Thread 82236583

sometimes i notice when an anon stops posting for a long time and i get worried about them. do any other robots do this? i dont understand why i do. they dont even need to use a name or trip sometimes. ill just recognize the kind of posts they make and the images they use and start to notice their absence

>>82236583 (OP)
>tfw no stalker yandere gf who knows all my posts across my 4 different posting personalities

>>82236583 (OP)
You never noticed me and you'd never miss me.

>>82236592
i dont think you rly want that
>>82236622
maybe, maybe not, i am kind of dumb so i forget lots of things or dont notice other things

>>82236639
I wanted to to be recognized so much but no one ever did. I hoped to be missed when I left but no one did.

>>82236639
>i dont think you rly want that
Oh anon, if you stalked me hard enough to connect my 15 years of posting history back to me you wouldn't say something so silly.

>>82236639
Its ok, anonny. I love you the way you are

>>82236660
>u wouldn't
dont ever try to downplay a forgetoon.

>>82236583 (OP)
I never commit to some dumb persona so that anons recognise me.

>>82236659
how do you know nobody ever missed you?
>>82236660
ok then i think youd come to regret that want
>>82236678
i love you too anon
>>82236697
everyone has a persona tho, even if it isnt one they coneciously made

>>82236711
>ok then i think youd come to regret that want
I can assure you I wouldn't! I know what I'd be getting into.

>>82236583 (OP)
i do aswell, i get attached to others easily though i guess it's not so bad. im sure other anons would appreciate you worrying about them if they knew

>>82236583 (OP)
Yes but I am always forgotten

>>82236724
id wish you luck in getting what you want but i genuinely think it would be cruel of me to wish that on you
>>82236745
i guess maybe theyd appreciate it, idk i worry if theyd feel its creepy someone noticed them and thought about them much since we r all supposed to be anonymous
>>82236767
im sorry:(

>>82236781
>it would be cruel of me to wish that on you
I've known plenty of people like that and I saw how they were with their object of obsession and I know it's for me. No cruelty in wishing me well anony.

>>82236805
well, i hope you get it then i guess, and dont come to regret it or get hurt. also why are people saying anony instead of anon im confused

>>82236711
>how do you know nobody ever missed you?
I've checked threads like this before and I've never been mentioned.

>>82236825
Anony is just anon but cutesy anonny is cuter. Nona and nonna imply female and somewhat cutesy.

>>82236711
Yeah but I keep switching mine up. No one has actually recognised me, closest is people assuming I'm someone else.

>>82236781
>idk i worry if theyd feel its creepy
i don't think they'd find it creepy, it's not like you're tracking their house or something. personally it makes me happy if someone thinks about me and im sure many others anon share the sentiment. just be careful and don't get too attached to anyone

>>82236837
maybe someone noticed you and didnt make a thread? or you missed a thread? or they didnt mention any of the ppl they missed?
>>82236839
i see
>>82236861
if youre changing it up doesnt that imply you have a conscious persona...? sry im a little slow ._.
>>82236867
mmm i suppose, i hope thats the case. i hope most people feel like you do
>just be careful and don't get too attached to anyone
aha-ha...ha... ya

>>82236886
>mmm i suppose, i hope thats the case.
what about you though? how would you feel if someone here was thinking about you?
>aha-ha...ha... ya
anon... it's a really dangerous path the one you're treading in... have you talked to them a lot?

>>82236886
>maybe someone noticed you and didnt make a thread? or you missed a thread? or they didnt mention any of the ppl they missed
Nope. I'm not noticeable or worse I'm not missable.

>>82236583 (OP)
is there anyone in particular you miss or got attached to, nonny?

skitzo hours,,

>>82236932
>what about you though? how would you feel if someone here was thinking about you?
i guess id feel a little happy, there are some anons that have scared me, and i want to be out of their notice and mind tho, so ig id feel some worry too. prob silly of me tho, i am a natural worrywart
>>82236986
i doubt that
>>82236990
a few, like an anon that liked to talk to me sometimes and would post bird pictures and bird facts

>>82236990
Not op but I hate naming the person's I miss because everyone else looks them up and wants to like them too.

