Are we all resentful of how life turned out for us?

i think most robots are spoiled bitches now and their lives are not hard, maybe trannies have it rough but most are just self proclaimed "incels" "femcels" who never struggled in life

yes. I'm trapped in an 8yr marriage that I got into while I was a sex addict. I've grown and don't love her anymore. Now I'm a lot heathier but feel to guilty to leave after all the lies and cheating I did.

She kind of spoiled and co-dependent so I'm afraid she'd become a self-hating spinster without me.

I'm stuck with a low-mid when I could pull a young high stacy.

>>82188511 (OP)
Nah, I chose all of this. If I had a ton of money I'd be living the exact same way as I am right now. What's to change when I don't realistically want anything in particular. I love the unending grey. I wish I was a ghost. Not dead, just a ghost. Immaterial and floating through reality, not a care in the world.

>>82188511 (OP)
You're resentful because you felt like you were "promised" a life of luxury and abundance
The world is what you make of it, anons

Objectively, to others, my life is shit
But to me, my life is just that - life
It's nothing to write home about, nothing to worry about

Things just happen, and I do what I need to do to get by

>>82188638
>sex addict
what does this mean. and how did you wife allow it since most womans sex drives are very low

>>82188511 (OP)
>horrible childhood, absent father, abusive mother
>grew up, got a career, life was decent for a couple years
>whole world goes to shit and life is horrible again
>become a drug addicted hermit, lost most of my friends
>ptsd that causes crippling anxiety, depression, and abandonment anxiety, making dating impossible, therefore no wife or family in sight likely ever
>just turned 35, owari da
Yes, I'm resentful

>>82188665
In my 20s, I was pretty hooked on porn. So the first *normal" non-hooker woman to acknowledge me and give me sex, I pretty much latched onto. I hid the porn obviously and also was cheating off of tinder and craigslist.

She found out (I left a webpage open to an escort site) but we got therapy and just moved on. I married her to "prove" that I was serious about recovery. I deep down didn't want to.

I've gotten better but I realize that she's really not the one for me. She's very demanding, high maintenance, a bitch/feminist, bossy etc. And she's always has kinda been like that. I've tried to break it off twice over the relationship but never could fully cut it off.

Now I just feel like I settled and I'm stuck with her.

I guess I'm grateful to be healthy.

>>82188511 (OP)
i am resentful that i was lied to and fed a crock of shit
everything i was told is important isn't and all the things which are important i neglected

>>82188704
If you don't love her I don't understand why you're with her ... unless out of some kind of moral obligation?

Do you have children together?

I don't know why you would have married her if you did not love her and were cheating on her ... why would you need to prove anything to her? Lmao that someone would get married to someone who had just been cheating on them. Very strange all of this.

It baffles me anon, but I am curious.

>>82188511 (OP)
Maybe or maybe not. I don't know anymore

>>82188511 (OP)
I'm a 32 khhv and I don't regret a second of it.
My path was rough especially in my childhood. I'm enjoying the peace and mundane nature of adulthood.
Nobody wants me, and I don't want them. It's a nice sort of peace.

>>82188511 (OP)
I did this to myself, I hate myself for doing this to myself. That said I will not do anything about it.

>>82188725
Love isn't the only reason people get together. At that stage in my life, I had low self-esteem and got rejected quite a bit. I was a backup boyfriend for her and knew I would make money as an engineer. So on the outside seems like "love" but it was mutually beneficial for both of us. I got attention and she got stability.

After a while and your lives get entangled, it's hard to just get up and leave. Especially if it's not something directly that is her fault.

Guys and girls get pressured into marriage all the time for whatever reason. She pushed me to do it eventually and I wasn't strong enough to say no. I dragged it out for a while too. But women get older and they want commitment.

It sounds easy to just break it off, but it's harder than you think.

For her to still want to be together after all the cheating, relationships can withstand ALOT of shit. And women as they get older realize they don't have the same leverage over men as they did. desu I don't think she could do better than me, despite the cheating and such.

>>82188860
>man
>cheating
Cheating literally doesn't exist for men. You can have your mistress and side hoes and stop feeling guilty because it's just a social construct. Powerful men still have their own harem because they are rich and above the laws why can't you?

>>82188638
>failed normgroid talking on an incel robot board
get out

I wish I could trade parts of my life for things Im lacking, but if anything I wish I could erase certain memories and actually take a fresh start now.

i'm not really resentful, i've come to accept that i'm just an inferior human and that's the way it is. some people have to be the bottom of the bell curve.

>>82188900
I kinda agree and you literally describe where I'm at now. I still do stuff on the side here and there at massage parlours, flirt etc It's largely motivated to release stress rather than trying to feel good about myself now. Like I could pull women easily.

Cheating or not, it wouldn't change my feeling towards her.

The guilt is from the lying about it, unfortunately....but I mean I still do it regardless and chalk it up to what you mentioned.

>>82188932
i want to go back to being an incel, I had no idea how good I had it

>>82189028
Just treat her well if you feel bad about it. Women is the type of animal that like comfortable lies than brutal honesty anyway. And since she didn't divorce you, she has accepted the fact that she can't keep you in a chain.