Thread 82249553

1. Gender
2. Quiet BPD or original flavor?
3. How to keep stable when your partner is away?

1Male
2 I experience both forms of BPD
3 MY PERSON ISN"T HERE AND I"m HAVING A MELTIE REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>>82249553 (OP)
>tfw no bpd fembat gf

who are bpd people supposed to marry so that they don't hurt them other bpd people?

>>82250115
The optimal pairing is BPD + schizoid. The BPD supplies the energy and the schizoid supplies the stability.

>>82249553 (OP)
there's no "quiet bpd", holy shit psychiatry and psychology are such a fucking memes
imagine if actual doctors thought someone had an illness like pneumonia because the person showed some symptoms of it but it wasn't actually pneumonia but they couldn't figure out what it really was because they are too dumb and lazy and just want to sell therapy and/or drugs asap so they just named it "weird pneumonia" and started treating the patient for pneumonia
how the fuck does anyone take this shit seriously

>>82250115
I can handle everything with bpd except cheating.

>>82250207
Mental disorders are symptom clusters that we label as a singular disease despite them not having the same origins. The labels are just for ease of talking about the symptoms. There are probably multiple types of BPD, at the very least a C-PTSD style BPD exists alongside the traditional BPD variant.

>>82249553 (OP)
1. Female
2. It's in remission for the most part lol
3. Never had a bf or even touched by a man

These threads used to hit the bump limit in under a day is r9k not full of bpds anymore?

wish i could have been born as a normal. fuck mental illness and fuck bpd. you took my life away from me, you are the source of my problems. you are a cancer i have allowed to fester for far too long. you have isolated me and divided me from what i know as real. you cause me to suffer. i swear to god one day i will get rid of you.

>>82250382
How long have you been fighting it for anon?

>>82250225
Yeah everyone needs to submit to a higher authority and not cheat that is messed up

>>82250132
I was the schizoid part of this equation and it worked for 5 years

>>82250419
couple of years now.

>>82250446
Yeah I'm schizoid too. I was friends with a BPD girl for a fairly long time but we lost contact a while back. I like the dynamic a lot but I don't know what the longevity really is.

>>82249553 (OP)
I think besides narcissism bpd is prob one of the most aggravating mental illnesses for their soroundings

>>82250458
Making any progress?

>>82250463
I think if I had treated her with a little bit more care I could have spun that plate forever, but I forgot that my feelings affect other people for about 6 months and that was that.

>>82250522
I also forget that a lot. I've been falling into weird moods lately where I don't feel like anything is real, more like extreme apathy than derealization though. That and the erratic nature of my social drive makes any kind of relationship very difficult. It's weird to want something and still not be able to work to get it, but I guess that's just a part of having a personality disorder. On the plus side, handling erratic moods from other people is trivial.

>>82250510
no.
captcha: KVNNA

>>82250568
>>82250522
> forgot that my feelings affect other people
Care to elaborate?
>>82250568
Also,
>erratic nature of my social drive
What does this mean? How is it erratic?

>>82250661
>Care to elaborate?
I'm >>82250568
I just get very self absorbed, preoccupied with daydreams, and forget that people exist. If someone isn't actively interacting with me I just lose them.
>What does this mean? How is it erratic?
I go from having zero desire to socialize to having a small amount of desire. I'm somewhat social right now which I why I'm here. At my worst I can go months with zero human contact and be fine. I probably switch a few times a year which feels erratic to me. Even at my worst I can talk to people, I just don't have any desire to do so.

>>82250707
>I just get very self absorbed, preoccupied with daydreams, and forget that people exist. If someone isn't actively interacting with me I just lose them.
Do you ever feel guilty about it or no? And do you remember things about them well or do you forget about them truly?

How do you find a BPD girls as a Schizoid Moid

>>82250661
The circumstances of life meant we had to spend time apart and for me it was an unfortunate inconvenience and for her it was existential. She cared more about my feelings or mental state than I did, and I didn't realize how that was affecting her until it was unbearable for her.