>>82237019
i forgot to address this question i am sorry
>anon... it's a really dangerous path the one you're treading in... have you talked to them a lot?
i know, i have gotten burned before. i will likely be burned again. but i am dumb. i have talked to them alot

>>82237019
>i doubt that
you don't recognize me and you won't miss me either

>>82237019
What did they do to scare you?

>>82237019
which other anons? the bird anon was nice

>>82236583 (OP)
I have a crush on the hateful incels on here. Whenever they reply to me being rude it makes me like them even more desu. There's a couple incels that ive memorized their images and typing styles that I like a lot, and whenever they notice me it makes me so happy lol 0,,0

>>82237077
you dont know that tho, and even if i dont someone else might
>>82237132
i dont really want to talk about it much, it isnt their faults. i am just easily spooked because im not emotionally stable or strong of will
>>82237146
um, there was an anon who liked to talk about tea with me. there was also an anon that was kind of crazy but funny, he wasnt very nice but it was fun talking to him anyway, i think he had a character he liked to play and he did it really well. there are others but thatd make this long and im bad with words and have bad memory. im glad someone else remembers bird anon
>>82237160
thats um... interesting anon xd

>>82237223
> im not emotionally stable or strong of will
You just need someone strong to guide you. You're broken but devotion can heal you. Just do everything I tell you to.

>>82236583 (OP)
I miss voice anon, he was chill

I miss nunanon. Im really concerned about her considering her problems.

>>82237411
Dm him on discord.

>>82237423
the moth girl? I never thought she was real.

>>82237262
what
>>82237411
>>82237423
i hope youll see both anons post again one day

>>82237542
>what
Choices were always a problem for you weren't they? Just trust in me now, no judgement or questioning.

>>82237019
>so ig id feel some worry too
i mean it makes sense, though most of the worries are just paranoia i think. i also get worried they might know more than what i think they know but then i just remember im also a worrytart so i try not to think about it too much. besides, as long as you know you've only done good there's nothing to worry for

>>82237618
>though most of the worries are just paranoia i think.
that is my hope
>i also get worried they might know more than what i think they know but then i just remember im also a worrytart so i try not to think about it too much
im sorry you deal with overworrying too, it gets so exhausting for me idk if it tires you too
>as long as you know you've only done good there's nothing to worry for
i have not only done good, i worry and worry and that led me to hurt an anon because i became scared of them. so i always worry theyll notice me somehow and then itll start again. i am a bad person.

>>82237711
NTA but you're not a bad person for being scared. Things happen, it's just life.

>>82236583 (OP)
How do y'all recognize anyone here, it's an anonymous board. Autism?

>>82237782
When you're here 16 hours a day you start to recognize people

>>82237785
Who lol, I hate avatar fagging

>>82237436
do you know his tag? I absolutely will if I can.

>>82237804
Just words they use, subjects they post about, images they use (not necessarily avatarfagging). Stuff like that. I recognize the 60-70 IQ poster outside of her threads sometimes for example.

>>82237765
i have an unfortunate habit of being scared more easily than others, i make efforts to kick it but it still overwhelms me sometimes
>>82237782
the other anon is right, people have unique writing styles and usually have a few interests they talk most about. images too
>>82237785
this is a little bit of it too aha, ive spent so much time here

>>82237837
>i have an unfortunate habit of being scared more easily than others
What exactly do you think will happen to you that scares you so much? Even the more malevolent people here aren't really going to be able to hurt you unless you doxx yourself.
>this is a little bit of it too aha, ive spent so much time here
Yeah the years and years and hours and hours isn't much to brag about but it's fun to recognize people at least.

>>82237859
>What exactly do you think will happen to you that scares you so much? Even the more malevolent people here aren't really going to be able to hurt you unless you doxx yourself.
i am stupid, the odds i doxx myself after talking to someone for a significant length of time are high for that reason
>Yeah the years and years and hours and hours isn't much to brag about but it's fun to recognize people at least.
i guess lol

>>82237884
>the odds i doxx myself after talking to someone for a significant length of time are high for that reason
RIP. Maybe best to be safe then. I remember back in school we had some kind of online safety lecture thing. This was back when the internet was just becoming mainstream and the lecture just made it sound like anyone we met online was a rapist. Created a lifelong habit to not divulge any major identifying info about myself.

