Thread 82135812

I can't stop thinking about sex with men. I want to kill myself over it.

Thats pretty dramatic. Which i guess is consistent for a FAGGOT lmao

>>82135823
I guess you got me there.

>>82135812 (OP)
Butt you are curious.

>>82135812 (OP)
how does it feel knowing one day the word faggot will mean nothing and in fact be a word of power to you and your ingroup? must be liberating

>>82135812 (OP)
Are the men dinosaurs?

i wanna be kissed and cuddled by a man :|

>>82135908
You want me to say nigger, don't you nigger?

>>82135919
Lots of "straight" guys are curious about this, but never try it because they don't want to get fucked in the ass.

>>82136011
im very curious about it but yes i would prefer to keep my rump in tact

>>82135812 (OP)
God I wish conversion therapy worked

why does it matter? unless you are a full blown homosexual such things are not a problem. you can still have sex with women only and simply keep those thoughts in your head and nobody will know.

>>82135812 (OP)
Oh nah cuz, those 5g signals be hitting different. You need to filter out the microplastics in your body and decalcify your pineal gland

>>82135812 (OP)
Why not just have sex with men? What's the big problem?

>>82135812 (OP)
you should accept yourself for who you are because you are an amazing person

>>82136362
>>82136387
>>82136410
Calcified pineal gland 5g wave victims

>>82136387
It just feels incredibly wrong. Homosexuality, to me, seems deeply subversive to the order of nature. I'm fine with gay people but I don't want to be one myself. Maybe it's a result of the way I was raised, maybe I've been conditioned to think that way over a long period of time, but I just can't shake the feeling of discomfort I associate with sex between men.

>>82136410
I'd really rather not think of my homosexuality as "who I am," it's more of an obstacle than anything.

>>82136480
>it's more of an obstacle than anything.
can you expand on this for me?

>>82136480
>deeply subversive to the order of nature.
Even if that were true, who cares? Who does that hurt? Isnt air conditioning subversive? Open heart surgery?
Gays have existed throughout history. Its a natural variation within human sexuality.
I hope one day this isnt such a big source of pain for you anon. You arent disgusting or a bad person.

>>82136701
It's hard to explain. My sexuality feels more like a problem in need of solving than something I should base my entire personality around. It doesn't feel like a significant part of my identity. It doesn't feel like something that can be used to describe me. It feels like a kernel in my teeth. It just feels incorrect in some abstract, vague way that is hard to ignore or cope with. It feels like something to correct.

>>82136747
I care. I mean yes I guess virtually everything humans do "goes against nature" in some way but this particular thing feels like a more significant violation. And such a superfluous and unnecessary one, too. Air conditioning and heart surgery save lives. Homosexuality doesn't. It's purely in service of lust. If anything it prevents lives from starting, it's literally unproductive. I mean I know there's in vitro fertilization or artificial insemination and stuff like that but... idk I just wish I were more normal. I get jealous when I see men with their girlfriends, all happy with their lives in order. I feel gross.

>>82136815
>It's purely in service of lust.
What about love? Finding someone who has the same desires as you, and feeling safe with them, and at peace with yourself? There have been gay men throughout history who tried to repress themselves, like the actor Anthony Perkins (played Norman Bates in Psycho). It was during a time where being gay could destroy an acting career.
He got a wife and kids, attended conversion therapy, and, it didnt work. He resorted to affairs. What kind of life is that?
Thats not what you deserve anon. If its how you naturally are, then it is natural. I promise you arent gross or disgusting or broken. You are worthy of the love and connection you dream about. Hug

>>82136872
To be honest volcel kind of seems preferable to giving into these kinds of desires. I imagine forcing yourself to marry and start a family with someone you don't actually love would be incredibly selfish and would essentially just torture everyone involved, but why not just keep to yourself? It seems a lot easier than constantly dealing with the whole being openly gay thing, the social aspect, the constant lingering feeling of opaque fear, the identity problems, etc. It seems easier to just be alone.

>>82136931
>would essentially just torture everyone involved
I can agree with you here. More pain for others, especially his kids, who knew.
>It seems easier to just be alone.
I understand how you can come to that conclusion anon. To want to avoid all of the painful stigmas and shame. Maybe I cant convince you, but try to imagine a scenario where you are with someone who has dealt with the same thoughts, doesnt judge you, who you can feel relaxed with and maybe share something intimate with without shame. I know that might sound like something completely divorced from your current reality and state of mind.
Maybe you wouldnt necessarily have to be openly gay, as in, coming out to people, going to gay bars, pride parades, etc normie ish stuff like that. A lot of people dont really resonate with that sort of openness either. You deserve to feel loved and safe and connected with someone who feels the same way anon. You arent dirty or bad for wanting connection that might be different from most others.

it's pretty easy to score with other men.
literally just join a hookup app / website, lose some weight if you're fat and have no standards and you will have a ocean of dick to swim in.
a lot of guys don't even care if you have a busted face if you're just down to fuck (and not fat).