Thread 82252746

This board is my only form of social interaction. Nobody in school even looks at me. I'm slowly loosing my mind. I can't even interact right on 4chan, i'm socially outcasted here because i'm so bad at talking. Even my own mother basically called me insufferable to talk with. I can't do it. I don't know how lonely anons here do it but i'm not meant to be lonely. Maybe you are but that's not how I function. I haven't been, hugged, kissed, loved. I don't care about sex like the anons here I just want to be loved. I just want to be hugged or something. The teachers tried talking to me out of pity and stopped when they realized just how bad I am at talking. Nobody likes me at all, I don't have anyone to blame it on. It's just the social skills I was born with. I'm unlovable and I don't blame others for that. All I want is to be loved. I can't go on like this. You guys are gonna see a live stream of me soon.

>>82252746 (OP)
You're probably going to fail at suicide, as we all do. Your neurodivergence has doomed you to a too-long life of solitude. It is what it is.

hey buddy. whats wrong with your speech? is it a speech impediment maybe?

>>82252746 (OP)
This board has been all of my social interaction for the past 15 years. It's great. I come here, I shitpost, I leave, I come back whenever I want. No obligations and no one ever remembers me.

>>82252746 (OP)
Hey bro
You could just try talking to people anyways despite that
It's not like you have anything to lose
Too scared to open your mouth to some strangers?

>>82252746 (OP)
>Even my own mother basically called me insufferable to talk with
Why? What did you say to her?

>>82252762
My autism isn't obvious like down syndrome or something, I look and sound normal. I can't hold a conversation with normies or non normies. That's the issue. No matter what I can't find someone who will give me attention for more than 5 minutes. I'm bad at interacting.
>>82252778
I'm way too afraid for that. Maybe if I wore a mask or something but then they would think i'm robbing them. If I could talk anonymously like on 4chan I would but I can't do that. Even if I was they would stop talking to me in a few minutes. Im insufferable.
>>82252792
I looked up how to make friends or something and it said "ask others questions about themselves" so I kept asking her questions and she just yelled at me for being annoying and nobody wants to answer a million questions.

>>82252746 (OP)
You are going to continuously fail if you rely on "this board" for interaction. The social interaction here is neither healthy nor conducive to you learning how to interact with people.
You said your teachers tried talking to you out of pity and they stopped. As long as you're not borderline psychotic and discussing topics that are taboo, try again and explain honestly that you have difficulties interacting with people. Some of your teachers may offer help practicing or guidance to get help, others may be decline because it's just not in the cards for them because they are busy are not fully sure how to handle the situation. Imagine if you decided to give up on walking as a toddler because you constantly fell over. You would still be crawling to this day, and the same mentality applies to everything else you try at life. You can't "fail" at something that doesn't have a definitive timeline or set achievement date, nor is their a timeline for improving. You simply improve by consistency in practicing talking.
You're still young but one of the definitive things to help is by getting a job where you have to interact with people. Even a gas station clerk at night does some interaction enough to help you practice sort of scripted lines. Just saying hello when somebody checks things out and a how's your day and thank you and have a great day at the end over time is enough to help build confidence

>>82252746 (OP)
>This board is my only form of social interaction
thats bad for u! anons can be very negative and since u tend to take things at their face value
>looked up how to make friends or something and it said "ask others questions about themselves" so I kept asking her questions
i think it affects u alot
>I can't even interact right on 4chan
theres no "right" way to interact here, just say whatever the fuck is on ur mind. trying to fit looks forced
>i'm socially outcasted here because i'm so bad at talking
its normal that people dont reply here, they often post and dip
>I haven't been, hugged, kissed, loved. I don't care about sex like the anons here I just want to be loved
same, it does get easier over time though
>Nobody likes me at all, I don't have anyone to blame it on. It's just the social skills I was born with
blame is pointless, i think social skills are about building atop what attempts at social interactions have worked. if none worked, no progress is made. doesnt mean no progress can eventually be made tho
>I'm way too afraid for that
yea thats the issue, go get anxiolitics prescription and itll get way easier to push the fear.
or just get drunk or do shrooms if u can

>>82252746 (OP)
Do your best to improve, I was like you when i was a child and now i can almost edge out my ceo step-family members in social skills

crazy that im 24 and i made posts like these when i was 16 in 2016 on /r9k/
how many souls has this site ground into the dirt lol

>>82253250
Browsing r9k is mostly just the symptom. The problem lies within. If not here, anons will rot elsewhere, possibly even worse places.

>>82252834
>I kept asking her questions and she just yelled at me for being annoying
lmao did you do this?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rWno3RKIpR0

>>82252746 (OP)
If you pray to me as your god your dreams will come true if you get dubs.

