hey anone. how are you feeling? you managed to get to friday so good work! what are you gonna do this weekend?

i folded all my laundry for the first time since last october
i might continue cleaning my room next. maybe ill drive for uber eats to make some cash in the evening depends on how i feel

>>82191938 (OP)
I will jerk off four or five times.

>>82191938 (OP)
Hopefully meet up with the fembot I've been chatting with.

i think i will bedrot for the entire weekend

my parents are out of town so i might invite a guy over to fuck me like a rabbit on ecstasy

>>82191946
>i folded all my laundry for the first time since last october
oh nice good job! i hate folding laundry. so boring and tedious. good luck with the drives if you end up doing that!
>>82191950
zerking your willy is bad for your health anon don't do that
>>82191956
good luck anon! go get her
>>82192318
seems like a plan.

>>82192546
Work. Work. Work. Work. Wrk. wr. k. w.k.

>>82191938 (OP)
>hey anone
hello
>how are you feeling?
Confused and icky
>what are you gonna do this weekend?
Get supplies for my aquarium and actually fill it with water. Hopefully also do something else since this will just take a couple hours. Dunno what however. I have such a huge backlog of stuff i wanna do. Also apply for a suboptimal position to try stop being a NEET. Very pessimistic about that specifically.

>>82192546
>zerking your willy is bad for your health
deboonked

>>82191938 (OP)
>you managed to get to friday so good work!
Thanks, being a NEET is tough work
>what are you gonna do this weekend?
Maybe update my resume and grind my skills

>>82192559
well that sucks. what kind of work is it that keeps you busy in the weekends?
>>82192580
>hello
hi!
>Confused and icky
huh, are you sickly anon?
>Get supplies for my aquarium
oh i love aquariums! what kind of things are you going to put in it? and what kinda fish?
>I have such a huge backlog of stuff i wanna do
just take it slow and do one at a time, or you might get overwhelmed with it all. good luck with your application. what kinda position is it? i've tried to get a summer job for all summer now and never got hired. really bummed me out.
>>82192585
>deboonked
nuh uh, le heckin science proved that supernatural stimuli mess with your dopamine receptors.
also funny cat video
>>82192733
>being a NEET is tough work
it can be sometimes! for different reasons
>and grind my skills
what are you working on anon?

>>82191938 (OP)
I turned 27 last month
Every day since, the call to join the "27 Club" gets stronger and stronger

>>82191938 (OP)
feel bad, im going to spend the weekend insulting other anons and making them feel bad
how about you?

>>82192777 (checked)
>huh, are you sickly anon?
Well my body is in pretty bad shape but its only a minor factor all things considered and is just a symptom of my mental. Not much is happening right now but im getting overwhelmed. Considering not taking my meds tomorrow. They only situationally help in cases like these after all, i think, and in some ways make it worse.
>what kind of things are you going to put in it?
Some crustaceans. Main resident will probably be cherry shrimps. Wanted to get crayfish at first but long story short some species have detrimental downsides with some being illegal for very good reasons and the ones that are fine would require me to, at the very least, quadruple my budget with good luck.
Maybe a fish too if i find a cool enough that would be comfortable in this tank.
>just take it slow and do one at a time, or you might get overwhelmed with it all
I have been taking it slow and getting overwhelmed for as long as i could remember. Im behind on so many things its unrecoverable, dunno what else can be said on this.
>good luck with your application
sorta hope i get declined but that is unlikely.
>what kinda position is it?
A voluntary work program kinda. This is supposed to be one of the "better" ones but all info i have is on a "dude, trust me bro" basis.
These are usually on a full time basis and already pay shit but i only get a third of the money in the end too lol.
If i could i would just shit on my degree, fuck off, and be a catfish farmer or something in that direction. I don't really like what im predisposed or """talented""" at.

