Thread 82192364

>"You've changed, anon"
I've... I've always been like this
My mom JUST noticed?

Did she never really notice before this? Did she think I was joking all this time?

no anon, she just left the denial phase

>>82192386
Her whole life?
I almost killed myself back in high school and college, I used to take late-night drives after work and scream in my car at 2am

I've always been a depressed fuck, and she JUST noticed it now?

>he was always so happy
>our happy little boy

>>82192405
We had dinner yesterday, just me, my mom and my lil bros
She offered me a paid trip to anywhere I wanted, as if that's somehow going to fix all my problems

>have literal deformation that ruins my social life and dating

>mother thinks I've changed for the worse because i was happier before puberty

>>82192474

At least she tried to help you.
Don't be so ungrateful.

>>82192609
>be the cause of all my problems
>"don't be ungrateful"
Anon, my parents took everything from me, they've set me up to fail
I'm just fighting back is all, and she doesn't like it when her kid is mad at her, because she's always been oh so perfect

I'm just so fucking tired, man

>>82192474
that's very nice of her to offer such at thing anon, you should at least appreciate that she loves you that much even if she isn't perfect and doesn't know how to help you

>>82192636
why are you saying your parents took everything from you? don't just say that and not tell us what happened

>>82192673
I've told this story countless times now
>Dad took my money to pay for my grandparents home, else it'd get repossesed by the bank
>that was 8 years ago now, almost everyone's dead, my sole uncle from dad's side is going to sell the house anyway
>Mom came from a rich and pious family
>Always put it in me to "respect your elders"
>Right after college, I'd give 70% of my salary to her and dad because I thought it's the least I can do to help out
>She didn't need them, but she insisted anyway
>Dad was an obese diabetic; ever since senior year of high school I'd help drive him to his appointments, pick up his meds, etc.
>This went on all the way from college up until my first job, so no social life there, it's always been me helping my dad
>He dies, I didn't even go to his funeral, I had covid
>After dad dies, I thought things were going to look up for me
>Mom got sick, tumour in her ovary and something wrong with her heart
>Been taking care of her ever since; doctor's appointment, check-ups, pick up her meds
>And since Dad's dead, I'm the "man of the house"
>Registered my kid brother for middle school, put my younger brothers through college
I'm exhausted, anon
I've done everything for my family

>>82192754
it sounds like you've been a really great guy and outwardly someone who is succesfull if you've been helping so much, why wouldn't your mom think you had your shit together?

>>82192799
>Outwardly succesful
HAH!
I have no social life, I've never moved out, everything I do I think of them, everything I do has always been for them

I'm just tired man
Folks never ask about me, they never ask what I like to do, what I enjoy in life, because I just never had the chance to explore anything about me

In comparison to me, my younger brother #1 is in the military as an officer, so you know he's the best of the best
Even planning on getting married in the next 3-4 years
Younger Bro #2 is in college taking IT, but he's got connections and he's basically set for life
Younger Bro #3 is in school still, guy's top of his class too
Kid's got a bright future ahead of him

And where does that leave me?
I've got nothing
I did the budget and all, I've spent $250k in the span of 10 years, all for them

>>82192845
how did you get this money if you've never done anything in life?

why don't you ever do anything for yourself then?

>>82192926
>how did you get this money if you've never done anything in life?
I work, right after college I just start working non-stop and like I said, on my days off I'd tend to my parents and eventually just my mom
$250k in 10 years isn't a lot, anon, that's $25k a year, that's about $2k a month
>why don't you ever do anything for yourself then?
I'm always at their beck and call, anon
With them being sick and all..

I did all that because I know my younger brothers were still young, still in school/college
But they're older now, and I feel like it's their turn

I want to rest a while, I feel like I deserve that

>>82193021
be careful that your rest does not become death

>>82193035
What if it does, what if the long sleep is what I deserve after so long, after wasting so much

It feels like a sludge to start over, to actually live life on my own terms
No friends for support, don't get me started on a gf, and money's gonna be tight for me to actually start living life by myself

It feels so tiresome, anon

>>82192364 (OP)
My mom passed away. She doesn't have to look at her worthless incel son anymore.

>>82193073
I'm sorry for your loss, anon
It's never going to get better

>>82193072
After you finish indulging in woe is me self-pity you should consider fixing your life.

You can do whatever you want with your life. It's not my concern.

>>82193132
>After you finish indulging in woe is me self-pity you should consider fixing your life
You think I haven't tried?
I plan routines, I set my goals, I try to go outside to just enjoy my time alone

>Woops, mom's in the hospital again!
>Woops, lil bro needs money again!
>Woops, grandma broke her hip so now I have to travel out of state to help her!
Beck. And. Call!
I've never had a full-day alone to myself where I can actually just fucking stick to my routine, there's always something!