Thread 82139286

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

your day better but nice, or else! >:3

Hello
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

Hello
Here's a bunch of helpful links

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

A whittling thread would be better

>>82139328
would be cool but I can't do that

everyone can do it with practice

>>82139286 (OP)
>your day better but nice, or else! >:3
well, my workout wasn't very good and>i tried sprinting and got a cramp in my leg as well. whatcha gonna do about it, huh? :<

>Hello
hi catbro! hope your day went a bit better than mine. ^^

>>82139937
that's a nice looking kit.

>>82139937
I think I saw a kit like that with a fox
Maybe one day I'll get it
it seems pretty fun
Do you do it?

>>82140048
Helloo
>>82140048
>my workout wasn't very goo
what happened??!!
>got a cram
aaaa!! D;
>whatcha gonna do
rest !
>hope your day went a bit better than mine. ^^
thank you, I'm working on a project now and also gonna play patapons soon

Dropped off early after getting distracted cooking. Dinner was quite good, tried some new wine that was interesting, and had a nice evening overall.

>>82131723
>what did you do?
yesterday was most being lazy other than workout. Little video games, anime, and just lazying around.
Today was more productive with yard work
>crazy expensive
I kinda like knives (not creepy at all I know) but this is too true and keeps me off ones I want
>there's still a market for it
old people are everyones favorite market since most have lots of money and no idea what to do with it

>>82131958
> take it easy, pal.
trying to both take it easy and also do more at the same time. Somehow think I'm starting to get there as contradictory as that sounds
>what shows?
only the most normie of mainstream ones I've fallen behind on. Demon slayer latest season (which finally convinced me I don't like this show), jjk season 2(which convinced me I liked this more than I remember), and latest of re zero (which I always liked but season was the weakest but okkay). I'm going to look for something new soon so if you've seen anything would be happy for suggestions
>i dropped it relatively early.
it's relatively short. I'll say if you didn't like it after first 3 episodes, probably won't get better. I sort of like the characterization of characters in it and it's entertaining enough. I got recommended by my brother who is very hard to please so I considered it a strong endorsement.
> keep it up!
just need to pick it up with those leg days
> you can make a lot of it at once.
I make it as hot as humanly possible so try not to have so much because eating spicy foods day after day isn't wise even if you can handle it.

>>82132420
> just everything scares me
new things are scary, but also promising. If you never put yourself in scary situations, you won't be able to find good ones either.
Know it's tough, but it's progress and opens up so much possibility.

>>82139328
I honestly used to a tiny bit. Never good at it, but it's therapeutic and satisfying even just to shave into little shapes.

>>82139286 (OP)
>your day better but nice, or else
I feel very intimated by hooni with a gun lol

>>82140048
>workout wasn't very good and>i tried sprinting and got a cramp in my leg as well.
that's rough D: sounded like you did need the day off, sorry

feel like ending it all, maybe doing something permanent damage like cutting off my pinkie while i bleed out just to remind me if i survive

>>82140576
>what happened??!!
it was just super rough. nothing felt right and everything was way more exhausting than usual.

>aaaa!! D;
it wasn't super bad, but i had to cut my walk short and head home. still hurts a bit. :/

>rest !
yeah. maybe i'll just make some banana almond milk. could be nice.

>I'm working on a project now and also gonna play patapons soon
good luck with the project!

>>82140708
>Somehow think I'm starting to get there as contradictory as that sounds
i think i know what you mean. some stuff can be done in a chill and recreational way and sadly a lot of us need an excuse to get out of the house these days.

>only the most normie of mainstream ones I've fallen behind on.
people like those for a reason and even the most normie and by the numbers anime beats most other non-anime shows for me.

>Demon slayer latest season (which finally convinced me I don't like this show)
i get you. i watch it, but there's something off putting about it. what's grinding your gears?

>jjk season 2(which convinced me I liked this more than I remember)
i still have to give that another chance. i really liked the first season, but absolutely hate flashbacks that stretch over several episodes, didn't like the artstyle change and don't care about gojo one bit, sooo... tough sell. :/

>re zero
i've got not a single clue about that series. never watched a single epsiode. ^^' what's it about?