>>82192777
BLUE COLLAR WORKKKKK
MASSA GOT ME WORKIN
WORK IS NEVER FINISH
ONE DAY MASSA SET ME FREE

>>82192884
happy late birthday anon! and yeah, i get how tempting it is, my plan is to also join the club too once i get there.
>>82192914
>im going to spend the weekend insulting other anons
i think you should be nice instead anon, that might make you feel better too!
>how about you?
probably lie in bed or sit in my chair trying not to get a heat stroke...
>>82193118
>but im getting overwhelmed
hm i understand. really dont know how to stop the feeling of panic when i realize im getting overwhelmed with everything... hope you can get through it anon.
>and in some ways make it worse
how so?
>>82193118
>cherry shrimps
those look kinda funny. personally not a huge fan of crustaceans, though i enjoy seeing crabs zoom sideways.
>some being illegal
the murder lobster scares the governament...
>Maybe a fish too
i dont know much about fishes but i do like goldfish! and those very coloured ones with floaty fins
>Im behind on so many things its unrecoverable
hm, i see. keep in mind life is not a race despite what everyone else says. do what you can. try to be happy and do what you enjoy doing! try your best to not worry about whatever everyone else is doing.
>sorta hope i get declined
heh, i also did whenver i sent job applications. though i didnt think i'd actually get declined by all of them...
>but i only get a third of the money in the end too lol
well that's like borderline slavery. it is what it is i guess... hope it wont be too hard if you do get hired!
>If i could i would just shit on my degree, fuck off, and be a catfish farmer
i know right, i'd do the same but i'd disappear somewhere in the mountains and be a chicken farmer instead. sigh. we just gotta hope one day we'll be able to do it anon. until then, endure...
>>82193129
>BLUE COLLAR WORKKKKK
i pray for your mental wellbeing anon
cute croc indeed also!

Same thing I've been doing all week. Stewing in my sadness, depression, and anger

>>82193237
>really dont know how to stop the feeling of panic
Its more a state of uncomfyness and apathy. Nothing sits right and i barely ate the past few days.
>though i enjoy seeing crabs zoom sideways.
Heh, if you like that sorta stuff you could try having triops. They sorta do that 24/7 and are one of the more interesting animals you can keep. Low commitment too. Don't need anything special and if you have enough water per animal and plants you practically don't need to change the water or even feed them. And if you don't wanna have them anymore just wait a bit, you did well if they get 3 months old.
>the murder lobster scares the governament
well no it doesn't, that's the issue. These invasive species and the pathogen they carry have practically wiped out most european natives. There are things that can be done to try to recover but almost nobody cares sadly.
A real shame, we have some of the most fancy and luxurious species out there. Even the bees have it better.
>i do like goldfish! and those very coloured ones with floaty fins
yeah the highly cultured ones are very pretty. Reminds me of the betta i used to have as a kid.
Was surprisingly completely docile.
>keep in mind life is not a race despite what everyone else says
i never cared about that to be honest. But especially now i just want to be you know. No fancy experiences or achievements, just me with some pets. But i can't even secure that position. If i weren't so retarded i would have just applied for gibs and moved out a while ago. Not aiming for becoming a permanent NEET but i just need to leave for anything to happen.
>though i didnt think i'd actually get declined by all of them...
after one of mine got declined by one of the stereotypical eternal boomers, i just don't know, the tone man. They don't care at all. Its always some big stupid company or small business ran by soulless old people.

>>82191938 (OP)
Good day huanon, i shall hope your day was well. I feel good today It is nice i dont feel like this often. I actually went out for once and talked to people. Been an awful long while. I didnt say much i mainly watched but amy progress is progress. Probably wont do anything but work this weekend but oh well. Might go get something from a chippy as a treat actually been a while.

>>82193600
>that's like borderline slavery
A third of all positions, with ecological ones having it even worse, are just boomers looking for some type of free labor. In those cases they unironically don't pay you often or pay you some microscopic amount that is just enough to get food for the month and maybe a little more if they feel generous. And then they want you to pay for them once they are in retirement haha.
>hope it wont be too hard if you do get hired!
I still don't know what exactly its about. Yeah its some techy role but that's it. Chances are i will just quit fairly quickly and not bother.
>we just gotta hope one day we'll be able to do it anon. until then, endure...
I hope something actually happens. I see no end in sight but still hope that in the future there will be one more mountain dwelling chicken farmer.
>how so?
Gut feeling. Can't explain. In moments like these i just can't take advantage of them properly.

