Thread 82240583

Sitting in the dark. Contemplating my life. Looking through the timeline to see where and how things went wrong.
This is a cry for help

>>82240583 (OP)
Jerk off and go to sleep. That fixes all late night spirals

>>82240603
I can't. I'm thinking too much to look at porn right now.
I might just play Wario Land 4, I dunno.

>>82240583 (OP)
This is a misuse of your time. You can't change the past. What happened before doesn't matter unless you let it matter. Choose to be one of the ones who flipped the script. Always face forward, never look back. You'll never get where you want to be unless you start moving.

Same here!
I know exactly where it went wrong.
In high school I was too into the internet, online pornography, and pop culture gobbledegook instead of creating actual meaningful relationships with my fellow man. I pretended that I didn't care when the truth was I did a whole lot. I doubled down in my 18-21 years. It's not like I sat in my computer all day of course not. I still go on country wide trips with my family and even had an alternative spring break last year, went down to Bluff, Utah to visit Bears Ears with a bunch of community college hippies. Beautiful place. But I'm 22 now and have nothing to show for it except longing and regret.The only thing that soothes my humiliation is that I like my decent grocery store job and my parents are not making me pay rent so at least there's that.
But that's just it. my life is too uneventful and too complacent. It cant last. I cant stay here ALL of my life. My peers are doing all sorts of cool stuff and here I am in STILL in mommy and daddy's basement loafing about doing NOTHING. Its embarrassing. My path to recovery began recently. And I'm not gonna blow it any longer.
Good bye internet. I tolerated you.

>>82240583 (OP)
or, you can look at where things went right
seriously, at any time you can choose to re-invent yourself. Look at Marilyn Monroe. Or that actor who carried a 10mil check in his pocket. They grew up in bad circumstances, and thought, you know what, that's not me. You can be anyone you want, at any moment. That is human's right. That's why your brain is plastic. You can change yourself at any time. The past doesn't matter. All you're searching for is the lessons to educate yourself on what you do want to be.