>>82140708
>I'll say if you didn't like it after first 3 episodes, probably won't get better.
i've just had a very strange gripe with the animation in one if the earlier episodes and i didn't have the emotional stength to look past it that day. i think it was in the first big fight. can't stand 3d cgi animation in anime in general and especially not it fights scenes fuck you, whoever made dorohedoro anime, and when you can't be bothered to not have your main characters weapon clip through the ground like it's a shitty video game, i kinda have to assume that you don't give a shit about the series you're producing and i won't bother with it, either. i know i have to accept that that garbage won't go away anymore, but i want to feel like the people who produced the show actually liked the source material and cared about making it. sorry for the rant. it's a pet peeve of mine and sometimes i throw a show under the bus for a minor grievance like that. this always takes some time to build up and the next offender gets way more hate from me than they deserve.

>I sort of like the characterization of characters in it and it's entertaining enough.
honestly, i didn't even got that far to form any kind of opinion about the stories and characters. i guess modern settings are also just not my favorite. at least in certain genres.

>just need to pick it up with those leg days
just do heavy carries. those build legs like crazy and you don't even need any special day for it. :p

>I make it as hot as humanly possible so try not to have so much because eating spicy foods day after day isn't wise even if you can handle it.
true. my gut doesn't like super hot food anymore anyways, so i usually try to keep it down. doesn't work a lot of the time, but hey. gotta enjoy stuff once in a while without thinking about the consequences. ^^

>>82140831
hey fren. what got you down like this?

>>82141293
i am failing uni in a degree that is about to be taken over by ai, i applied to over 100 jobs all rejecteded with 200k in debt and my car got stolen last week, i literally have nothing at this point, I can't even buy my anti-depressants which is probably the reason why i feel like shit because I was forced to go cold-turkey on 425mg of venlafaxine, i keep seeing and hearing hallucinations and have no meds to calm me down.

>>82141182
>nothing felt right and everything was way more exhausting
oh :/
well i guess at least it made you take it a bit easier
>still hurts a bit. :/
hopefully it heals by itself
hm maybe an opportunity to call in sick tomorrow?
>maybe i'll just make some banana almond milk. could be nice.
sounds pretty great!
and yes something nice to watch would go along with it well, are you going to watch any movies tonight?
>good luck with the project!
thank youu :D
it near complete

>>82140708
Hey hey
>had a nice evening overall.
that's what I like to hear !
>Today was more productive with yard work
hope the weather wasn't too scorching
>kinda like knives
me too ! :D
>money and no idea what to do with it
and their brains are deteriorating so you can convince them of anything

>>82140831
Hello anon
>>82141376
sounds like you're in a lot of trouble, I don't even know what you could do, maybe call some emergency line?
though they might want money for any help ://

>>82140753
>that's rough D: sounded like you did need the day off, sorry
maybe, but i would have headed out today no matter what, so it had to happen. at least it wasn't so bad and a good reminder to listen to your body when you're not feeling it.

>>82141376
jesus. you've got a lot going on right now.

>i am failing uni in a degree that is about to be taken over by ai
could you pivot to something else?

>i applied to over 100 jobs all rejecteded
sorry to hear that. though i suppose you're not the only one who had this happen to them. what kind of jobs are you trying to get?

>with 200k in debt
hm. are there any organisations you could turn to that specialize in dealing with debt?

>my car got stolen last week
really can't catch a break, can you?

>i keep seeing and hearing hallucinations and have no meds to calm me down.
sounds like a lot more than "just" depression. maybe you can find some solutions that don't require meds online? for now you should probably try to stay calm as possible and deal with the withdrawal as good as you can.

>>82141611
>well i guess at least it made you take it a bit easier
that it did. it's a shitty ending to a shitty week, but at least it's done now. hope the next one will be better.

>hopefully it heals by itself hm maybe an opportunity to call in sick tomorrow?
yeah. it's just a cramp or pulled muscle. should be good tomorrow. i don't think that will be necessary. no worries.

>sounds pretty great!
it was :D

>and yes something nice to watch would go along with it well, are you going to watch any movies tonight?
no. the only thing that's still on my list are the new hikaru epsiodes and i don't feel like watching that atm. maybe i'll keep watching that guy i posted yesterday. something that's easy on the brain and on the emotions. what about you?