>>82193276
hope you manage to get out of the bad loop anon. is there a place you could go to like a park? changing your environment might help.
>>82193600
>Its more a state of uncomfyness and apathy
hm, i see. do you always feel like you're on edge? it kinda does that to me. hard to have an appetite too when you feel that way... i'd cook you something anon but unfortunately they haven't invented teleport yet.
>triops
genuinely have never seen those before. man, it always kinda amazes me thinking about just how many species of little animals exist in the world. i watched a video of them zooming and they do look pretty funny! though everything with more than 4 legs kinda grosses me out...
>have practically wiped out most european natives
oh damn i didnt know they were so bloodthirsty. then the governament should really do something about them. send the lobster police or something. why would you like to have such an evil lobster in your acquarium?
>>82193600
>betta
those are always pretty. we had an aquarium too in the house when i was little and it was filled with all kinds of small fishes. we even had those weird fishes that stick on a surface and lick it clean. those always weirded me out...
>But i can't even secure that position
for now, but you dont know about the future. yea i know im being very cheesy when i say stuff like "it could always get better!!" but honestly, what else can we do but hope. i think it's good that you've got what you want figured out, and that you dont put unrealistic expectations on yourself. dont take it for granted cause there's loads of people that are still struggling with those things. keep trying and eventually things will happen! either bad or good.
>They don't care at all
i know anon, its awful and disheartening. the job market is hell and i wish i was better prepared to deal with it. i wish there was a way to cheat the system, but for now we need to play along. keep trying anone, im rooting for you!

>>82193813
cont
>>82193692
>just boomers looking for some type of free labor
yeah honestly i dont know how stuff like apprenticeships are even legal. oh, you want to get hired? sure, work for us for basically free or slave wage for half a year, and then MAYBE we will hire you. (and still pay you like shit because youre new). honestly such a stupid system. "oh but you're young you gotta deal with this then they'll pay you better in 20 years" yeah okay then ill just do nothing for 20 years and wait until then.
>then they want you to pay for them once they are in retirement
oh whoopsie tax evasion!
>i will just quit fairly quickly and not bother
try to at least stay there for as long as you can and do barely enough work to not get fired, otherwise you're just gonna get exploited for the few weeks you stay.
>I see no end in sight
you and me both, but it's not like we got anything to lose anyway. except for our mental stability i guess.
>>82193632
hi anon, im glad to hear you feel okay! good job on having conversations, its still progress no matter how small! hope the work isn't gonna be too tiring then. and do get yourself something nice!

>>82191938 (OP)
>how are you feeling?
a bit better this week
been listening to some of the more recent stuff like future funk, synthwave, even some breakcore helped

>good work! what are you gonna do this weekend?
spend it with family during the day, playing sdv with my friend during the night, maybe pop up here in this site here and there

what about you, hu tao anon? any plans for the weekend?

>>82193813
>hm, i see. do you always feel like you're on edge
nah. Its more like the kind of tired that sleep won't fix. Can easily change into being on edge however.
>why would you like to have such an evil lobster in your acquarium?
Don't ask me man. They are just sorta more convenient but i still cannot imagine how you can feel good about keeping such a monstrosity, even if nothing leaks into the environment. Also its more the disease that they carry that kills everybody else. They don't even need to be in contact with the natives to wipe them out. And after that they move in into the new opponent free waters..
Only good news are very small amount of natives are starting to develop faint immunity and that one of the main culprits behind the crayfish plague is slowly starting to be killed but another disease that mainly targets them. Maybe the pendulum will sing back?
>we even had those weird fishes that stick on a surface and lick it clean
Probably a pleco or bristlenose catfish. They may be freaky but do good and important work.
>yeah okay then ill just do nothing for 20 years and wait until then.
chances are pay is going to get even worse. Everything employment has already declined so much in the past 10 years i don't know what to expect in 5. And since they benefit the ones that are causing said changes they will never be undone without something major happening.
And happenings are also getting rarer.
>try to at least stay there for as long as you can and do barely enough work to not get fired
desu if i'd manage quiet quitting that would be pretty nice. There is no possibility of raise and only minimal to no help for future employment.
Dunno about useless jobs however. People working and liking these need to be studied on how the fuck they cope with them. I can't imagine myself withstanding one for long.
>but it's not like we got anything to lose anyway. except for our mental stability i guess.
Its so liberating and sad at the same time.

>>82191938 (OP)
>how are you feeling?
Good. gf returnes from abroad in a few days and I missed her a lot (tho we texted everyday)
>you managed to get to friday so good work!
Thanks, it was a slog since I was detoxing.
>what are you gonna do this weekend?
Get high and browse 4chan till the sun comes up hehe. Meeting my mom on sunday so can't stay up too late tomorrow tho.

