Thread 82281149

PT1. I genuinely don't think I even had a chance

>Me, foid in mother's tummy
>Mother separates from father to live with mentally ill friends
>me, born
>Mother too busy on drugs and partying to care for me
>I am underweight baby, severe neglect
>She calls my dad and says he needs to take me (and my sister who is 1 year older) or she is going to let us starve to death
>Dad takes me as a 1 year old, mom signs away all custody
>Dad is also abusive despite thinking he is the pinnacle of morality/hardcore christian/conservative/racist, he is a freemason I might add.
>His hobbies include beating the shit out of me every day, raping me since age 8, murdering my pets, and starving me
>Never had a real job, only online scams, he is broke as fuck
>I weighed 65lbs as a 5'7, 13yo (I never grew any taller)
>Btw, homeschooled/completely isolated by age 8, I had full internet access since that age.
>Over next few years, my only friends are online 4channer tier, racists etc. I was in these nazi echochamber discords.
>One of my online friend eventually call police on dad, I finally leave him at age 16
>The police for some fucking reason won't arrest him for raping two kids for almost 10yrs, prob bc he is a freemason. I am calling police constantly for 5 years+ trying to get something fucking done about this serial rapist. Nothing ever happens, he is still roaming free. Probably plotting his revenge on me for telling what he did
>I go into a foster home
>foster home is also abusive

>>82281149 (OP)
And then you woke up and started jerking your tiny cock

>>82281149 (OP)
>65lbs as a 5'7
How did you survive that?

>>82281149 (OP)
Rough if true, and I'm sorry that happened. They'll burn in Hell though, and you have plenty of opportunity to do good with your life

>>82281186
>he doesn't know that this is hell and our souls merely get extinguished when our time here is up

>>82281149 (OP)
damn, that sucks.
if youre over 25 wanna be my gf?

>>82281149 (OP)
>he is a freemason
No he ain't. You literally can't become a member if you have a criminal record or if you are not a moral person. If he claims to be in a lodge it's a fake one with fake bought degrees. Even to be accepted they do a background check on you and do anonymous voting and if there is even a singe vote against you it's over. Your dad should be executed or something btw.

>>82281273
he doesn't have a criminal record. as i stated, no legal action was ever taken on him. he had several friends who were freemasons who vouched for him. Yes he did get kicked out of the lodge after they found out he is a child rapist.

>>82281286
How did you end up in foster home? I assume it would involve the judiciary system and they would have to have a good reason to separate you. Did they know what he did or did they cover for him?

PT 2.

>I receive medical attention for the first time in almost 10 years
>I have endometriosis, and doctor says I need to remove uterus by age 25.
>I am 18, I begin online whoring so that I can move away from the abusive foster home
>I am hypersexual and mentally ill btw
>Nearly 10 years of being an extremist racist turns into racism fetish
>I meet black guy, his IQ mogs me in every regard except knowledge of literature, I fall in love with him and continue seeing him over next 3 years
>All of my friends were racists, all of my friends block me over the black guy
>"I swear guys, this nigger is different"
>I have no friends or family (only my sister who is married/move away and doesn't give me any time)
>I only have my online whoring and the black guy
>Skip to present time, age 21
>Discover I am pregnant from black guy
>I am genuinely happy, considering it's probably the only child my uterus will let me have
>I tell the dad
>He says he doesn't want kids, blocks me on every platform
>I literally have no friends, no family, no partner, no support, etc.
>I don't want an abortion because I probably can't have more kids. and this is my child. I would really like to keep my child. I do not have the heart to get an abortion and murder my child that I already love.
>I will probably become the single mom meme

Suicide is the only option, right? I probably will never find a partner as a mentally ill single mother of a mixed kid. Nobody on this planet even gives a fuck if I am still alive, so I don't know the point in even trying.

>>82281332
You should get an abortion

>>82281321
my online friend showed the police screenshots of me admitting that my father had been raping me for 8 years. The police took a visit to my house and I admitted to everything. Court order terminated rights, but he never had any trial or charges pressed. Members of the court were in the freemason lodge so he was kicked out of the lodge shortly after. My dad was going to become the Worshipful Master of the lodge that next year lol.

