Thread 82149518

>be me, 19 years old
>just barely trying to put myself out there , talk to women
>shithead efriends decide to pull prank on me
>send people out to stalk me, harass me, doxxed me and gave out my number and info as well
>start claiming that its all in my head and that im schizophrenic
>tell my parents about everything
>they also claim im schizophrenic and that its from drugs
>dad eventually has me sent to shrink and falsely diagnosed
>get forcefully put on meds
>no matter how much evidence I show them (strange texts at night , etc) they dont believe me
>eventually have me thrown in psych ward for a month just for shits an giggles
>fast forward, 24 years old
>entire life basically ruined
>try to make something out of it by trying to be doctor
>Dad has some shrink literally brought in from the Soviet Union(known for psychiatric abuse)
>has me convinced that I actually have something and just dont believe in science
>has me put on meds again
>kicked out of medical job for being schizo
>now a 27 years old virgin who have been through suicide worthy experiences
>everyone just says it was a long time ago and I should just get over it
>parents laugh it off like it was no bug deal

Should I just an hero anons ? I feel like its the only option left. My life is a genuine living hell, like I have No Mouth and Must Scream level of shit. Like I basically live in the levels of Chris Chan and Daniel Larson for no reason at all.

What sucks worse is I literally managed to get my shit together around 23-24 and at least had a chance at a normal life again and that mf from the Soviet Union basically redid the lobotomy

have you tried cold showers and doing 30 pushups in the morning everyday?

>>82149518 (OP)
Join the army. Seriously you need to start afresh, hell join the French foreign legion.

>>82149593
Tried. They basically treated me like shit to no avail . It wasnt even the David Goggins embrace the suck stuff it was just a meat grinder basically
My experience from the military;
>former jocks and Chads from highschool got ahead of everyone
>got all the barracks bunnies and girls and would actively cockblock everyone else
>drill Sgt literally hazed a guy into almost committing suicide just because he smiled at him during boot camp
>constantly treated like shit, had me locked in my dorm for 5 months for being late to class once
>basically a social outcast even in their circles

Then again that was Air Force, theyre known for being very picky and selective. Maybe Army culture is different ?

Why would you kill yourself instead of the people that wronged you? I don't get it. Are you into cuckoldry?

>>82149518 (OP)
>claiming
>>82149518 (OP)
>experiences

>>82149518 (OP)
>Should I just an hero anons?
no

>>82149518 (OP)
Feel like you're leaving out huge swathes of information here desu

>>82149695
There really wasnt. The worst part is I had re established myself, I was 24, going to university again, had a great career, finally had a chance to re establish a normal life and they all just knocked me back down to oblivion.

>>82149684
I feel like it would be the best rebellion in this case. They all want me to just move on like nothing happened, like it was no big deal and it was all just some funny joke I wasnt in on.

>>82149721
bruh you fucked up man.

honestly, if you could stop giving a shit and just lived life on your own terms, would it be a problem for you? I understand if you can't accept this.

Like, just try to move out within 2 years without any goals of getting a wife or anything and just do whatever you want to do afterwards.

Like go on cheap trips, play vidya all day, take care of yourself, find some 30+ 40+ women to fuck for a night only.

The odds you can become normal at this point are pretty low, and the road difficult, but if you at least can move out within 2 years with no obligations to anyone maybe it can be worthwhile.

Otherwise, 1 word: fate. Accept your shitty fate, at least ur not some nigger working in a coal mine 16 hours a day to find cheap gold for mr shekelberg.

>>82150584
don't listen to this advice op, first of all you didn't fuck up anything, other people fucked you up, second don't start playing vidya and doing hedonistic shit you're 27 and don't have anything to show for it, you need to start working on fixing the shitty hand life gave you asap and the first thing you need to do is cut all the cunts that put you in this situation from your life, save up enough money to move to another city and start from scratch if you managed to get into med school you'll figure out how to live by yourself, lastly if you're really going to kys kill the people that ruined your life first, this world is already too filled with sociopathic people at the very least cull them before you go.

>>82149518 (OP)
You are an anti-semite lol

>>82149684
Goyim needs to kill themselves

>>82149518 (OP)
It's not like you can't recover again but if you were to group up these people and commit mass homicide I'd understand too

>>82149518 (OP)
Age old situation of cascading stupidity, nothing short of isolation will give you relief.