>>82193833
happy to know you're doing a bit better anon. breakcore is awesome, i love listening to it whenever im having a nervous breakdown!
hope you have a nice weekend.
>any plans for the weekend?
i wish. the plan has always been the same all summer, and it's to survive...
>>82194057
>Its more like the kind of tired that sleep won't fix
oh im very familiar with that feeling. it doesnt ever go away i think.
>you can feel good about keeping such a monstrosity
if i had one i'd scare my guests and say stuff like "if you put your finger in the water you will DIE"
>Maybe the pendulum will swing back?
most likely, it always does otherwise it's not a pendolum!
>but do good and important work
hm hm, my mom always told me they were necessary to keep the fish happy no matter how bad i wanted them gone...
>i don't know what to expect in 5
desu whenever i think about the future of working and what i might be doing in 10 years from now it makes me want to kms like almost nothing else does so i try my best to ignore it.
>without something major happening
im waiting for the day when most normalfags will wake up to reality and revolt, but it aint happening any time soon i fear. it is what it is.
>how the fuck they cope with them
they're probably forced to because they have a family that relies on that income, or they do drugs or something. there is no way anyone does those type of jobs just because they like em.
>Its so liberating and sad at the same time
hm, it is. i often think about how insignificant we are in the grand scheme of things. it makes me feel like shit one day, but other days its a relief. doesn't matter how much i fail, doesn't matter if i dont achieve my dreams, nothing i do matters and thats fine.
>>82194136
>since I was detoxing
>Get high
uhm, are you still detoxing or is weed not what you were detoxing from?

>>82194208
>breakcore is awesome, i love listening to it whenever im having a nervous breakdown!
dissociation kind of music to clear your mind, huh
i never really tried it, but then again it's been a while since i had a breakdown, thankfully
i think the years are making me tougher to crack, for better or worse

>the plan has always been the same all summer, and it's to survive...
you gotta live a bit too, anon
do something fun, eat something tasty, visit a place you haven't been to or that you haven't visited in a while, take a nice picture of something you find cool or relaxing, i dunno
it's the small things that keep us alive

>>82194208
>what you were detoxing from?
Amphetamines. They make everything interesting and keep you awake so detoxing from them can be seen as dull in comparision, but I made it and had no cravings or withdrawals. So it was a success.

>>82194208
>it doesnt ever go away i think.
I think its a little different. Its something on top of that. Its the kind of tired that not even meds will fix. Its not just the tiredness being more but its something different too.
>my mom always told me they were necessary to keep the fish happy
Well cleaning things and keeping the water from turning toxic does tend to make most fish happy.
>desu whenever i think about the future of working and what i might be doing in 10 years from now it makes me want to kms like almost nothing else does so i try my best to ignore it.
I dunno what i should expect to happen after five days. Even if i try to think too hard about i can't visualize it clearly. Guess that's the tiredness preventing higher thoughts lol, still scui fuel in its own way.
>they're probably forced to because they have a family that relies on that income, or they do drugs or something
and
>normalfags will wake up to reality and revolt
is sorta contradictory i think. Especially the ones with family should have SOME sense of of their own and their children's preservation.
They just feel like its fine i think. Working in some useless office that's more like a adult daycare is fine for them. I mean look at how late people are starting to complain about the online ID thing. Many people have cut themself off from the mass-slop-media and are untouchable by such bullshittery wayyyy before this became a topic. Just one of a billion examples. Its not not caring but tolerating it
until it gets into the way of masturbation or some other useless shit.
>doesn't matter how much i fail, doesn't matter if i dont achieve my dreams, nothing i do matters and thats fine.
see it another way. No matter how much you fail, at least you are not a normalfag. Being depressed and weak because of these circumstances is what happens to real people.
Any other response, i can't even put into words how i feel about it.

>>82194309
Eyy coincidentally sorta what i want to to tomorrow.

>>82191938 (OP)
My bestest frend evahh is coming to visit me, haven't seen the cunt in like 1,5y

Had a pretty boring week so tonight i ain't doing shit

>>82194408
>Eyy coincidentally sorta what i want to to tomorrow
Have fun. It's a fine pastime.

>>82194661
Ah i mean not taking anything tomorrow.
The detox part. Metylphenitdate is nothing special but i still feel like having breaks is good.

>>82191938 (OP)
are you gay
what do you wanna say with these threads
comfort other people is feminine trait y'know
could someone explain me who is this dude?

>>82193813
>hope you manage to get out of the bad loop anon.
At this point I'm so far gone I need to just finish my suicide note. There's nothing I can do aside from going out on my own terms.

