>>82163643 (OP)
>All the women in my life are a headache.
Same, except my mom and grandma, they're nice.
>Why do I want a girlfriend again? What in the Hell is wrong with me?
Biology, basically. Your primitive monkey brain overrides your intelligence and craves pussy.
In order to become a content volcel, you have to keep telling yourself that this is a stupid want and you must try taking your mind off it.
As a former mild alcoholic, it's a bit like that. I almost always want to drink a case of beer, but I must remind myself that it is bad for me and as a human, I must resist my instincts and temptations if I want to be happy, long term.