>it near complete
let's gooo! :D

>>82141965
>sounds like a lot more than "just" depression.
yes I have diagnozed schizophrenia

>>82141965
>hope the next one will be better.
me too ^^
>should be good tomorrow.
hopefully
> don't think that will be necessary. no worries.
okay if u say so
>maybe i'll keep watching that guy i posted yesterday
okay have fun
> what about you?
watching a stream of criken playing peak with frens
it's very fun

>>82141182
>people like those for a reason
pretty much. I know there's other good stuff out there might be missing, but time constraints these days either way.
> what's grinding your gears?
Just starting to feel it's heavily carried by Ufotable's animation. I do enjoy some of the fights and that alone is good is enjoyable, but the main cast of characters are largely boring and have one trick gags that keep getting repeated and repeated. Even for a shonen, character development is almost non existent. And it tries really hard to be silly in a non funny way during non action segments.
>flashbacks that stretch over several episodes
it was an unusual start for sure. Only 5 episodes and then real season starts and stays good all the way through. Flashback itself I thought was pretty meaningful development by the end
> don't care about gojo one bit
me neither, but it isn't an issue after the flashback section and even then flashback built other characters as well
>what's it about?
i call it the one good isekai. Hard to explain other than that. Has some of the typical isekai cringeiness as well in kinda generic fantasy land, but darker toned and trippy at times
> think it was in the first big fight
that would be the first episode probably then, which honestly that fight wasn't great at all lol. I think that's agreed upon to be the worst of it i believe and the one that gave me pause as well, though still not excusable. I have a feeling no one expected anyone to like this anime as much as it took off judging by many things
>didn't even got that far to form any kind of opinion
i like loser mc's that you get to see grow honestly so i might be biased
>without thinking about the consequences.
true until you eat something so hot your stomach is in pain litterally half an hour later and you know you went too far

>>82141376
sorry about all the troubles anon. What major you in that you're worried about ai replacement? Job market is all around bad now afraid... I think it's the worst market for new grads since the 08' recession honestly.. Not a you problem, but know that doesn't offer much reassurance, sorry

>>82141611
hey cat, how's your day been?
>weather wasn't too scorching
started out not bad, but warmed up an hour in. Plus, moving around a whole lot gets you a little sweaty as well which heats things up too
>me too
been meaning to look for a new pocket knife. I had some cheap spring assisted ones I carry around a bit. But safety is kinda worn from overuse
>brains are deteriorating so you can convince them of anything
something politicians have taken advantage of for years (though here all our politicians are also geriatric)

>>82141965
>listen to your body when you're not feeling it.
agreed

>>82141999
must be hard. how did you find out and how have you been dealing with it?

>>82142315
>me too ^^
fingers crossed.

>hopefully
it's just a bit annoying right now, so it should be.

>okay if u say so
you know me. can't excuse myself if it doesn't completely incapacitate me. :/

>okay have fun
(^-^)b

>watching a stream of criken playing peak with frens it's very fun
nice. my guy's just playing rimworld again. it's mildly entertaining.

>>82142658
>must be hard. how did you find out and how have you been dealing with it?
before covid so like 5 years ago i had therapist meetings every month and i would talk about meds with a doc every 6 months. After covid everything went to shit wherer i had 10 min phone therapy sessions and eventually nothing. Idk just seems that everyone forgot me, biggest thing keeeping me up was having a job but it lost that few months ago

>>82142530
>how's your day been?
now I'm watching criken play peak
and before I was working on some project
>moving around a whole lot gets you a little sweaty
I can imagine
how warm was it? here it was pretty warm around 30c 90f
>meaning to look for a new pocket knife. I
when I was very into knifes sanrenmu 710 was the best value knife, I think it's still is but its a little more expensive than it used to
>something politicians have taken advantage of for years
here they scare people with other people
and it works scary well

>>82142658
>can't excuse myself if it doesn't completely incapacitate me. :/
I knuw :<
how does sick days off work over there? do you only have a certain number of days you can use?
>my guy's just playing rimworld again. it's mildly entertaining.
it's a nice game
but yeah not very fun to watch if someone plays seriously
Charborg used to stream it but he would do a coliseum think where viewers could spawn creatures for humans to fight

>>82142443
>I know there's other good stuff out there might be missing, but time constraints these days either way.
only one i always recommend is samurai champloo. in the end everyone just needs to find the sources of entertainment that insult their sensibilities the least.

>Just starting to feel it's heavily carried by Ufotable's animation.
definitely agree. it's very nice to look at. if you ignore the weird proportions of the characters, that is.