>>82236583 (OP)
i do this a lot. i miss a plethora of posters. i started to give little nicknames to them in my mind and such too. its easy when you associate with people so much. i hope everyones okay...

>>82237911
the problem is the line between being safe and paranoid is very blurry for me, so its hard to know if its whats right. im glad you stay safe tho anon
>>82237930
do you want to talk abt any of the anons you miss? its ok if not, i understand

>>82237948
>the problem is the line between being safe and paranoid is very blurry for me, so its hard to know if its whats right
Have you tried moving from Discord to something like Email? It gives you more time to think out your responses so you can re-read what you write and edit out personal info if necessary.

>>82237964
i am not interesting enough for someone to bother using email to talk to me

>>82237997
Ha, I feel that I'm not interesting enough for people to want to use Discord to communicate with me. It's a lot easier for me to write a lot over email since I have more time to think. With instant messaging people can instantly notice how little energy and personality I have.

>>82238029
you dont seem to have little energy or personality to me anon, tho ig this is a short exchange. have you had success with emailing anons?

>>82237823
>I recognize the 60-70 IQ poster outside of her threads sometimes for example.
Is that me?

>>82238102
I can work around it easier here since this is anonymous and I can think about my replies a little longer. I have had some success in the past but interpersonal relationships from 4chan tend to be transient in nature. I'm fine with that though I guess, I have a high need for privacy and being alone.
>>82238164
Do you say you're 60-70 IQ in all the threads you make? If so then yes, hello.

>>82238182
>Do you say you're 60-70 IQ in all the threads you make?
No, I don't usually try to stand out here. I am nothing but a fart in the wind

>>82238200
Anon I... what about the 60-70 IQ thing made you think I meant you then? This is so funny to me. Have you not seen her threads, she makes a few every day.

>>82238182
>I can work around it easier here since this is anonymous and I can think about my replies a little longer.
mmm that makes sense, i see why email works better for you then
>I'm fine with that though I guess, I have a high need for privacy and being alone.
i understand, i used to be more private and liked being alone more but it has become more and more painful overtime and the drive to socialize has been getting stronger

>>82236583 (OP)
>do any other robots do this?
Yeah. There was some anon who used to draw stuff for me and there was this other dude I just called red. Hope they're doing well. Haven't seen em in a while

>>82238243
My drive to socialize has been getting weaker as I age if anything. It oscillates a lot though, I'm more social right now than usual, but it's probably still below average for a normal person. I've spent years without talking to anyone outside of my immediate family before and it just feels normal and fine to me. It must hurt a lot to need to socialize and not having a reliable way of achieving it though.

>>82236583 (OP)
Only one I really pay attention to is Kingsfield anon. And I guess sems, but I don't really miss sems when she's gone. She's just kinda.... there.

Also
>No one recognizes me
I don't know if this is good or bad.

>>82238271
mm what was red like? i also hope theyre doing well, sound like nice anons
>>82238278
i feel like i brought it onto myself, so i feel like i cant complain much about the pain it causes. it does hurt alot tho, ya
>My drive to socialize has been getting weaker as I age if anything.
do you think its just age for you or just other factors compounding overtime?

>>82238298
>ryan gosling picture
mmm theres a small chance i recognize you actually

>>82238325
Proburbably not. Gimme a shot though; who am I?

>>82238306
>so i feel like i cant complain much about the pain it causes
I think it's allowed. We want the things we want and are the way we are; those things can't always be helped.
>do you think its just age for you or just other factors compounding overtime?
I think it's just age. I'm in my 30s now and it seems like every year I become more internally focused and have less social energy available. In my early 20s I would talk to lots of people from here and could sustain instant messaging without feeling burnt out. I'm generally happiest on my own, pursuing my own hobbies; I only feel lonely when I'm with other people.

>>82238372
mmm, did you ever make a discord alt with ryan gosling from drive as the pfp to talk to an anon?
>>82238393
i see, that sounds nice anon, if ur happier alone now than that sounds best. i just hope you never isolate yourself too much and find yourself feeling lonely again one day

>>82238443
>i just hope you never isolate yourself too much
I try not to. I need some socialization to stay grounded. Talking to people here works for the most part but maybe one day I'll some kind of friend who can tolerate my weird communication preferences. Thanks for the well wishes anon. I hope you can find someone you feel safe with.

