Thread 82267157

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

Friday, time to chill

hey
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

eyo
Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>82267157 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
fine
>Any plans for today?
drinking monster and gooning to dylann roof
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
i burned myself a couple weeks ago and cut myself a few times this week
>Why did you hurt yourself?
cut a cross into my left breast for fun, burned and cut the rest of my body to try offputting the never ending depression
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
living with my grandpa right now until im back on my feet after being homeless, familiar familial faults

>>82267242
hello
>fine
that's good
>drinking monster and gooning
what a day
>feet after being homeless
sounds difficult
do you think it'll work out?

>>82267630
>do you think it'll workout
no lol, ill probably just kill myself lmao, i can barely even get out of bed xd

today i will self harm by drinking bleach

>>82267157 (OP)
hey catbro!

>>82267242
hello anon!

>>82267961
i'd strongly advise against that.

>>82268048
hi yuanon

>>82267896
>probably just kill myself
hopefully it doesn't happen but yeah, life's not great
why are you depressed? what do you dislike about your life?

>>82267961
that's sounds like a horrible idea
you shouldn't do that

>>82268048
Hello Yuanon how's it goin?

>>82268098
what's up? any plans for the weekend?

>>82268244
>how's it goin?
going alright. had a bit to much caffeine today, but other than that, i'm fine. not much to tell, though. just went to work, got home, ordered some indian food and now i'm just watching random vids on youtube. how was your day?

>>82268244
>what do you dislike about your life
low energy, on verge of homelessness, ugly, rape victim

>>82268388
more monster energy and more gooning to dylann roof, hopefully get drunk even if i can only get listerine

>>82268802
>more monster energy and more gooning to dylann roof, hopefully get drunk even if i can only get listerine
sounds like there's an intense night ahead of you. i just drank mate soda and watch penn and teller clips.

>>82268388
>going alrigh
yay
>not much to tell,
at least nothing bad :>
>>82268794
>watching random vids on youtube
have fun!
>how was your day?
Pretty much just modeled a little and chilled

>>82268794
yeah sounds like not many reasons to live

>>82267157 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
pretty ok. got the day off
>Any plans for today?
I got a new laptop battery and couldn't get it to work. Until I realized it needed to be plugged in.
Otherwise, I just watched dan da dan.
>>82267630
hi cat, how was your Friday?
>>82268388
hi yu,
>had a bit to much caffeine today
That's okay, I've been fueled by it.
>ordered some indian food and now i'm just watching random vids on youtube
that's a good afternoon.

>>82267157 (OP)
>How are you doing today?
today i have been thinking about cutting myself because i am ugly and unfuckable but i am not sure where i could do it that nobody will see
>Any plans for today?
just arrived home from work, now time to lay on the couch until its time to sleep, then lay in bed and sleep

>>82269278
>yeah sounds like not many reasons to live
thanks

>>82269278
>at least nothing bad :>
i hope so. fingers crossed.

>have fun!
it was ok, but i couldn't find anything really grabbing my attention, so i went to bed. probably not going to sleep anytime soon, though.

>Pretty much just modeled a little and chilled
how's the bike coming along?

>>82269306
hi cynic!

>got the day off
nice. you deserve it.

>I got a new laptop battery and couldn't get it to work. Until I realized it needed to be plugged in.
good you figured it out. sometimes you forget to check the obvious solution.

>I just watched dan da dan.
what do you think about the latest episode? i found it a bit strange. very creative visuals, but i'm not sure why they felt the need for a single episode training arc.

>That's okay, I've been fueled by it.
you definitely need it more than i do. i really don't like the feeling it gives me, though. i think i'll need to reduce my intake again.

>that's a good afternoon.
pretty much. just can't find anything that keeps my attention. what's your plan?

>>82269324
>i am ugly and unfuckable
sorry you're feeling that way.

>where i could do it that nobody will see
hm. maybe try to distract yourself another way first? what to you usually do?

>just arrived home from work, now time to lay on the couch until its time to sleep, then lay in bed and sleep
sounds familiar.

>>82269403
you've really been through a lot, so how you feel is very relatable. it's ok to retreat from the world and to not feel well. at least for a while. take your time.