>>82250727
I do feel guilty about it but it's hard to change the behavioral pattern. I can remember details fairly well and it's not hard for someone to dip out of my life for a few years and then pop back in like nothing happened, but I just kind of forget that they exist until they interact with me.

The difference between Quiet and Normal BPD is just their body count

>>82250732
I think you just have to hope that one adopts you

>>82252503
But that's impossible the moid is supposed to be the man D:

>>82252529
I find that BPD girls are happy to adopt people that they like, no need to be super traditional. If you meant where to find them as in what location then I can't help as much because I only talk to people on r9k.

>>82252571
I don't care if my BPD girl is happy, I want her tied to me forever and pregnant

>>82252719
That's sad. I hope you don't get what you want.

1. Male
2. Used to be bad case of loud bpd, quiet now
3. Just remember that your favorite person would want you to shut the fuck up.

>>82252740
I don't think happiness is the way to keep a BPD around they'll get bored if you don't keep them mentally stim stimmed

>>82252817
If you really want to keep them around just let them hug you one time and they'll be obsessed with you years later. You'll also have a permanent rent free spot in their head.

>>82252817
If someone is happier away from me, then I want them to go away from me. People with borderline personality are still human beings with agency, they can make decisions for themselves and don't need to be entrapped and held - unless they're into that, I guess.

>>82252829
I don't want to just keep them around though I want them to be my person and exist and belong to me forever and ever until death and then more yep

>>82252875
I mean in my case I feel like I'm so insignificant that like I could never imagine owning "my" FP desu, like just being my FP's object that they can put in a box and get rid of when not needed sounds like it's probably ideal i think yep

>>82252909
>ideal relationship dot jay peg

>>82252909
If my FP was like this then I would need 2 or 3, but if my FP is like an feral cat just one is okay

>>82249553 (OP)
Is it my BPD if I don't have consistent opinions or beliefs?

>>82249553 (OP)
M
bpd turned quiet bpd turned cptsd
i couldn't so i stopped having partners

>>82252928
Hows it going Ribbit?

I would be able to tell when my qBPD had an internal mood swing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rl6fyhZ0G5E&list=RDRl6fyhZ0G5E&start_radio=1&pp=ygUdbWFyaWx5biBtYW5zb24gcGVyc29uYWwgamVzdXOgBwE%3D

>>82252909
what if your fp forced ownership upon you and locked your hearts together with tools that you couldn't remove so it's too late you're your FPs person forever

>>82252942
Bored outta my mind

>>82252917
Yup! Idk if I'm supposed to read the manga or not but I am and it's cute so far...

>>82252977
That would mean I would be happy forever <3

p.s. abilify has worked wonders for me
no mood swings anymore
just numbness in my hands
i've hads kidney troubles through drinking (which i don't do anymoire)
no sure which med is causing the hand numbness though, i take 5 all up

>>82252979
I don't get bored very often, I kind of just turn my brain off and stare. It freaks people out when they see it.

>>82252989
>Idk if I'm supposed to read the manga
If there's manga in the box go ahead, but... finding it cute? Even more ideal desu.

People with quiet BPD sound tolerable to be around.

>>82250132
I knew someone with BPD and it was fucking awful. Now I'm a hermit that almost never interacts with another person and I'm the happiest I've ever been.

>>82253026
>Now I'm a hermit that almost never interacts with another person and I'm the happiest I've ever been.
You sound like a schizoid waiting for BPaDoption

how many meds do you guys take ? i'm 5
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VlX6CvWT97s&list=RDVlX6CvWT97s&start_radio=1&pp=ygUbbWFyaWx5biBtYW5zb24gdGFpbnRlZCBsb3ZloAcB

>>82253026
>I knew someone with BPD and it was fucking awful
Quiet BPD is less abrasive, but even the non-quiet ones can be very sweet and fun to be around. There's some subset that refuses to do anything to mitigate their disorder and just acts as pure chaos. Those are best avoided.
That said I am also a hermit who never interacts with other people and find it quite nice.

>>82253033
No thank you, please ruin someone else's life.

