Thread 82230504

Isn't it crazy how fucked we are due to autism? like, I'm decently attractive, but I'm legitimately autistic. If you meet me you'd most likely think I'm a chill guy who is pretty clumsy and into the outdoors, this makes people assume I'm an extrovert and enjoy interacting with others. But God, once I open my mouth and start saying words it becomes pretty clear how fucking odd I'am, not even in the creepy way where I talk about trains non stop for hours, but in the lack of social skills, unless it's something I'm extremely interested in, it feels like my mind just goes blank and I stare blankly desperately trying to find a topic to talk about.

This is worst with girls, sometimes I can tell they really try to get me to talk by joking with me but I'm so fucking odd I just smile with a blank expression on my face not knowing what to say or what expression to do, like, "Oh this is happening, how should I act?" then my brain goes blank and I can see every single expression on the other person's face, especially when they realize I'm weird, I can see the moment their expression subtly changes to one of disappointment and almost pithiness.

>>82230504 (OP)
I'm a legitimate sperg and, between 21 and 27, I lost track of how many women I fucked and dated. However, I could never make anything last. My relationships only lasted six months at most, with the majority lasting 2-3 weeks. Once chicks get over the initial infatuation period, they realise that being with someone who is almost completely detached from status seeking, material desire and social adherence is exhausting and shitty. After a few weeks, they would nearly always scream at me about how pathetic it is that all I want to do is work out and pursue my own creative endeavours.

Women are obsessed with social status and climbing, and if they sense that you wish to exist outside of hierarchy, they will reject you and lash out.

>>82230504 (OP)
my coworkers claim to like me, they have told me this repeatedly unprompted. I think even if I had the perfect mask, said and did all the right things, even if the entire world sucked my dick 24/7 I would still be resentful at having to be forced to participate in a planet that I feel detached from.

im a normie who tried to be friends with an autist. he was a lot to deal with. i felt bad for him but i couldnt do it. he was exhausting to be around because he couldnt understand me and what i was feeling/thinking. i was mostly silent and gave him positive reactions as he dumped the contents of his brain on me. his obsession was rollercoasters and girls he knows