Thread 82246509

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

more modeling in blender today, yippee :/

hello
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

eyo
Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

>a first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

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>>82246509 (OP)
>more modeling in blender today, yippee :/
hi catbro! (^-^) how's the modeling coming along?

>>82247376
Heyo :D
>how's the modeling coming along?
almost made wheel
I won't complete it yet instead I'll start making the frame and other parts

>>82247376
hey and how's your day goingg??

not an active cutter for many years, but have many scars on my thighs and arms, including some names. i feel like any woman upon seeing this would freak out, or at the very least lose interest, see me as weak etc, and this has stopped me even trying to approach any women.

>>82247525
>almost made wheel I won't complete it yet instead I'll start making the frame and other parts
seems like enough work today. what are you modeling anyway?

>>82247533
>hey and how's your day goingg??
it went alright. just work. not much to report. well, a friend showed me a pc i might buy. maybe i'll finally bite the bullet and get it. atm i'm watching some game reveals again. you?

>>82247541
>i feel like any woman upon seeing this would freak out, or at the very least lose interest, see me as weak etc, and this has stopped me even trying to approach any women.
i know how you feel. would cover up tattoos be an option for you?

>>82246509 (OP)
>tfw no scarred up gf who looks like a horror movie monster

>>82247541
just find someone who also cuts or used to cut problem solved
though the names thing will probably be off-putting even for regular cutters

>>82247665
>would cover up tattoos be an option for you?
i don't think it would really work, a lot of them are very 3d. it would show i care about hiding them though, so might be good
>>82247696
how does one find such people? yeah, i know it's cringe af, thinking about cutting again to erase the names

>>82247804
>how does one find such people?
lots of people are depressed and/or very stressed out nowadays, they might not be that hard to find by chance if you just start looking around and talking to various people
>thinking about cutting again to erase the names
probably not a good idea if you don't want it to become a habit again, also it will probably just make it look even worse
what about the names? were they love interests?

Is it okay to cut yourself if you're in your 30s?

>>82247541
hey anon
>including some names. i feel like any woman upon seeing this would freak out
I don't have any names on me but yeah I feel similarly
>stopped me even trying to approach any women.
I get u

>>82247665
>what are you modeling anyway?
oh I didn't tell u? a while bike with all the parts and stuff
>just work. not much to report
that's just okay then :>
and how was your sleep, I had a dream tonight, at least I think so
>showed me a pc i might buy.
mm is it expensive?
>i'm watching some game reveals again. you?
watching a vtuber play half life
it's pretty fun :3
though I'm biased because I really like that game

>>82247870
there isn't an age limit to it, anyone can struggle and have issues they want to distract themselves from at any age
why are you askin?

>>82247804
>i don't think it would really work, a lot of them are very 3d.
there are artists who specialize in cover ups, so if you consider it, you should talk to some. just don't rush it. take your time and only go for it if you are absolutely sure. wouldn't want you to just exchange one thing you're unhappy with for another.

>>82247870
>Is it okay to cut yourself if you're in your 30s?
well, it's not ok that people have to resort to it in the first place, but i don't judge you for it. just think it would be better if nobody had to.

>>82247903
>oh I didn't tell u? a while bike with all the parts and stuff
hm. can't remember if you did, but i don't think i asked, either. good to know, though. ^^ at least you can work on something you enjoy. very good idea.

>and how was your sleep
alright, i suppose. just fell asleep and woke up again. slept better. slept worse.

>I had a dream tonight, at least I think so
you don't remember much about it?

>mm is it expensive?
he told me couldn't build it cheaper himself and i trust him on that. he's way more knowledgeable when it comes to pcs than i am. but you have a look yourself:

https://www.systemtreff.de/Messe-Highlight-PC-AMD-Ryzen-7-7700-32GB-DDR5-ASUS-GeForce-RTX-5070-12GB-Dual-1TB-3810

>watching a vtuber play half life it's pretty fun :3 though I'm biased because I really like that game
have a good time then. who are you watching?

>>82248063
>at least you can work on something you enjoy. very good idea
yea :D might take a while to finish though, depends how realistic I wanna be
>just fell asleep and woke up again
no disturbances, good
>don't remember much about it?
well I just think a lot about stuff before and after going to sleep and I'm not sure if it was a dream or if I just thought about it while half asleep
>told me couldn't build it cheaper
o that's nice
>but you have a look yourself:
it might see like a lie but I know barely anything about computers
funny isn't it, and they didn't teach me anything about them in uni :0
>who are you watching?
https://www.youtube.com/live/YkRqLbgUQkI?si=-ApMgY5KMwey91ui
she finished the first one and the expansions and the second one and I think she'll play the episodes

i cut on my wrist again

>>82248524
very nice, I really like how they overlap

>>82248185
>might take a while to finish though, depends how realistic I wanna be
as long as you keep any deadline in mind i'm sure it'll come out great. looming forward to see what you come up with.

>no disturbances, good
at least i'm not aware of any. ^^

>I'm not sure if it was a dream or if I just thought about it while half asleep.
true. that happens sometimes. so, what did you dreamthink about?

>o that's nice
there was also a review and it sounded quite good. at least as far as i can tell. most of it is just gibberish and completely nonsensical cascades of letters and numbers.

>it might see like a lie but I know barely anything about computers
hm. i suppose just because someone is good with a hammer doesn't mean he knows how to make one.

>funny isn't it, and they didn't teach me anything about them in uni :0
you'd think it would be a good foundation for what you are doing, but i guess it's not as closely linked as in the early days. everything is way more specialized now.

>she finished the first one and the expansions and the second one and I think she'll play the episodes
seems like she's having a good time. :> she's got a cool intro.