>>82252997
>I don't get bored very often, I kind of just turn my brain off and stare
Same

>>82253010
Looks scary, but if that's what you want for me it's what I need.

>>82253061
It's not scary at all, don't worry about it. You'll love your new home inside the teddy bear. You can sit on a shelf and watch me until I feel like bringing you down and playing with you!

>>82253061
noooo little bpdangels need to be treated kindly not put into scary dark box with the bugs and the rats T_T

>>82253082
Don't poison her mind! You don't know what she needs, only I do!

You can't discipline your FP without first discipline yourself, my fp my choice she doesn't go into the scary simple as

>>82253125
She can choose for herself if she goes into the scary or not

>>82253160
No she can't or else she isn't an object that you're putting into a box, you're tricking her to climb herself into chains WRONG
I'm tying her up myself

>>82253191
Chains should be worn willingly! People are happier when they choose.

Someone I know got this message the other day
>thinking that you like someone more than me is like a knife stabbing my chest
Is this BPD or something else? How is someone even meant to respond to that?

>>82253221
It just sounds like someone being theatrical and maybe a little insecure. If they like that person then they could say "good thing you're my favorite person" or something like that. Problem solved. Maybe give them a little more affection too if they're acting out.

>>82253205
Oh I'll get her some gold plated chains for her to wear proudly, but there is no choice in the matter she belongs to me

>>82253221
>I'm jealous and I want you to fuck me
very simple

>>82253361
>gold plated
>plated
I'll give her solid gold chains. She won't be able to move from the weight but that same weight will come to represent my ownership over her.

>>82253404
The chains are just a reminder that she is owned by her FP, not there to get in the way of her daily duties...

My person keeps getting scared and run away from me T_T

>>82253686
Try leaving fingerprints on their windows spelling out positive messages? It should calm them down

>>82253698
what is a positive kind of message to leave on your person's window? something like "I'm coming to eat your face ;0)"

>>82249553 (OP)
1. It's a secret! :3
2. Quiet~ (probably) :(
:3. I don't have a close partner~ / They're technically always away~ :3c

>>82254054
(>^_^)><(^_^<)
You have me though mwah <33

>>82254066
OwO
(>^_^)><(^_^<)
<3 <3
UwU

>>82254086
B-bump~! ^_^7
P
D
^.^

>>82254289
owo' you're so cute :3c

>>82250132
Is this true? Or is this cap?

>>82249553 (OP)
Why would a quiet BPD blame themselves when something bad happens and then cut people off for it T_T"
BPD should not be allowed to cut me off they should be trapped trapped trapped

Female, OG
It is really hard when he is gone but I try not to isolate my boyfriend. I remind myself constantly that his friends and family are part of who he is as the full package. I would have him come home and spend all his time with me if I could. I get irritated having to share him but it's necessary for his happiness. I do freak out sometimes but I go hard making it up to him with cooking cleaning and sex so he forgives me

>>82249553 (OP)
Quiet bpd sounds like me, God it hurts all over.

1. Gender
transmasculine
2. Quiet BPD or original flavor?
more traits from the quiet bpd side but I can be expressive and rageful sometimes. I was diagnosed with childhood bpd but I might not actually have it. I've tried to learn DBT skills.
3. How to keep stable when your partner is away?
I'm pretty used to not really having any support. I vent a ton online and apparently in person too. I think it's easier when that gets ignored than when people engage with it. I get worried about various people I know dying, getting abducted, or getting arrested when I haven't seen them or spoke to them in a while.

>>82254778
Same anon. Why won't people I'm talking to normal-style instead of my incredibly mentally ill emo friends respond to me? Just because they actually have lives?

>>82254907
>Why won't people I'm talking to normal-style
Because you're visibly mentally ill so normgroids don't into

>>82254932
What does normgroid mean? By normal-style, I mean mostly other queer females I talk to about shit other than my parental issues and this one stupid band.

>>82254998
Why are you surrounded In such strange people

>>82254722
Quiet bpd sounds like you're a fun and cozy person who needs love

>>82256334
I'm too scared to open up again. Last time I did I had to go through so many intense emotions. I would hide in the office bathroom to cry multiple times, I kept blaming myself for everything. It gets so tiring.

