I have a mental illness ya all.
Diagnosed as schizophrenic in 2014.
28 years old. No wife, no gf, no job and virgin. My doctor says I can live a normal life if I take meds. I feel better than in the past. I'm just paranoid of people (who obviously notice me) start talking about me. I'm convinced they do. And I can't really approach if they do not talk first to me. To add more, I have no conversation topics or interest in what normal people like/follow. I feel I'm in the middle of some shady stuff all the time. The conspiracy is allegedly to help my Ill ass but whenever I try to talk to neighbors it's like everything I was thinking was a lie, like they treat me as a sane person(?) and it's them talking everytime and just nodding (uhum, yeah yeah definitely) because I like to listen before I open my mouth, like good manners. I was told to be nice, and "Don't do unto others what you don't want done unto you."

I hear em talking everyday almost as if my life was a tv show. Every thing I do and then I hear some comments even try to talk back to them sometimes but they don't stop.

I have no work experience either and I have to get a grip on reality now that my parents are older. I feel paranoid I look odd or too strange. I know i have to do it soon.

I just can't. I'd like to be normal but this hurts so much even if it's for the better.

I don't even want to talk to my neighbors, or most people. I talk to very few people that I consider worthy-enough (not by much) in online circles that I usually find from playing games with people.

It sounds like your biggest issue is that you're trying to go out of your way to force yourself to try to be what you consider 'normal' and by doing so are looking strange. Just do what you enjoy and stop trying to force it.

>>82179587 (OP)
Dude your neighbours literally have anal sex with womens assholes, they dont want to talk to some fag. You should kill your self and take some of them with you.

>>82179602
You are like me. I think exactly like you. But the bad thing is this crazy thoughts persists. I see police cars and the army pass by my house and the places I go on a regular basis(walk the dog, buy some groceries for mom) like they're insisting really hard.
>>82179611
>Le if I bully a mentally illness person my dick will be longer

>>82179698
No they actually do. They literally all have sex except for you. They have a naked girls butt against their cock every single night.

>>82179705
>But, eh.. uh... Here's some more bullying
I don't care about sex. Someday when everything works out I'll find my wife. You your next move is to call me naive because they all fuck Chads and have kids. Fuck off.

>>82179738
Im just pointing out how all your neighbours that you talk to have a naked girls butthole in their hand every day. Lol thats what they do for fun. Like im not even joking they actually enjoy putting their huge bull cock in girls mouths. I know that sounds kinda gross, youll never need to worry about that.

>>82179767
you must be 18 or older to post here kid

>>82179774
Dude even your mom has lots of poo leaking out onto your dads face when he licks her asshole. Then they call you and ask you pointless questions.

>>82179767
No. I don't care. It's not gross except for anal sex. I just know I'm not in a high place of the hierarchy to have all the girls I want. I know my place. Did you read my OP post and thought I had a chance? Do I know you?

>>82179798
Yeah the Bible describes you as an omega male. God said he had cloned himself into two types of humans, alpha and omega. You are actually god, you are omnipotent. But, god is content living the life of both alphas and omegas.

>>82179823
*Yawn* I'm off to sleep.

>>82179833
Yeah I know you sleep a lot because you dont have a cute girlfriend to entertain you. There isnt much to do except sleep or fuck a lot.