
Wednesday. I don't cut, I burn. Put 5 fat burns on my left arm. That whole arm is probably gonna be just scar tissue by the time I've beaten this. It already looks really bad. It's hard to tell the difference between a scab and a scar anymore.

>Why did you hurt yourself?
Anger at myself. I have immense guilt over my past, I'm frustrated with how much money I spent on drinking, all of my problems are my fault, and sometimes I get so hateful at myself I need to do something to release that anger. So I turn it inward and disfigured my own arm.

>Is there anything bothering you right now?
Finances. I don't have a lot of debt left, but I want it gone so I can have my life back. It'll be a lot easier to pay it off and live if I'm not drinking half my paycheck away, so right now I'm looking towards the future with very nervous optimism.

>>82132860
>It's been a full week since I stopped drinking and it's starting to get much easier. I've been extremely depressed for a while and now I feel like I'm finally starting to feel like my old self.
that's great! well done. must have been hard.

>Depending on how I'm feeling I might play some vydjya, or go straight to bed.
for me it's straight to bed now. what are you playing?

>That whole arm is probably gonna be just scar tissue by the time I've beaten this. It already looks really bad. It's hard to tell the difference between a scab and a scar anymore.
i always recommend getting an aloe vera plant. the gel is great for treating burns. good luck fighting the urge. you can do it.

>all of my problems are my fault
i understand the sentiment, but we're all being set up for failure from the very start. everyone around you makes it impossible for you to stay away from that shit and then acts like it's your fault. it's good you're taking responsibility, but don't let the people who set you up get away scot free.

>sometimes I get so hateful at myself I need to do something to release that anger. So I turn it inward and disfigured my own arm.
well, at least you only turn it against yourself. others aren't as considerate.

>It'll be a lot easier to pay it off and live if I'm not drinking half my paycheck away, so right now I'm looking towards the future with very nervous optimism.
i'm rooting for you, fren. it's not going to be easy, but you can do it. we'll support you as good as we can.