>>82269306
heyo
>got the day off
wooo :D
glad you get to chill more
>Until I realized it needed to be plugged in
hehe
>Otherwise, I just watched dan da dan.
how do you like it?
>how was your Friday?
just relaxed and also modeled a little bit
also planned a trip with a friend

>>82269324
>thinking about cutting myself because i am ugly and unfuckable
relatable, but why do you think that about yourself?
>arrived home from work, now time to lay on the couch until its time to sleep,
is your job so tiring?

>>82269403
I'm not trying to be mean
but I'm not one of those people who will tell you that you definitely have so many good reasons to live and you just don't see them
I also don't want you to end it but I know life just sucks sometimes
And what do you think? are there things in life you enjoy?

>>82269595
>fingers crossed.
it's too late for any bad things to happen dw
>couldn't find anything really grabbing my attention
that's too bad
maybe I'll find something to reccomend
>how's the bike coming along?
not a lot left :3
though today I mostly focused on adjusting what I already made instead of new stuff
Oh also a while ago I discussed our trip with a fren, we were looking for places to rent and trains

omg? guess who it is? exactly, lavender, with my bi-monthly update of just how miserable my life's been.
>How are you doing today?
i'm tired. been fixing my sleep schedule and it's been quite the wild ride. i go to bed at 9-10:30 pm and gake up at 6, usually. it's objectively good, but it feels like i'm wasting a bunch of time.
>Any plans for today?
visiting my friend. she lives next to an amazing burger place. i'm just hoping i won't have the urge to vomit it all. praying i can wait until i get home for that.
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
last night, actually. wasn't deep, scratches mostly to punish myself for being such a fucking loser lol
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
exhaustion. my brain feels like mush, do i so apologize for any previous spelling horrors.

>>82269778
>it's too late for any bad things to happen dw
thinking that way is how they get you! D:

>I'll find something to reccomend
would be nice. :>

>not a lot left :3
oh! :0 you made a lot of progress then?

>I mostly focused on adjusting what I already made instead of new stuff
cleanup and optimising are important steps. good job. o7

>I discussed our trip with a fren, we were looking for places to rent and trains
did you find anything?

>>82269816
hey lav! good to see you! :D

>with my bi-monthly update of just how miserable my life's been.
dang. :/ i mean, always good to hear what you've been up to, but still.

>i go to bed at 9-10:30 pm and gake up at 6, usually. it's objectively good, but it feels like i'm wasting a bunch of time.
impressive. i hate getting up that early. (-_-;) you're not wasting anything, though. a good night's rest is very important.

>visiting my friend. she lives next to an amazing burger place
now i'm jealous... :0 what makes it amazing?

>i'm just hoping i won't have the urge to vomit it all. praying i can wait until i get home for that.
here's hoping you won't have to at all.

>scratches mostly to punish myself for being such a fucking loser lol
are not. :<

>my brain feels like mush, do i so apologize for any previous spelling horrors.
don't worry. has happened to all of us.

>>82269816
yoooo it's lavy what the heckkk :0
loveley to see you :D
>it's objectively good, but it feels like i'm wasting a bunch of time.
I guess it depends if you have something to do on the morning
but maybe something like waking up at 8 would be better?
>visiting my friend. she lives next to an amazing burger place
sounds like a good plan for a day ^^
have fun!!!
>won't have the urge to vomit it all
bestestest of luck!!!
>actually. wasn't deep, scratches
at least it wasn't deep
>being such a fucking loser
I know you may not believe it but ur not a loser
>exhaustion.
is it because of the sleep schedule shenanigans?

>>82269941
>way is how they get you! D:
D; !!!
>would be nice. :>
maybe this?
https://youtu.be/iqQIhzpahDM?si=6f5tXYSvRQJjmSyt
if you're not feeling like it I'll look for something else
>good job. o7
ty =3
>did you find anything?
a bunch of places they're not that expent but you know summer is ending

>>82269595
>i'm not sure why they felt the need for a single episode training arc.
sometimes it feels like I'm missing part of the training arc. Like Ken Takakura using sets of squats to fight the evil eye feels like a we should've seen him training like this a lot more day to day.
Other than that I think they made a good training episode. Like the tempo metaphor made sense but the "I don't listen to music, wait" thing was just funny.
> what's your plan?
It was to do homework, but I ended up watching some old YouTube videos on the Dire wolves. I think I'm more on the "just call them dire wolves" side of the argument, but I feel like that's just me wanting to believe sometimes. I will state they are the closest reconstruction of dire wolves possible, which is uncontroversial.
>>82269778
>pic rel
Relatable
> how do you like it?
It's really chaotic. Like not a single frame seems like filler. Everything is like eye candy.
> modeled a little bit
What ya modeling now.