>>82253079
I've given up hope for improving. I'm just posting so I can express my emotions somewhere. I know I should improve, it feels hopeless. I can't get the motivation. I've tried to improve and fit in for so long, slowly I lost all the hope when it didnt work. I want to improve so bad but it just doesn't feel realistic. I don't think it'll work. Maybe I should give it another shot but I don't even feel like I can improve at all. I spent hours watching videos on how to be social, Its pointless because it never works. I feel destined to be like this.
>>82253110
I don't think it'll get easier overtime. It's only gotten worse for me. Coping is my best bet to feel better.
>>82253292
The conversation wasn't as extreme but was similar to that. It was more like:
>I got this as a gift
>How much did it cost
>I don't know
>Why not
>Because you don't ask that when you get a gift
>Why not
>Youre so annoying nobody asks so much about a gift you just say thank you and move on. You don't ask a million questions just shut the fuck up!!!
Not exactly like that but that's what I can remember, my memory is not the best.

>>82252746 (OP)
>You guys are gonna see a live stream of me soon.

Oh boy oh boy. Make sure to link all of your internet profiles you want to represent yourself in death too, faggot

>>82252746 (OP)
Nobody will ever unserstand. Nobody will ever care. It is what being neurodivergent is. If you want to have a genuine conversation, add me on discord - cletusniglet. I am the same way, with everyone hating me.

>>82253460
You would probably block me very quickly when you realize how insufferable I am. I'm not joking or exaggerating it. But either way I don't have discord or really any social media, sorry anon.

>>82252746 (OP)
I just starting going back to college. Its weird, somehow I feel even more lonely than before. I guess being a NEET and minding my own business + 4chan as my social network I was able to cope but it gets worse every time I go to school. Its like a nagging reminder in the back of my head that you faggots aren't my friends and its all fake and gay.

>>82253250
Crazy that I'm 28 and was making posts like this when I was 16 and still am.

>>82252746 (OP)
Damn, that's a lot to lay down. Have you consider I might have had sex with your mother?

>>82252746 (OP)
I relate to this anon. I'm in my second year of NEETing, literally zero social interaction.

>>82253431
If you already have given up, than any further discussion is pointless. If you were obese, and complaining about the physical difficulties of doing things like getting up by yourself or breathing, how are you supposed to lose any weight if you gave up after a day of exercise?
Your failure is a combination of 1) a defeatist mindset that you have already failed leading you to put zero actual motivation into changing and 2) your overthinking it. Tell me, did Kobe Bryant get as good as he was by reading books about basketball or watching others play games? Sure, he may have benefitted in some manner, but the reality is that he spent countless hours on the court to get where he was. You are wasting your efforts on studying how you THINK people talk and how you think you should talk in response and not actually trying hard enough to do the talking. Yes you have failed thus far, so what? Are you on your deathbed and it's your dying wish to talk to somebody better? No? Then you haven't "failed" at all. Also, I just want to say that you should never ever discuss money in any conversation. It is both tacky and can lead to jealousy. Never ask a coworker how much they make or a teacher or whatever. I do a lot of investing and I will never tell people to invest even though I know it will benefit them. Why? Because I have no idea if they are living paycheck to paycheck. If you are going to talk to somebody, do it about general interest. Sports, hobbies, etc. If somebody asked you your hobby and you said I post on 4chan in my free time, are you really expecting them to react positively given the site's history?
If you have already given up then you are just wasting everybody's time in this thread who is trying to help you. You can either move forwards, backwards, or go nowhere. Where you want to go is up to you.

>>82253684
>a defeatist mindset that you have already failed leading you to put zero actual motivation into changing a
A defeatist mindset doesn't come from nowhere. It's usually justified by a shitty reality that some people face.
>Sure, he may have benefitted in some manner, but the reality is that he spent countless hours on the court to get where he was.
And having many other things that OP probably lacks(luck, talent, support, etc)

My advice for OP? Do whatever you want since your life is already pointless and you are too weak to change. Just kill yourself or whatever.

>>82253501
From your posts here, you do not seem insufferable. But having no social media means you will remain without anyone to talk to

>>82252746 (OP)
I wish i was there to hug your lonely ass anon

>>82252834
Lol holy shit man you sound like me, except I'm nearly twice your age. You don't fit in with normies, and you don't fit in with the autists, it's pure hell. You're just isolated and alone.

The women I date notice that I lack the ability to influence and socialize with other people and eventually grow distant and leave. I am in hell

>>82252746 (OP)
You should die, you won't survive in this world.

>>82252834
>I'm way too afraid for that. Even if I was they would stop talking to me in a few minutes. Im insufferable.
Why though? The only thing you have to do is not say anything that will get you beat up, which, in 2025, is unlikely to happen. You're upsetting over assumptions
There is zero reason for you to not do this. Grow a pair and grow up

>>82254385
Well right now I have a clear topic to talk about so it's easier. I can't even pinpoint why but nobody will talk to me even if I try. I'm not exactly sure what makes me insufferable but it's clear I am based on how people treat me when I interact with them.
>>82254793
Thanks anon
>>82255917
It's sounds easy on writing but if I was actually to do it, I wouldn't be able to. I'm too anxious about it, maybe I conditioned myself to not say anything unless my identity isn't linked to it. I feel like in on here I get a second chance, if I fuck up once in real life they don't like me anymore.