>>82221495 (OP)
I got close to a few genuinely interesting and nice girls. It's sad as fuck, but I felt in love for the first time and we never even saw each other, just chatted. Moved to discord, chatted a bit more. It always falls apart after a while. Without physical intimacy, relationships don't last. And women lose attention without stimulation or go schizo/schizoid, completely ghosting you suddenly. Stay away. Try to go outside, engage with your local community.