Thread 82235916

I should become homeless and die from drug overdose after running away from the cops a few times or something
sounds much more fun than being a wagie for 40 years or a NEET listening to the same songs on repeat while staring at the wall every day

>listening to the same songs on repeat
Lizzen to someding nu... AwA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jQmenTRPZjo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MbO5PAggq94
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qz2w_kWhrGE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WaSPwVzCn0Y
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-sw8hGbCmc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T8PQsG_waBI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZCmUXkBbSDM

Maybe you should do something instead of driving yourself insane.

>>82236034
thanks these are nice
>>82236107
why? being insane is more fun than being sane and so bored you would rather die

>>82236190
When the disassociation wears off, you are aware you are staring at the wall and become bored again. You create a world of boredom and misery by rotting. Get a friend, and play some vidya or watch something.

>>82236249
>Get a friend
they can't always entertain me, maybe a couple of days each month
I also don't have any that live nearby
>play some vidya
I get bored after a couple of minutes
>watch something
I have been watching the House thing but watching things is not that much better than staring at a wall
I feel okay when walking for 2+ hours and hate when I get home that's why I think it would be nice to be homeless even if I die much earlier

>>82235916 (OP)
>staring at the wall
Oh, you are not supposed to do that. You must learn skills for becoming a wise wizard when you turn 30.

>>82236383
guys do you have the other image where she has her eyes open

>>82235916 (OP)
how about you overdose on drugs in your house

>>82236383
what skills? I was drawing a lot but now I don't feel like doing that
>>82236423
because it would be more fun to overdose outside somewhere nice

>>82236456
>because it would be more fun to overdose outside somewhere nice
but then someone might save you. The druggies who actually want to die do it away from other people.

>>82236522
so just go somewhere remote
then you can die in peace + much lower chance of someone finding your body

>>82236324
>I also don't have any that live nearby
Why not neet closer to ones nearby? I'd suggest doing the impossible and finding someone who likes you as more than a friend, but this is r9k and we know people like that don't exist.

>>82236557
>I'd suggest doing the impossible and finding someone who likes you as more than a friend
I don't want to spend too much time with others either and a relationship would require that
plus it's really hard to keep a friendship going, I don't have anything to talk about to keep them interested

>>82236568
>I don't want to spend too much time with others either
Why not? If you are bored and it helps do it.

The good stuff is hard to steal for the lower caste. Like its barely even worth policing a guy who steals a tshirt, because a cop makes more money per hour than it costs to produce a shirt lol. And a prison has to actually feed and guard you and provide like basic essentials dude which is so much money. The only high value product you can steal is a hot girls pussy. So you can easily do that, you just need a gun or a rock to her head. But if you get caught, you gotta do some time in the slammer. Otherwise yeah youre never going to have sex with a cute girl, and youll never have enough money for a house. Theres not really any solution except suicide.

>>82236599
because then I would probably get bored of them too
>>82236629
I don't even want to steal anything, if I were to get chased by the cops I hope it's for assaulting some cager or ruining his car, throw a huge rock at his car or some shit, that would be more fun than stealing and would piss him off

>>82236748
>because then I would probably get bored of them too
Don't worry. The people here are unhinged, and won't allow you to find them boring. If you do they will make life very exciting until it's not boring again.

>>82235916 (OP)
Homelessness is a common fantasy among BPD males. And a shocking number of homeless people have BPD. I say go for it

>>82236748
>assaulting some cager or ruining his car, throw a huge rock at his car or some shit
Based

take some ritalin and be able to focus and not be bored again if you're gonna do drugs

>>82236793
>The people here
oh so you're talking about online stuff? that's not much fun, if someone I met online sends me an unhinged message I would just laugh it off and even if I don't find them boring, they probably will find me boring and the conversation will cease before anything fun happens
>>82236804
I don't have BPD unfortunately, if I did I would already be homeless by now and living the good life
>>82236826
I can focus I just don't find whatever I am focusing on interesting, plus if I am gonna do drugs I would much rather do the fun ones than the jewish ones that kill your brain slowly

>>82236940
>oh so you're talking about online stuff
They exist offline too though.

>>82236967
and I won't find them or attract them because I don't talk about anything
what do these people even talk about anyway? should I start reading some weird books to be more interesting or what? I really don't understand how people have hours long conversations

>ugh my comfy life with all of my needs met is so boring i wish i was oding on fentanyl in the gutter
yeah you've been saying that for years now, and the words are empty as ever, begging for attention you don't even want

>>82237310
well yeah there's probably a high chance I will just die somehow unremarkable surrounded by four walls while being bored as hell which is sad but I can always fantasize about something else

>>82235916 (OP)
nigga u will just end up in prison getting ur booty blasted by tryone and u know that

>>82235916 (OP)
I'm NEET.
I'm receiving social security payments from my country. I'll be back to work in a few months.
I had to take time off work because I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital.

>>82238092
why did you get admitted to a psychiatric hospital?

>>82235916 (OP)
Can't tell you what'll happen, but I can tell you what happened to me when I tried to passively check out. When I would get within spitting distance of dying, instincts would kick in. I'd avoid death right near the end. The consequences for living through that have been numerous and dire. I thought I wanted to kill myself before. Now I really want to. But now I know I wouldn't be able to go through with it. There's always some fight left at the end almost no matter what. I think it's part of being human. Or maybe just part of being alive.

That being said, fent is probably the way. If you really want to go.

>>82238092
I can't imagine living in a place with that kind of safety net. That must be incredible.

>>82238293
if I am actually gonna die I will just get super drunk and/or high and throw myself off a super tall place that I would have concluded really is tall enough to die while sober, that sounds like a good idea I think