>>82240580 (OP)
Being trans is impossible. You are using gender as a subculture because you desparately want to belong to a group.
You have no clue how women think nor any way to compare your thought patterns to a woman and say you are more female than male. Attempting to say so makes the assumption you have been both and know.
Regardless of the impossibility of the conditiok in the first place, there is no adequate method of transforming one's body. The procedures done in the current day are akin to mutilation, entirely cosmetic and damaging.
At one point I was sympathetic to gender non-conformists but these days I would say all trans women are simply femboys and all femboys are simply male.