>>82164964
My favorite thing to do is imagining myself outside my body as a female and feeling my breasts and vulva. I sometimes pull on my imaginary hair and feel the contour of my hairline around my face. I do it in variety of different configurations, with clothes, and upside down. I try to focus on the visceral feelings of my organs and the goosebumps of my skin.
When I get sleep paralysis sometimes I become "fused" with another human and feel like a caterpillar wiggling out of a cocoon. (Siamese hallucination), last night's paralysis was just the night hag holding me from behind and weighing me down.
I'm bipolar so had psychosis where I was having tactile hallucinations and had clairvoyant premonitory visions of random things like washing my hands where it felt like my entire body was submerged in ice water. The worst episodes are where I'm in a sleep paralysis, and I start to levitate, but that's okay, it's just when something pulls your limp body across the floor or off the bed.
Medicated now so it doesn't happen unless I take my special supplements to induce a nighttime paralysis. Namely a serotonin precursor which makes me think that the fluorescence of indole in the body cause a dielectric field in the brain to holography and interact with otherworldly entities (tryptamine beings).
Funny experiences when it happens are when I hallucinated a shadow form of my old friend who tried to hug me from behind, and I high kicked above me to have him let go trying to score a head shot. Flipped out of my recliner awake, and then realized nothing was there. Mom said she had a dream of him recently after where a snake bit him on the neck.
I would also get graphic violent nightmares around then too, where I would see people being shot or having their heads caved in with a stick.
Other times I saw a shadow being was in my computer room in a dream, where I was melted into the chair like I was the chair and a black silhouette loomed over where I was to "stare" at me.