>>82194239
>i think the years are making me tougher to crack
becoming impervious to bad feelings is good in itself, getting to that point isnt...
>you gotta live a bit too, anon
im trying anon, but life doesnt seem like it wants me to. i dont have money or anyone to do anything with.
>>82194309
ah okay. well good job then anon! now try not to get addicted to drugs also. they can be very bad
>>82194408
>Its not just the tiredness being more but its something different too
i think i understand what you mean, and i believe what might define this feeling the most is hopelessness perhaps. it does make you feel like nothing you do ever works and so turns all your energy into nothing
>Guess that's the tiredness preventing higher thoughts lol
eh, might not be such a bad thing after all. we as humans suffer so much for things that dont even exist in the present. the past and the future are what hurts us the most. so better live in the moment.
>is sorta contradictory i think
yeah i know. really sad state of affairs if you ask me. i dont think they're ever gonna revolt as long as they keep consoooming copes. honestly i do hope they ban porn everywhere eventually cause other than being a terrible drug it also might just be what gets enough normalfags angry at the governament. just look at the UK
>circumstances is what happens to real people
yeah... i guess it's a burden we just have to carry. just, everything seems so much easier on the other side. but oh well. im at least happy that i get to be a real person!
>>82194559
awesome! have fun anon. also the show where your picrel is from is very funny.
>>82194731
no, and besides being nice is not something you should attribute to a gender.
>>82194762
i see. if that's really the case then i hope you can find a nice place to spend your last moments at. i'd love to die somewhere close to the sky. perhaps if you go to a pretty place it'll give you some strength to keep trying.

It's interesting really.
I'm almost 30 and I thought I would have most of my life sorted out by now but instead I just quit my job and I havent dated in a few years. It's like im still waiting for my life to start. Like with every job I had I was ever like "I'm fine with doing this for the rest of my life, I halfway enjoy this". Same with my last relationship. It was a nice coincidence we met and I was halfway blind in love but I was never really able to let myself completely fall, I always had to protect myself a bit. It feels like time is running out and I'm letting it.

>>82194693
>Metylphenitdate
Ritalin can be addictive and tolerance rises up fast so detoxing is a very good idea or else you can become dependent and zombie-like (seen it happen). I give myself 7-14 days of detox before doing anything and find I don't get negative side-effects from my usage. I do retalin two days in a row and then stop for the aforementioned time span.

>>82195018
>im trying anon, but life doesnt seem like it wants me to. i dont have money or anyone to do anything with.
Welp, sometimes that is the case, just keep on living and relaxing one day you might find what you are searching for :)

>>82195018
>impervious to bad feelings
eh, i wouldn't say i'm becoming impervious to them, just better at dealing with them without breaking down
that's what i meant by "tougher to crack", they still get to me but they don't break me as easily anymore
but yeah i agree, getting there isn't fun at all...

>i dont have money or anyone to do anything with.
but you do have a pair of working legs and a bit of time to spare, don't you?
you don't need a lot to go somewhere interesting, for instance, just hit up an interesting spot near you
me i live near the beach so i can hit it up on my own sometimes, there are also some interesting street snacks i can get around for quite cheap

as for needing someone, well... someone will come along, even if not now
go on your own so you can invite them out next time, you'll have a good idea of what to expect but going out alone and with someone else is never the same

is it really life that doesn't want you to or is it you who doesn't want to?
i've made my fair share of excuses not to live so i won't judge you for it, lol

>>82195018
>now try not to get addicted to drugs also
I do my best to be safe and take precautions to avoid addiction and dependence. Drugs should be enjoyed once in a while as a treat.

>>82195018
>the past and the future are what hurts us the most. so better live in the moment.
Only living in the moment is not really healthy either but damn i do care more about the shrimp than what my life will look like in 5 years.
But btw they should have such a nice time. A 60L tank just for shrimps is already sorta wild but its gonna be heavily planted too.
At least someone will thrive here.
>but oh well. im at least happy that i get to be a real person!
Yeah. Weird how seeing these things happen is almost comforting.

>>82195135
>detoxing is a very good idea or else you can become dependent and zombie-like
Yeah a friend who took it for 5 years also told be to be careful. Said he might have been hearing things after stopping.
>I give myself 7-14 days of detox before doing anything and find I don't get negative side-effects from my usage. I do retalin two days in a row and then stop for the aforementioned time span.
Impossible for me to do. Im not taking these willy nilly after buying them on the internet but i got these prescribed for a reason. The alternative is just terrible. Some things do work better without them so i don't even want to take them every day. I have not experienced any withdrawal symptoms so far besides the typical crash after the effect has worn off.