>>82237948
the list is beginning to grow too large, too wide. my friends list is slowly becoming a graveyard.

>>82238443
>make a discord alt with ryan gosling
Nope. I think I've only talked to two people from here on Discord. One was a marine, the other was some chick that talked to me once and hasn't said anything for like two weeks, so I'm probably gonna delete her.

>>82238306
Red likes Ninja gaiden and games like that. That's pretty much it. I only call him red cause he would post images Ryu from Ninja Gaiden but in a red outfit. We just talked about games. I'll probably run into him again when ninja gaiden 4 comes out.

>>82238468
>I try not to. I need some socialization to stay grounded. Talking to people here works for the most part but maybe one day I'll some kind of friend who can tolerate my weird communication preferences.
glad to hear that youre staying grounded
>Thanks for the well wishes anon. I hope you can find someone you feel safe with.
ty:) stay well!!
>>82238472
o... im sorry:( i hope you dont lose more people, do you try to make new friends sometimes? they cant replace the ones lost, but new good memories never hurt
>>82238493
mmm i see, sorry i didnt recognize you correctly then anon:/ do you stay in touch with the marine?
>>82238501
sounds like a nice and cool anon. i hope you run into him again!!

>>82238540
>do you stay in touch with the marine
Yeah, he's a cool dude. Met him in the same thread as the girl.

Ironically I made the thread about how I have no female friends and wish I had one to talk to since I genuinely just don't speak to many. Then I walked away with zero female friends but one new guy friend. Maybe women are just crazy, iuhno.

>>82237711
>it gets so exhausting for me idk if it tires you too
oh yeah it does. though most of the time people getting attached to me is what gives me the most amount of stress cause i always feel like i need to keep their expectations n such
>and that led me to hurt an anon because i became scared of them
like another anon said you shouldn't blame yourself for it, your own safety is the paramount i think. i get that maybe you dont want to talk about it but why do you feel like you're a bad person if they were the ones scaring you?

There are legitimately good posters that I miss. Look up TheWitchKing. Hopefully he is doing well.

>>82238577
thats cool!! i hope you guys stay nice friends
>>82238613
>oh yeah it does. though most of the time people getting attached to me is what gives me the most amount of stress cause i always feel like i need to keep their expectations n such
mmm i understand that, i always try to make ppl aware that their expectations of me should be low to lessen that worry of mine
>but why do you feel like you're a bad person if they were the ones scaring you?
they made me aware of smth about themselves that they didnt need to, out of concern theyd hurt me later cus of it (if i remember right, my memory is bad). i told them i wouldnt abandon them over it. but i ended up doing it anyways. so nothing that happened was really their fault, it was all me. me being less than nice. me being too weak to help someone that needed it really bad just out of fear id get hurt more. it wasnt fair to them. not at all
>>82238651
i hope theyre all doing well as well. is that an old poster here?

I used to post everyday (and also use discord, not in any type of 4chan themed thing but it's slightly relevant).
Then I hit some depressive phase and completely dropped discord for like 4 years, still continuing to this day. My anon posts have also become very sporadic. Weeks or months without posting, and then sometimes (today) several times a day.
You don't need to feel bad about it, we're just struggling in our own way. Save your energy for yourself.

>>82236583 (OP)
sometimes i do, but often i just trust that they've been busy with things or finally found a way out of this cesspool
i think the only ones that got me worried recently are a yuyuko poster and reimu, but one's already back at it and the other is gone for good i think

well godspeed for reimu, and thanks for the company, yuyuko and everyone else
you guys are great company and i'll always be here, even if my time here may be shorter now

>>82237807
Yes but idk if he'll like that I posted it.

>>82236583 (OP)
If you post quality, the anons will come back. When I see a catalog filled with peoples fetishes and other such things I imagine how things used to be and I'm really homesick about it. As I get older I feel more and more alienated from what was once my home.

No one noticed that I was away from the thread.