Imagine constantly having a bombshell in the chamber like i have by being a 34 year old kissless virgin who never had a gf while working as a beloved massage therapist for now 7+ years.
And by every passing year, especially as i will look alittle better by losing weight and improving some other things to come, the bombshell just keeps getting bigger.
At any point in any conversation i could spill it all and just destroy someones worldview or many peoples worldview at the same time with so little effort as just simply stating the truth, like i do here online.
Thats disregarding the fact that i already fake a more loud, extroverted personality when im outside my house.
I have explained this to my family that i feel bit sorry i dont have the energy to express myself like i do at work for example. Even though those at work deserve my enthusiasm, love and friendliness much less than my family.
They have accepted it though which im happy about since they atleast get the real me when im with them. I have stated that i do love them even if I dont express myself that much.
All in the name of preserving energy to use at my work as to be liked, for the purpose of pleasing customer, for the purpose of pleasing the boss, for the purpose of keeping my job.
With great power comes great responsibility.
And by every passing year, especially as i will look alittle better by losing weight and improving some other things to come, the bombshell just keeps getting bigger.
At any point in any conversation i could spill it all and just destroy someones worldview or many peoples worldview at the same time with so little effort as just simply stating the truth, like i do here online.
Thats disregarding the fact that i already fake a more loud, extroverted personality when im outside my house.
I have explained this to my family that i feel bit sorry i dont have the energy to express myself like i do at work for example. Even though those at work deserve my enthusiasm, love and friendliness much less than my family.
They have accepted it though which im happy about since they atleast get the real me when im with them. I have stated that i do love them even if I dont express myself that much.
All in the name of preserving energy to use at my work as to be liked, for the purpose of pleasing customer, for the purpose of pleasing the boss, for the purpose of keeping my job.
With great power comes great responsibility.