>>82191938 (OP)
>how are you feeling?
Like shit
>what are you gonna do this weekend?
Idk but ill probably drop pixels on wplace like what ive been doing this entire week because im alone and got nothing else to do.

>>82195050
>I thought I would have most of my life sorted out by now
it's really common to be this way anon, almost no one manages to just "sort their life out" even if it seems like other people (namely normies) do. theres a very good chance that they didnt figure out anything, and they're just keeping up appearances. keep trying to do what you enjoy and hope for the best anon
>>82195189
i hope so...
>>82195199
>they still get to me but they don't break me as easily anymore
when life gives you lemons...
>just hit up an interesting spot near you
anon i've been in every possible crevice that my city has to offer. im nowhere close to beaches or mountains. i could drive there and it takes 3 hours but i dont have the money for fuel or any reason to just go on my own. im just kind of tired of always doing things alone anon so i dont even bother doing them anymore.
>is it you who doesn't want to?
before it was me, but now i really am trying but nothing works.
>>82195306
hm, then that's good. i agree some weed is okey if used in moderation
>>82195352
>Only living in the moment is not really healthy either
why do you think so?
>A 60L tank just for shrimps
oh im sure they will be very happy! i love aquariums that have a lot of plants and little decorations too. like sunken treasures n stuff. do you need to feed the shrimps?
>Weird how seeing these things happen is almost comforting.
i guess it's a proof that you're more than just a monkey... but it comes with it's price. sometimes i wish i was just a monkey though. everything seems easier on the other side.
>>82195454
>Like shit
whats making you feel that way?
>drop pixels on wplace
thats a pretty cool website i think. what have you been drawing?

>>82195591
>whats making you feel that way?
Lack of purpose in general and no friends, nothing really exciting that i could be doing.
>thats a pretty cool website i think. what have you been drawing?
Guts from berserk, katana zero, random sprites from ripped games (not undertale/deltarune theres too much of it).

>>82195591
>why do you think so?
well if you only thought of now you wouldn't be able to complain about things that used to be better and couldn't really say how things should be in the future so its better again.
I don't mean extreme planning or needing to be a history nerd but for example the UK situation could have been avoided if people did not only thing about what was happening right now. This was easily predicable and some people don't understand why this predicament is bad because they don't care about the past so they have no reference.
>do you need to feed the shrimps?
Don't think so if there are enough plants. There are some things that should maybe be supplemented but shrimps really do have a simple diet. If you have enough plants for them to feel safe and thrive they probably have enough to eat assuming the balance stays intact. I don't remember ever feeding shrip like i do with fish.
>sometimes i wish i was just a monkey though. everything seems easier on the other side.
It seems easier but you see how they treat each other get treated. Constant mind games, being easily subverted, and break down over the most useless shit that stems from these two things. They are living in their own hell but they perceive it as such. Don't be fooled.

>>82195819
>perceive it as such
don't i mean

>>82195352
>Im not taking these willy nilly after buying them on the internet but i got these prescribed for a reason
I got prescibed them for my ADHD and abuse them for two days. They last a while, though, so I can take them before an activity I'll need focus for.
>The alternative is just terrible
If you really need them for basic functioning then use them sparingly and when you know you'll need them (knowing they last up to 4 hours). The key is moderation and not depending on them to get you out of situations too much and using them like candy. I have meds I depend on for functionality (like sleeping pills, I have a really hard time falling asleep) and I try my best to keep use under control with varying degrees of success.

>>82195745
>Lack of purpose in general and no friends
ah i understand anon. feels like all we're doing is wasting time. it is what it is i guess.
>nothing really exciting that i could be doing
are you unable to go anywhere? or do you find it pointless?
>Guts from berserk, katana zero, random sprites from ripped games
did you draw the guts in your picrel? if so graet job it looks amazing! i do like pixelated art and sprites a lot. perhaps i should make a tao somewhere too...
>>82195819
>you wouldn't be able to complain about things that used to be better
i mean, getting too stuck up in the past is really bad imo. i get that it's important to remember past mistakes and nostalgia isn't all that bad, but the past doesnt exist anymore, so it's better to focus on the present
>the UK situation could have been avoided
i dont have much insider knowledge in the matter at hand, but how?
>really do have a simple diet
you could say they have a shrimplediet! do you need to put specific type of plants?
>don't remember ever feeding shrip
oh you've had them already? also, what makes you like shrimps so much?
>It seems easier but you see how they treat each other get treated
yeah i know anon, you're right. i guess, perhaps it's just less lonely on their side... i dunno. grass always seems greener on the other side. sigh... i wish things weren't so hard all the time. i feel like writing a 10 page rant on everything but i think i'll just do it in my journal instead.