>>82250363
I'm still here but it's pointless to post in threads that are filled with misinformation

>>82249553 (OP)
I'm seriously concerned. I woke up in the morning because of some loud noises, it turned out to be my girlfriend. She was in the bathroom.
I rose up to see what was happening and when I opened the door a foul stench hit me like a Popeye punch, but my girlfriend ate the spinach this time. She got really aggressive towards me, yelling to close the door because all the shit vapors would spread in the bedroom. Guys, I think she has bpd.
Another instance is that I told her I like video games more than I like her and she got really angry again...there were clear signs of bpd. I mean, how else can she get angry for nothing burgers? Aren't women supposed to be chill? What, she's angry cause i might be mistreating her? Nah, she's mentally ill, bros.

1. Male
2. Quiet BPD
3. Impossible

>>82256501
What misinformation? Do you think the interweb is lying? You don't trust everything you read on here, or what? Get your head out of your arse, every thread's legit.

don't listen to me guys im a schizoid

>>82250132
I turned from schizoid into quiet bpd I think there is some significant connection between these. My mom had bpd and I seek out bpds subconsciously, they always turn out to be two faced psychopaths. I struggle seeing myself as bpd seeing I am not a lying psychopath too.

I collect every mental illness like pokemon cards, i need justification for my pain and lack of ambitions

>>82249553 (OP)
I don't have bpd today. I'm cured for now.
I hate that everyone with BPD gets labeled as evil or crazy. In reality we just have strong emotions and are more impulsive. If you treated someone with bpd nicely and with care you'd never have any problems with them. But there's so many things that people do to make us act up.

>>82256660
Those strong emotions and impulsivity are bullying and cheating someone. That is fundamentally bad. People try to isolate single traits of BPD too much, ignoring whole heaps of abuse disorders either coming with it or being bunched into BPD. Non quiet bpds are relationship psychopaths.

>>82256755
Mostly cheating cause they get bored fast

>>82256376
(>^_^)><(^_^<) you deserve love too

>>82256639
BPDs aren't lying psychopaths by nature. It is possible to be comorbid bpd/schizoid
>>82254342
True in my experience, there was an essay written on the subject a while back by a psychologist that was semi-convincing as well.

>>82250115
NPDs.

>>82258459
NHIs

>>82249553 (OP)
1. Moid
2. BPD+terrible social anxiety, guess that makes it "quiet"?
3. Never had one, coping with substance abuse, gooning and escapism

>>82258644
Maybe if you got off the porn you'd get a girlfriend

>>82250226
Based knower

>>82250270
That's unique. I've never met a female with BPD who has always been single. What gives?

>>82250382
You will get better! Keep working on it!

>>82252928
If you constantly do 180s on your opinions and beliefs, that could be a symptom. It is the "black and white thinking" and the "pathological certainty" aspect.

>>82253026
>People with quiet BPD sound tolerable to be around
They are until you accidentally hurt their feelings and they cut you off without a word

>>82256334
>Quiet bpd sounds like you're a fun and cozy person who needs love
It can mean keeping a total emotional distance from people who think you are their close friend. But I'm reality you've never been vulnerable around them for a second

>>82258644
Yeah getting high is a way to fill the void but it is unhealthy.

>>82260345
>They are until you accidentally hurt their feelings and they cut you off without a word
I think most BPDs aren't that bad. It's like saying that schizophrenics are fine until they think you're a demon and stab you to death. It happens but the average schizo is not that bad off, same for BPDs.

>>82260341
how could this possibly ever get better

>>82260434
Pretty sure BPD recedes a little as you age even without treatment

>>82260345
Why would you be emotionally vulnerable around people you care about? That sounds like a recipe for disaster.

>>82260487
feels true but is not true

I hate being an attractive man with BPD. My existence is based on sexual and physical gratification. I need to be talking to 5 girls at all times or I'm desperately empty and will freak out and shave my head or something. I fucking hate it. I want one woman and want to only care about her. I don't want to get bored of her after a month and grow to hate her. I use women so much and it feels good in the moment then disgusting and I block them or ghost them immediately.