>>82149518 (OP)
>send people out to stalk me, harass me, doxxed me and gave out my number and info as well
Went through something simillar. It sucks.
>get forcefully put on meds
>eventually have me thrown in psych ward for a month just for shits an giggles
Had a friend that happend to. I'm sorry you had to go through that, anon.
>Should I just an hero anons?
No, you should get away from your toxic family and start fresh. 27 is still young, you have your whole life ahead of you.
>My life is a genuine living hell
I believe you, but it can be better. Move out and be a man on your own. Regain your independence.

>>82151734
What baffles me is in all these years my father never thought to himself
>hey, maybe what im doing to my son is wrong

If anything he gets gratified by his behavior . Its insane. To him its nothing

>>82151717
I reported the illegitimate shrink from Russia to ICE so maybe theres like a 50/50 chance he gets dealt with. Aside from that ill probably just join the military and move out for a few years.

You're 27 already. Yes you were bullied but school is over long ago, stop your silly sorry ass show

>>82152505
Theres definitely a difference between this and being shoved in a locker or whatever. I know you all want me to act like it was nothing but fuck you.

>>82150584
Its pretty awful. I remember I told my dad about still being virgin around 22-23 and he decided to take me to some Mexican gangsters and said I wanted to be a pornstar. Literally said all I care about is sex when literally everyone else has been getting laid.

>>82152505
>being bullied in school
Yeah anon this is much different than that. Either way I wont concede to these people because thats all they want, to just forget about it like nothing happened. Anyone else would have killed themselves at this point.

>>82149518 (OP)
>Should I just an hero anons ?
nah

>>82152594
They will never understand anon, even the so called "non-normies" (aka failed normies) on here will claim you are totally fine and can turn your life around with normie-tier advice.

I understand your mentally fucked up, and that normal things will definitely not motivate you. Prioritize yourself, your peace, your calm, with the only requirement to get away from your parents within a year or two. In this phase let anything be your motivation, the cheap travels, the video games, fucking washed up roasties.

Later, you can think about healing your traumas, developping your "self" and advancing in life from a normie perspective.

Right now your priority should be to get away and have fun without destroying yourself. Nothing wrong with that. In the meantime learn about shadow work a la Carl Jung to truly learn your own identity instead of what your shitty parents forced on you. Doing that will give your life meaning as well, and probably make you a decent human being capable of TRUE empathy.

But you need peace first, and motivation to get that peace first, which can be anything. Dont let normies tell you that being self-indulgent is wrong even though they marry used up whores and call that normal. Just dont do drugs and dont be an adulterer.

Religion CAN help, but Imo some meditation is all you need, for clearheadedness.

Good luck my nigga

>>82149518 (OP)
>send people out to stalk me, harass me, doxxed me and gave out my number and info as well
You're a textbook paranoid schizophrenic and definitely will not be joining the US military. That you think you can only highlights the ridiculous level of delusion you live with, or you're just badly larping.

>>82149518 (OP)
>shithead efriends decide to pull prank on me
>send people out to stalk me, harass me, doxxed me and gave out my number and info as well
this is a very common schizophrenic experience though, and it's not common at all for people's idea of a prank to be about stalking and harassment. but to give you the benefit of the doubt, are you off your medication right now? if yes, and you're not experiencing feelings of being stalked or harassed, then you were indeed wronged by people in the past. if no, and you're still regularly taking your medication, then keep taking them because it's likely you're actually schizophrenic. it's a very tragic mental disease because it makes you believe things as genuinely as anyone else, and as sad as that reality is, medication really is your only salvation.

as for if you should an hero, i wouldn't if i were you. i went through similar experiences, and i agree that you shouldn't 'just get over it'. live life as genuinely as you see it, whether it's mediocre comfort or painful, but it's the only way to eventually create a new path for yourself that is personal to you, that isn't determined by anyone else. i believe you can do it, because i'm doing it. call that cope, but maybe that's all we can afford ourselves when we sink that low.

>>82153700
Yes people on the internet have never stalked or harassed someone for shits and giggles right

>>82153726
Its blatant trolling anon dobt reply they just want to get a rile out of people

>>82149634
Fuck the airforce.

>>82149518 (OP)
Just hunt em down and beat the fuck out of them, that's the best medicine.

>>82153578
>Prioritize yourself, your peace, your calm, with the only requirement to get away from your parents within a year or two. In this phase let anything be your motivation, the cheap travels, the video games, fucking washed up roasties.

Sounds like a plan anon
>washed up roasties
Practically all I have left at this point. If only I stayed in college.