Living a normal life with mental illness
I have a mental illness ya all.
Diagnosed as schizophrenic in 2014.
28 years old. No wife, no gf, no job and virgin. My doctor says I can live a normal life if I take meds. I feel better than in the past. I'm just paranoid of people (who obviously notice me) start talking about me. I'm convinced they do. And I can't really approach if they do not talk first to me. To add more, I have no conversation topics or interest in what normal people like/follow. I feel I'm in the middle of some shady stuff all the time. The conspiracy is allegedly to help my Ill ass but whenever I try to talk to neighbors it's like everything I was thinking was a lie, like they treat me as a sane person(?) and it's them talking everytime and just nodding (uhum, yeah yeah definitely) because I like to listen before I open my mouth, like good manners. I was told to be nice, and "Don't do unto others what you don't want done unto you."
I hear em talking everyday almost as if my life was a tv show. Every thing I do and then I hear some comments even try to talk back to them sometimes but they don't stop.
I have no work experience either and I have to get a grip on reality now that my parents are older. I feel paranoid I look odd or too strange. I know i have to do it soon.
I just can't. I'd like to be normal but this hurts so much even if it's for the better.
Diagnosed as schizophrenic in 2014.
28 years old. No wife, no gf, no job and virgin. My doctor says I can live a normal life if I take meds. I feel better than in the past. I'm just paranoid of people (who obviously notice me) start talking about me. I'm convinced they do. And I can't really approach if they do not talk first to me. To add more, I have no conversation topics or interest in what normal people like/follow. I feel I'm in the middle of some shady stuff all the time. The conspiracy is allegedly to help my Ill ass but whenever I try to talk to neighbors it's like everything I was thinking was a lie, like they treat me as a sane person(?) and it's them talking everytime and just nodding (uhum, yeah yeah definitely) because I like to listen before I open my mouth, like good manners. I was told to be nice, and "Don't do unto others what you don't want done unto you."
I hear em talking everyday almost as if my life was a tv show. Every thing I do and then I hear some comments even try to talk back to them sometimes but they don't stop.
I have no work experience either and I have to get a grip on reality now that my parents are older. I feel paranoid I look odd or too strange. I know i have to do it soon.
I just can't. I'd like to be normal but this hurts so much even if it's for the better.