I wish I was just ugly. Even if I still had BPD. I would never be able to get away with what i get away with. Just knowing I have the option to go fuck someone or sext someone means I'm GOING to do it. I'm a hypersexual low inhibition moron. I want a different brain

>>82261023
This post was actually by sam who is raiding /r9k/ for the latest batch of egirls

when i was high i felt this feeling that i am loved despite all my faults and my appearance and being an awful retched human being and that i am destined for a normal and fulfilling life, living like a real person with relationships and friends i wouldnt drift away from if i could just trust the plan set out for me. i cried because i knew it was the only time i could feel such a feeling.

>>82261491
You can feel that all the time if you come to know Jesus Christ :)

>>82261521
ive tried before. i tried to tell myself to fully believe in it but i could not because i am a stupid freak and im not even a real person

>>82250132
I was the schizoid part of this dynamic. I was resolutely loyal and told her I loved her every day. Then she just ghosted me after 2 years. BPD be BPD.

>>82249553 (OP)
BpD is not a real thing and something psychiatrists made up to slander child abuse victims. The concept of a personality disorder is completely ridiculous and dehumanizing. Psychiatry is a fake science and almost entirely baseless theories about the way the mind works. Just because people are poorly adjusted and struggling does not mean their brain is medically malfunctioning as psychiatry tries to claim.

>>82261601
>people struggle as a result of problems with their brain
>this does not constitute a disorder because normie mc normson over here thinks you can just willpower through any mental issue
every time

>>82261567
>tell myself to fully believe in it but i could not because i am a stupid freak
Whose saying that? God? Or your self.

>>82261709
myself. how could god be saying it?

>>82249553 (OP)
Taking a blowtorch to this retarded thread. Hopefully you can all try better next time.

>>82261765
well that it doesn't really matter when it comes to belief does it

>>82261585
Did it bother you? I've been ghosted before too but it was always kind of a relief like, it's over and I can go back to being alone. I'd love to get ghosted by a nice BPD girl again.

>>82262125
no because being with her was perfect. She was distant a lot so I didn't feel bad being with her and she was so sweet and frankly I just don't want to fucking have to go through all the trouble to find someone else like omfg I put in that much energy to build that relationship because I thought it would be all I'd need socially and then poof it's gone.

>>82262145
Oh, I see how it would be painful then. I guess I'd like something like that, prior to the ghosting, as well but I just don't feel it's possible for me so I'm happy with transient relationships. It's all just a lot of work though.

>>82249553 (OP)
The middle portion of this Venn diagram is a pretty good representation of me. I got diagnosed with PTSD, severe alcohol abuse disorder, and Persistent Depressive Disorder close to my EAS in the military. More than a couple different psychologists suggested I might have BPD, but I sort of stopped going to appointments because I didn't like hearing how fucked up I am.

But it makes a lot of sense, unfortunately. I've been sober for a month now and am starting to feel emotions as normally as possible for me. I forgot how quick I can go from happy to pissed, then suicidal, and defensive I can be to others.

I tried marriage once and that was a shitshow. Idk if I'll ever try to marry again. Whenever I get in relationships after the divorce, I break up at the first sign that things don't feel perfect.

It's fucking miserable lol.

>>82252969
>>82253040
Is Manson BPD? Please tell me he's not I mean I'm sure there's something wrong with him tho. If you're just posting dope music to bump fine by me

i wish my person were here so we could kiss and stuff

>>82249553 (OP)
1. Male
2. Quiet
3. Incel

>>82263839
>>82252744
>>82252938
>>82254054
>>82256621
>>82258644
What would it take for your BPD to get loud?

>>82264610
My ex provably fucking with me.

>>82249553 (OP)
M
Quiet
500 Adderalls

>>82252817
They will not get bored >>82252829
is 100% right once you get them hooked they'll go yandere and without you they'll either go suicidal blaming themselves or mad blaming you/others
Doesn't even have to be a love interest

>>82265048
But they will get hooked to other people not just me so i hate that