Thread 82224425

>hiki-neet
>28 yo
>last time had a work was 1 year ago
>lost job due to medical condition
>destitute
>lives with mother, and has no personal space (theres a fucking hole in my room which leads to my mother/sister's room)
>undiagnosed ND
>schizoid PD
>hairline ruined by brain surgery
>last time seen a naked girl irl was 11 years ago (but was too inhibited to have le sexe)
>still virgin (i was born in septembre xD)
>last time felt the touch of a girl was 3 years ago
>posts lust provoking pciture on /r9k/
>ran out of le cope weed
>34 C outside

Is it over for me? Some times i get intrusive thoughts about the eternal sleep and i can feel myself slowly fading away, but then i think i could not enjoy the bohemian pleasures of this life. Also I think I wouldn't have the courage to do it, especially if I think about the hole i could create in my family/the few close people I have in life.

Le blog posting has finished, thanks

It's not over for you yet, anon-kun. You have to stay stronJ and keepita goinga.

>think
>think
>think

It's all within the dimension of my mind

>>82224449

I can't find the strength to lift me up, and the funny part is i would just need to find another job, to startup again, but I've become slave of my vices

>>82224470

And the idea to have to mingle with new people makes my skin crawl spiraling me down 3 steps behind

Here i go again with the self deprecating loop. Sometimes I envy people like picrel (cobrajfs) for their naiveness and their goals achieved I wish i was him for how bad it sounds, he has his own trailer house (paid by his dad tho) has a routine which he enjoys, and lives a conpletelly bohemian life