>but the main cast of characters are largely boring and have one trick gags that keep getting repeated and repeated.
they're boring at best and completely insufferable at worst. the yellow one in particular. i was considering dropping the series because of him the most. than i watched digimon: ghost game and discovered that the screaming, narcoleptic retard that becomes hyper-competent when unconscious is actually an archetype now. a character who only exists so they can keep him screeching for the whole show with no meaningful progression or lessons learned. fucking hell.

>Even for a shonen, character development is almost non existent.
agreed.

>And it tries really hard to be silly in a non funny way during non action segments.
also true. i'd argue the same for fullmetal alchemist, but man did you need those moments the more the story went on...

>Only 5 episodes and then real season starts and stays good all the way through.
maybe they should have told me somewhere. i was watching the show when it aired and waiting an entire week to watch an episode in an arc i couldn't care less about with no clue when it would end was not very enticing. by the middle of episode two i was seething pretty hard. ^^' only one show that made me madder, i think.

>Flashback itself I thought was pretty meaningful development by the end
i'll take your word for it. ^^

>>82142443
>isn't an issue after the flashback section and even then flashback built other characters as well
yeah, but doesn't it just build them to the point they were like last time we saw them?

>i call it the one good isekai.
for me that's escaflowne, but take that with a grain of salt. i was like 14 when i watched that.

>Has some of the typical isekai cringeiness as well in kinda generic fantasy land, but darker toned and trippy at times
i'm sure it's fine when you get past the cringe. fought through it watching kpop demon hunters and the movie was alright after i did.

>I have a feeling no one expected anyone to like this anime as much as it took off judging by many things
i think the manga was pretty well received and a lot of people anticipated the show. i didn't care for either, but i just wanted to at least give it a fair chance. turned out it wasn't for me, after all. also not a huge fan of suits, so maybe that influenced my feelings on the show.

>i like loser mc's that you get to see grow honestly so i might be biased
and maybe i'm to much of a loser myself to be drawn to this kind of character. familiarity breeds contempt. or so i've heard. then again, a good character arc is a good character arc.

>until you eat something so hot your stomach is in pain litterally half an hour later and you know you went too far
don't remind me. that's the chicken vindaloo of an indian place near me. love it, but depending on how hot it is, it absolutely kills me. i decided to not eat it anymore. :/

>>82142782
>Idk just seems that everyone forgot me
can't say we live in a very caring society. :/ what about your family? what about friends?

>biggest thing keeeping me up was having a job but it lost that few months ago
i know what you mean. gives a lot of structure and security. what did you do?

>>82142908
>how does sick days off work over there? do you only have a certain number of days you can use?
if you're too sick to work, you're too sick to work. the issue is that we're understaffed in general and one of my coworkers is on vacation right now. it would be a lot of stress for anyone involved if i just took a day of because my leg hurts a bit.

>but yeah not very fun to watch if someone plays seriously Charborg used to stream it but he would do a coliseum think where viewers could spawn creatures for humans to fight
heh. the guy i'm watching as been playing for years now and hasn't finished a single run, i think. i don't believe he could build anything elaborate like that if his life depended on it.

hey everyone, tomorrow will be interesting and scary.

>>82140753
>also promising
i guess do feel like the past few months i was getting things sorted out well
>progress and opens up so much possibility
i guess just really scard and terrified of losing the only real reason i have to live

>>82143336
>would be a lot of stress for anyone in
yeh I but I just don't want you to get qs big as last week
>hasn't finished a single run, i
what ! :0

>>82143452
hello how's it going?
>tomorrow will be interesting and scary.
yeah but let's leave worrying about tomorrow for tomorrow
Do you have any plans for today?

>>82143452
hi gator!

>tomorrow will be interesting and scary.
why? what's going to happen?

>>82143543
>yeh I but I just don't want you to get qs big as last week
i'll try my best to not let it get that bad. sadly it's not always up to me, though.

>what ! :0
he's very enthusiastic, but not very good... ^^'

i should probably call it a day. good night, everyone!

sorry was playing minesweeper

>>82143543
>hello how's it going?
fine i guess. you?
>let's leave worrying about tomorrow for tomorrow
hard too
>Do you have any plans for today?
not really just try to sleep and try not to be to stressed

>>82143817
>why? what's going to happen?
I'll probably be transitioning to be a freshman which will change like most of my classes and a lot of people will see me and think im weird cause I'm much older and dumber obviously