>>82243550 (OP)
>I think I have autism or something
people with autism don't act on their feelings,, if you're going to self-diagnose like some redditor at least do some reading
>uptight, sensitive, irritable little bitch
>calm and focused real man
the thing is many successful men who run businesses and raise families are act emotionally all day, they get angry and frustrated and karen out on their employees and random people and constantly gossip and gradate people by how much they like them, who is their enemy, who is their friend, they generally dislike most people
for normies their emotions give them motivation, not abstract ideals like us, normies are quick to conjur up some moral explanation for their actions or as an excuse to scold people like us, but as we have noticed all too often they are full of holes and fallacies, because it is not what drives them, rather they have these feelings, an emotional social brain, and everything else is an afterthought, and they can act on their emotions because they are surrounded at all times by likeminded normies
now with us it's different, normies hate us and whatever we do they will hate it, if we fail we're useless, if we succeed they have to kick down our sandcastle because it's funny and we're not part of their tribe, because it was arrogant to think someone like us could be a part of things, at best we can try and LARP like a normy, but they are always going to be awful people and we will always be fair game for that kind of treatment once they sniff out that we are not normal like them, in short your "insecurity" is due to a genuine lack of security surrounded by people who hate you and want you gone but cannot act on it due to our laws and liberties