Thread 82266717

I am 35 now. 10 years ago I was tfw no gf and I wanted to kill myself everyday. I gave up on finding a woman 2 years after that and now I am honestly feeling pretty good about myself. I still don't have friends, but people at my job laugh at my jokes and respect me. I have a feeling that if I tried now I could probably get a girlfriend that would settle for me.

Why would I do that though?

If you had to learn to be alone and sexless for most of your life why would you want to complicate your life as your sex drive starts to go lower? Why would I want to take life seriously when I stopped taking it seriously? Why would I force myself to learn how to deal with women when they ignored me and used me as a beta orbiter for my whole life?

you are an immature faggot and you should grow up

35, soon 36. I'm in a similar situation, just that I don't really socialise at work.
I wish I could have freed myself like you. But to be honest it still hurts a lot, knowing that I will forever be alone.
When I look at women my age, I wanna puke. It's not worth going out of your way to attract them. Also most of them are much better payed than me and probably think I'm scum.
I still play videogames in my free time. Nothing will change.
I also still have suicide thoughts.

>>82266717 (OP)
If you are content as you are now, it's certainly not likely to be worth it. AI robot gfs are going to be a thing within under 10 years anyway, the only thing a 3DPD can offer is children, but it comes at a very high cost.

>>82266717 (OP)
What do you do? Nobody considers you weird or asks questions about your personal life?

>>82266717 (OP)
Honestly if i were you i don't think i'd see much point in a women at that point.

>>82266902
Engineer and I am working at the same place for 10 years now. When I started it was easy to see I am a sperg and they made fun of me behind my back (probably still do to a degree). They didn't have to ask to know that I am a weirdo. But over the years I got better with people and it helps that I am smart so I make up for being a tard by being much more competent than a normie.

>>82266717 (OP)
I'm reading your post just as I activated my vibrating jellyfish sex toy. You're right: there really is no 'point' in complicating your life after you've been single for so long (20 years in my case; I'm 36) with a relationship. I enjoy the quiet, I enjoy the solitude, and I certainly enjoy only having to pay for groceries and such *once.* I really think people only get into relationships and marriage because they feel they 'have to;' no one in their right mind would do so (certainly not have a kid) unless they were feeling compelled by society to conform.

>>82267085
>because they feel they 'have to;'
I actually disagree. It is people like us that feel they have to. And it drove me kinda insane and made me orbit a lot of despicable women. When it comes to normies that get their first relationship at around 16-19yo they don't feel they have to. They just get in a relationship naturally. Most of them are too dumb to even think in those categories at this age. And for them it makes sense to be in a relationship. If you can get one effortlessly then it is worth it. And even if it falls apart after a year they will just get the next one after some time without putting too much effort again. Not being able to have a relationship naturally like average humans do will send you into a negative spiral where the first step is thinking you have to have one.

>>82266865
>When I look at women my age, I wanna puke
truth
>It's not worth going out of your way to attract them
truth

>>82266717 (OP)
The last part of your post shows you're still jaded and care about sex/women, even if it's negatively caring.

>>82267230
>jaded and care about sex/women, even if it's negatively caring.
and?

In my case, I got female attention once (by dumb luck) and it was like a drug. So now I desperately seek it.

>>82267699
It can get much worse, I'm another 35 year old virgin and once had a girl be madly in love with me.

>>82267828
If that love was worth a damn she would still be with you.

>>82267914
not necessarily, things could be very complicated, like lets say something weird happened and we were both traumatized, our love got wrapped all in there and I only recently uncovered the tragedy that I repressed my feelings for her including memories of her because of the trauma, I tried to find her and shit's off, she doesn't remember...certain things. I don't know how to trigger her memory worse off all I don't know if I should, she seemed happy, remembering for me had driven me near suicide

all of you sour grapes losers sound the same. pathetic.

>>82267246
and you are just coping