Thread 82129846

Today I went to a childhood summer destination. The last time I was there was over a decade ago when I was a freshman in highschool. I remember that week so vividly because it offer me respite from my life which I hated, especially since entering highschool. I would swim in the morning, play emulated games on my phone during the afternoon and in the evening sit on the patio and listen to music. I tried getting that magic back by playing the same games and listening to the same music before going there. It did nothing for me. It didn't recapture those feelings and the place itself I hardly recognized. I realized that I did all those things back then because those were my natural interests at that time. Forcing them back didn't work, I'm not that child anymore. So I decided to just come as I am and had a good time, hopefully creating new memories like those from a decade ago. That is my blogpost. The past isn't real, don't cling to it. Be authentic and the person you really are now, in this moment.

>>82129846 (OP)
you will repeat this process next year with something else

>>82129846 (OP)
Thank you for the blogpost anon, I enjoyed it.
I experience the same things, but I won't stop clinging to the past, I live almost entirely in the past these days.
Maybe eventually I'll be forced out of this way of being. I can already feel the past diminishing the more I live in it. I can't feel it like I used to. It's going away.
Have a nice day OP

>>82129854
There are fewer and fewer moment worth remembering now. Everything is so dull now. I don't even differentiate the last five or six years.

>>82129884
>I can't feel it like I used to
Me neither. But like I said, there is nothing to be done. There's no force when it comes to feelings and memories. What you feel is what you feel, there is no faking it to yourself.