Thread 82242664

ive felt spiritual death, and it felt wonderful. to not care, to be dull and hollowed of meaning. I always hated myself and im never going to get over it. I've quit trying im done. The more I realize the more confidently say ive fallen away from the divine to embrace total isolation. Im no longer miserable, no more feeling trapped by wholesomeness i wish I once had. God should have put me in the body of a chad so I can defile more of his whore daughters and have pleasure in this life. Many women defiled as I use their self hatred against them. My heart is finally hardened. I no longer feel deprived of anything and trapped by its sorrows. anyone else experienced spiritual death? its very calming. committing spiritual suicide is much better than physical suicide

>>82242664 (OP)
You are cooler than resentanon. I wish you would dailypost this kind of misogyny instead of the same annoying cat haikus.

>>82242664 (OP)
>anyone else experienced spiritual death?
no, how would you recommend going about it?

>>82242761
I dont think im the same anon

>>82242768
lots of dissapointments and getting used to defiling sacred things and thinking about them too. Hatred against nature is hatred against God's creation and therefore against god. upon realizing this I felt less guilty. Its about removing a sense of guilt and shame and embracing everything that your mind would shy away from. Besides I was always felt emptiness since I was little. Call it a genetic curse.

>>82242816
>God's creation
If you read the bible you will find that there is more than one god. Baal is Yahwei's rival.

>>82242816
oh, that sounds like work, i was hoping i could just take a research chem or something

>>82242816
Why do you think god made mosquitos or tapeworms?

>>82242830
and im not going by god through the biblical terms but god as a driving force for existence therefore being its creation. I see god as a fundamental concept than a beared jew in the clouds, or a guy with a silly pointed hat of weather and war. Baal and yehweh both sound horrible desu. and it seems like war and fertility thrive on each other. They are corrupt, one puts us in a meat grinder and the other treats us as cannon fodder. two kikes of the same coin like yin and yang. hell ill even consider gaia to be a primary god of creation in hellinism. any one of them need to be put to death.

>>82242875
same reason why they made females nature to be whorish and men to be emotionally vulnerable and more desperate in this gynocentric hellhole

>>82242836
idk I heard opioits are good for dissasociation. could try that too

sounds very dramatic

>>82242664 (OP)
If you did, you wouldn't post about it.

>>82242948
Well I'm on o-dsmt right now which is like slightly less lame tramadol, it's very underwhelming, I am so very itchy and breathless, it's hard to focus on the text because I'm going a bit crosseyed, I feel no euphoria as described, even hydrocodone was better. Maybe I just skip straight to fent? Though I think I may be too retarded to have any sort of spiritual realization or hard reset from drugs anyway. I ate 10g of psilocybin mushrooms like they do in the movies and just screamed at my dad, called my brother a nigger for being scared of me and cried the hardest I ever have for like 5 hours. I wish I could be an unfeeling unflinching monster like other people I've known. They get everything they want even though none of it means anything to them. They're adored and they don't even care. Everything just works out for them and still they're evil and hate their life. That's so cool.

>>82242664 (OP)
isn't this the goal of buddists?