>>82195591
>agree some weed is okey if used in moderation
I don't touch weed. Been a stoner for too long and it gives me bad side-effects. It can be alluring to indulge in weed cause it's a light drug with minimum side-effects and low addiction rate but it can be vile if overused.

>>82191938 (OP)
>what are you gonna do this weekend?
well my weekend plans were cancelled but now I am drunk so I am doing good despite that

>>82195977
>are you unable to go anywhere? or do you find it pointless?
Physically? Not really, there are some like a bar but i don't belong there, and im way too depressed to be making friends so the loneliness kinda feeds into itself.
>did you draw the guts in your picrel?
Nope, it does look really good but its just something from a booru, i don't have any creative skill. Tho it does inspire me to get into pixel art a bit.

>>82195940
>I got prescibed them for my ADHD and abuse them for two days
whatcha mean 'abuse'. Do you take more than you are supposed to on these days?
>If you really need them for basic functioning then use them sparingly and when you know you'll need them
Sorta hard to know when to take them. They are not some magical productivity tool for me. Intrusive thoughts get much less or just stop, i don't feel insanely tired all the time, stuff like that. I don't need the full prescribed dose for this and taking them at the max is not always very useful also.
So i think im rationing them fairly safely.
When there is no need to push myself i don't. And when i do its still according to use case.
>>82195977
>i mean, getting too stuck up in the past is really bad imo
Im not saying that it should live rent free in your hear 24/7, too much thinking is bad. But knowing how things got to where they are today is essential.
>i dont have much insider knowledge in the matter at hand, but how?
The same techniques and excuses have been used a billion times around the world. If they remembered just a little they would have recognized whats happening. There are plenty of government plans that were foiled by people seeing patterns.
Again i don't mean dwelling over the past and not moving on but just knowing that there is a past.
>do you need to put specific type of plants?
As long as its soft enough to eat they will probably be fine. I see them eating dead animals also however. Even their own.
>i feel like writing a 10 page rant on everything
imagine if the 2k character were to be raised. Damn this board would be different in some ways. I never have to split posts in two besides here and im still shortening a lot.

>>82195591
>>they still get to me but they don't break me as easily anymore
>when life gives you lemons...
you make lemon-shaped napalm grenades and burn life down with them, of course
as mr. johnson once said, at least, or based on what he said

>i've been in every possible crevice that my city has to offer.
you must live in a small city then, huh
i can't fathom ever saying that about either the city i used to live in or the one i live in now, since they're pretty huge
but if you know your city well then you should know the good spots around there, right? is there really nothing fun to do?

>im just kind of tired of always doing things alone
is there no family or a friend you could invite?
i feel like i wasted so much of my life locked away in my room back then when i could've just invited my mom to roam around, even just walking about would be nice in hindsight...
oh well

>nothing works.
something will work eventually, just don't give up
i know, cliche as all fuck, but there are some things that just don't work right off the bat
i'm glad you're trying at least, keep it up

>Captcha: SATAN
>hello, uncle

>>82195995
oh i see. i've never done drugs so i dont really know much. what are you using then? shrooms?
>>82196046
aw that sucks. what happened to your plans? also dont get too drunk, okay?
>>82196088
>Not really
ah, i see. sucks. i think going for some walks every once in a while might help a bit but i get it if you feel like it's pointless. still, try to keep in mind that even if its pointless to try and make friends or go out, it's even more pointless to stay at hme and do nothing. you got nothing to lose and everything to gain by trying to do thngs despite feeling awful.
>Tho it does inspire me to get into pixel art
hm hm, pixel art is pretty. you should definitely give it a try if you got the time.
>>82196191
>But knowing how things got to where they are today is essential
yeah i think that's true. ignorance runs rampant nowdays
>If they remembered just a little they would have recognized whats happening
sadly i think it's gonna be too late before enough people notice just how bad things are getting when it comes to censorship and such.
>Even their own
now thats very metal. and evil.
>Damn this board would be different in some ways
i feel like it would be worse because of all the spam but maybe im just being pessimistic. though it would be nice to not have to split posts in two.
>>82196197
>lemon-shaped napalm grenades
ah yes, of course!
>you must live in a small city then
yeah, it's a rather small one. not a lot of stuff to do here. i do know the good spots, and they're mostly parks or isolated places with nature that i go to sometimes. the "fun" spots aren't fun alone.
>is there no family or a friend you could invite?
i've got a friend but he's busy with work 90% of the time. i dont really want to hang out with my family either.
>keep it up
im doing my best...