>>82260236
>playing or watching something?
nowadays I just watch something from the early 2010s like horrors... watching one right now! banshee chapter
>what are you up to?
today I had a few lessons (cant disclose) after work. I took a nap again too. so sleepy, im too tired to read every post here again

>>82270019
>maybe this? if you're not feeling like it I'll look for something else
thank you very much. it'll do nicely. :> have to sleep soon anyway, so i'll just put in on and see how far i'll get.

>a bunch of places they're not that expent but you know summer is ending
that it is. i'm sure you'll find something nice and you'll have a good time wherever you end up.

>>82270128
>we should've seen him training like this a lot more day to day.
i agree. i guess they hint at that he does and you're supposed to imagine that he does. doesn't really work that well, though.

>I think they made a good training episode.
the whole setup felt a bit forced and random to me, but i don't have a clue about japanese urban legends and supernatural phenomena, so i don't know if i'm just missing something there. i'm also not the biggest fan of classical music and that rendition of "ode an die freude" ("ode to joy") wasn't my favorite, either. overall it was more of a miss for me. not much to grab and hold my attention. first not that fun episode for me. bummer.

>"I don't listen to music, wait" thing was just funny.
i'll give you that. ^^

>some old YouTube videos on the Dire wolves.
what's that?

>I will state they are the closest reconstruction of dire wolves possible, which is uncontroversial.
is it something like one of those breeding projects that tries to visually recreate an extinct species? i only know of people trying to breed something like an aurochs. no clue why people feel the need to do that, but they do.

>>82270170
hi! ^^

>watching one right now! banshee chapter
never heard of that one before. how is it? i've been thinking about rewatching "the void". i think i liked it, but i can't remember much about it.

>today I had a few lessons
well, hope you learned something.

>took a nap again too. so sleepy, im too tired to read every post here again
seems like work is taking it's toll on you. and no worries. if you're too tired, you can always just rest your eyes for a bit. (~.~)

i'll probably fall asleep soon myself.

>>82270492
>how is it?
its screamer spam so far so its nice, keeps me awake because I want to enjoy the dark hours. goodnight if you fall asleep fast

>>82270547
>its screamer spam so far so its nice, keeps me awake because I want to enjoy the dark hours.
have a nice rest of your night then and sleep well when you finally hop into your bed. ^^

>goodnight if you fall asleep fast
thank you! good night! (^-^)

gnite

>>82270128
>>82270128
>Everything is like eye candy.
ooa maybe I should watch it too
>What ya modeling now
a bike for a uni project

>>82270170
hello
have a good time watching movies

>>82270461
sleep well fren
>thank you very much
oh ur welcome!
>have a good time wherever you end up.
thanks

>>82269778
>are there things in life you enjoy
gooning to dylann roof lol, cooking too and horror movies and other shows i guess, nothing that really balances it out though i guess

>>82271159
i have a couple friends online but i don't talk much with them, I didn't have a phone when i was homeless so i couldn't respond to one of the posts they sent for a month, they might've thought i killed myself then, idk, most of my family doesn't particularly care about me, idk how i feel about staying alive over it family's died before, they carry on, not much you can do, id be the third in a line to die early

>>82270461
I'm just gonna get this in before calling it a night.
> is it something like one of those breeding projects that tries to visually recreate an extinct species?
Not exactly. They found two stable dna samples of dire wolves and isolated what genes make a dire wolf different from other Canidae species. Based off this research they found that grey and red wolves had several points of interbreeding throughout their lineage. They chose the grey wolf as a base due to more available research. Then they invented a multi editing crisper technology to edit multiple genes in one poke.
From here they could insert enough genes to change grey wolf dna into dire wolf dna. However some genes, like the white coat, were heavily associated with albinism and deafness in wolves, so they choose to just make the coat white by altering safer genes rather than what was fossilized.
Then they cloned the newly created wolf. Put the egg in a surrogate dog. And produced either a de extinct dire wolf or a super big white wolf depending on who you ask. Either way, there are now three genetically engineered extra large wolves in the world.
Along with 4 genetically engineered and diverse red wolves to save the current dying population of red wolves.