>>82248524
hey anon! how are you?

>i cut on my wrist again
just be careful, ok?

>>82248524
Hello
sorry I don't remember if I had asked you this before but why do you hurt yourself?
maybe sure to patch yourself up
it looks pretty rough

>>82248783
>long as you keep any deadline in mind
there's no way I'll finish it till deadline but eh f it we ball
>forward to see what you come up with.
okay
I should've taken a pic to show u what I made today
>at least i'm not aware of any. ^^
maybe there was a demon watching you oo spooky
>what did you dreamthink about?
I'm not certain actually, probably about a hug
>hammer doesn't mean he knows how to make one.
at least hammers are simple
>everything is way more specialized now.
true
>she's having a good time. :>
yep so it's fun to watch too ^^
>she's got a cool intro.
true, she's a fantom maid
I have been at her life stream once earlier and, I think, I remember she really likes maids and she would watch live feed of some random camera in tokyo to watch girls dressed as maids
I don't know where the fantom part comes from though

learned I'll be a junior no matter what which is not exactly what i wanted. least i got a answer at least

>>82240222
>eh. do as much as you must. only reward for good work is more work.
yeah my generation is well known for not doing too much work and of course I just try to do my job. just as in just enough, haha
>will you get them?
its cleared
>when i'm done with work i don't want to play a game where i have to bother with other people, either.
maybe so. but I woudnt mind something coop I guess

>>82247541
you should at least experience that once before speculating. who knows..

>>82247676
my favorite is K a y a k o. absolute wife

>>82249059
sometimes I feel the same way

>>82248904
>there's no way I'll finish it till deadline but eh f it we ball
best of luck o7

>I should've taken a pic to show u what I made today
maybe next time. :>

>maybe there was a demon watching you oo spooky
even if, must have been a boring night for the bloke. ^^

>I'm not certain actually, probably about a hug
you deserve more than just one. hope you felt warm and cozy while thinking about it.

>yep so it's fun to watch too ^^
maybe i'll put it on while drifting of to sleep.

>she really likes maids and she would watch live feed of some random camera in tokyo to watch girls dressed as maids
i've never quite understood the fascination myself, but i suppose to each their own.

>I don't know where the fantom part comes from though
maybe it just sounds cool?

>>82249059
hello gator! :>

>learned I'll be a junior no matter what which is not exactly what i wanted. least i got a answer at least
shoot. :/ maybe it'll turn out better that way and, as you said, at least you know where you stand and what to preparw for now.

>>82249269
>yeah my generation is well known for not doing too much work
i don't think so at all. if people would want you to work harder, maybe they should have left you something that you can achieve by working.

>I just try to do my job. just as in just enough, haha
best you can do.

>its cleared
nice. well done.

>but I woudnt mind something coop I guess
hmm. peak is quite popular at the moment. maybe check it out?

>>82246509 (OP)
i think im going to cut my arm soon. best case ill end up in a hospital. i cant take it anymore but it would kill me to have to say it out loud to someone so this is the best i can do.

>>82249059
Hello
>junior no matter what
welp at least you know
and at least better than homeschooling ig
how have you been btw?

>>82249269
helloo :>
how's it going?

>>82249406
>best of luck o7
ty o7
>maybe next time. :>
okay, I'm make some screenshots
>must have been a boring night for the bloke. ^^
true heh
>hope you felt warm and cozy while thinking about it.
thank you, yea I did
that's how I try to fall asleep usually
>put it on while drifting of to sleep
sure if you want to
>maybe it just sounds cool?
just too epic to need a justification B3

>>82249478
hey anon
hope it works out
not sure if it's a great idea but I'm not sure what else you could do that wouldn't involve talking

>>82249478
maybe write a letter instead?

>>82249617
>I'm make some screenshots
awesome :D

>thank you, yea I did that's how I try to fall asleep usually
does it work?

>sure if you want to
not much else to put on. every streamer i watch is out to gamescom this week. at least i can watch a lot of blackadder without feeling like missing out on anything.

i think i'll call it a day. good night, everyone!

just wanted to say how i love you so much
you dont know me but i go to these threads sometimes and we always get to talk and i feel like we've formed a special connection dont you feel the same?

>>82249269
yea

>>82249406
hey yuanon. idk maybe i doubt it can't relate to juniors at all i feel. yup

>>82249617
yea i guess so. not great how about you?

>>82249406
>i don't think so at all. if people would want you to work harder, maybe they should have left you something that you can achieve by working.
its not like its a bad thing, to do whats expected

>hmm. peak is quite popular at the moment. maybe check it out?
thanks

>>82249617
hey. trying to sleep more. as opposed to school, I actually want to sleep more instead of showing up with 4h of sleep every day. now I get something close to 6, pretty rich.
also I didnt overeat today, or so I hope

>>82249706
night

>>82249718
cute

sleep time, goodnight

>>82249706
>does it work?
for me yep
sleep well
I'll be sleeping too now

>>82249718
heyo anon
how are you doing?
>always get to talk and i feel like we've formed a special connection
it's hard to distinguish anonymous please be I hope the talking is helping you feel better ^^

>>82249809
>not great
sorry to hear that
>how about you?
I'm okay more or less
been working on an uni project, it's a bit annoying
but overall I'm okay
gonna sleep soon so goodnight friend

>>82249843
>now I get something close to 6, pretty rich.
glad to her that, hope you manage to fix your sleep schedule because sleep deprivation is horrible for you, it makes everything worse
>also I didnt overeat today
ey good job :D

>>82250020
goodnight. oh that does sound annoying hope it's not too hard. glad your okay