>>82196475
>now thats very metal. and evil
It might be metal but i don't that its evil at all. They gotta keep their environment clean somehow and this way also nothing goes to waste. If it fuels the next generation can you really complain? Its sorta selfless actually.
>i feel like it would be worse because of all the spam but maybe im just being pessimistic
If the spammer wants to spam he will. They already have their vpns and proxy services to bypass the post countdown. The only reason you don't see more is because they choose to spare us. I mean theoretically 4chan could make it so you can go over the current limit but only for a couple times per hour. Prevents spam from a single IP while still providing bigger single posts to those who need them.

>>82196191
>Do you take more than you are supposed to on these days?
Yes, I take 60mg (without tolerance) and redose 30mg every few hours to avoid crash and prolong the high. Do that for a few hours while listening to music for two days and take a break.
>They are not some magical productivity tool for me
They must be doing something right if you keep taking them.
>So i think im rationing them fairly safely
Sounds like it, esp if you're taking less then the prescribed dosage.
Also, sorry to hear about your issues with intrusive thoughts and tiredness. I have intrusive thoughts as well, but the retalin doesn't help me with them, and sometimes makes it worse. Ig everyone is different.

>>82196475
>what are you using then? shrooms?
Amphetamines. I think you confuse my messages. I'm the same guy who is talking to you about retalin.

Going on week three of being ghosted by her
Might just blow up her phone with a million dumb messages just to get blocked already and move on

>>82196675
>Yes, I take 60mg (without tolerance) and redose 30mg every few hours to avoid crash
Are you sure you have no tolerance?
I already feel like 15mg at once is a decent dose.
Thus i prefer them lasting longer than them being strong so i have a modified release version which are basically two mini doses with 4 hours between them. Over the course of the day i can reach double or nearly triple of those 15mg but still.
60mg at once with 30mg a couple of times after that. Damn. Would ruin me for sure.
>They must be doing something right if you keep taking them.
Its because of
>issues with intrusive thoughts and tiredness.

I get so calm at the prescribed doses that im kinda tempted to go to sleep. Using them this way is for sure retarded so i never caved in to these feelings but at the same time lower doses keep me nice and awake. Stims really do work in mysterious ways if you have ADHD.
Hope you stay safe with your binges, anon. They really do sound like they are a lot to handle.

>>82196902
>60mg at once with 30mg a couple of times after that. Damn. Would ruin me for sure
It's not taxing for me (bodily and mentally) and gives a rush and a low sense of euphoria and focus. Like I'm lubricated from the inside. I sing with the music until I lose my voice and it's fun. (bodyweight can be a factor, I am ~90kg so need certain doses to achieve the same result a lighter person would need). The comedown is gentle and the high was never too much for me, but I have experience with stims and know my limits and preferences.
>lower doses keep me nice and awake
I'm glad it works for you and helps you. In my experience, some meds are a literal godsend when you have certain health issues.
>Hope you stay safe with your binges, anon. They really do sound like they are a lot to handle.
It's always mellow and nice. As I said, I know my limits and my preferences so it's really not a big deal. Doing my best to stay safe and not over do it. 60mg is a nice and relatively low recriational dose to take imo (sometimes I take 50mg, and 20mg give a nice low buzz if that's what I'm looking for). And the 30mgs help with the comedown as well so not taxing in that regard. I won't put myself in risk or discomfort for a high.

I drove over a curb in a crowded parking lot it was super embarrassing
I'm also on call I just wanna enjoy the weekend but I can't relax

im going to fucking kill myself fuck fuck fuck fuck

>>82197447
hey don't do that

why why why whwywhwwywhy why

>>82197447
why are you still awake what's keeping you up (apart from suicidal thoughts)