>>82281181
I dont know. I think it fucked my body up a lot. I can't gain weight as an adult. I'm 100lbs now.

>>82281199
just wait till you read the next part. you wont want me anymore lmfao.

>>82281321
i meant to add that as soon as the police took us from the home, my sister and I sat at the DHS office for a few days until any foster home accepted us

>>82281149 (OP)
Don't despair! You can always acknowledge snorpu to feel better! If you don't know snorpu, look here >>82276967

Weird ass tranny larp. I don't see how you people don't hate lefties here. They are fucking sick in the head.

>>82281198
Gnosticism is gay, and so are you

>>82281359
>underweight
>pregnant
this will not go well

>>82281391
maybe i will finally gain some weight lol. I'm not that underweight nowadays. I gained 20lbs in the first week away from my dad. I haven't checked BMI desu. I am 5'7 and 100lbs. I don't think I am that unhealthy. I just haven't been able to get over 100lbs in the past.

>>82281332
>>82281359
>just wait till you read the next part. you wont want me anymore lmfao.
lmao, we couldve tried for 2-3 kids before 25 but you fell for a black man and went the single mother route (with a black child RIP). game over

>>82281411
Your BMI is 15.7 where healthy is 18.5 at the lowest. I like skinny chicks but got to be realistic about it.

>>82281332
>"I swear guys, this nigger is different
>He says he doesn't want kids, blocks me on every platform
You kind of brought that one upon yourself. Correct me if I am being inconsiderable but you could have just not have sex and have some standards in picking a partner. Everything before that with your family was out of your control and it's terrible.

>>82281477
Sounds like he was smarter than her and split when she tried to baby trap him to a crazy bitch.

>>82281332
I feel bad for what has happened to you but surely you can find some help and support to give birth to your baby. Optimally you would get back together with the man who impregnated you and if not, date some other black dude.

>>82281149 (OP)
You need someone to take good care of you. I can be that person.

>>82281332
bro just get an abortion if this is real. this isn't even because of racism. your life is gonna be shit and so is your kid's. you don't understand how quickly you get burnt out on the "it's a baby, so cute!". you think you're different but you're a human being and there are reasons why people end up killing and abusing children and needy animals besides being psychopaths. in fact it's probably more likely if you're a nice person because you'll get burnt out doing the maximum for your kid and you'll get upset about feeling like shit despite being a good person.

>>82281149 (OP)
Why not just kill your father?
Also nobody cares about a foids height and its not even close to over. Just find a man who will give you money for existing.

>>82281420
yeah... kinda the point of this post.. just saying its over AF.

>>82281477
It's hard to pick who you fall in love with. He told me he wanted kids with me before i actually became pregnant. you know some people are married for 20+ years before they find out their partner is a piece of shit.... it's harder to choose than it sounds.

>>82281497
i'm a NEET, my tinder got banned for advertising my online whoring, idk how to meet new people. the guy that got me pregnant blocks me any time i try to make contact. if you have suggestions for meeting new (decent) people, i am all ears.
>>82281523
i have a telegram/discord

>>82281576
I can't justify getting an abortion because no matter what my kid's childhood is like, it will be better than mine. I can say this confidently because I am not going to be torturing/beating/raping/starving my child. Like, even if "it's hard", itll still be better than my childhood.

>>82281601
My father has moved and I assume went into hiding / probably goes by different name, as I haven't been able to find any trace of him online in 5 years. If you know any computer expert that can track him down let me know. Also, if you know any rich guys who will take care of me, send them my way too.

>>82281639
>i have a telegram/discord
>>82281663
>if you know any rich guys who will take care of me
This needs to be turned into a women hate thread.

>>82281639
all im saying is you're human and you're in a shit situation and might fuck your kids life up regardless. you might end up leaning on your kid for emotional support a lot and that's not good. you don't know anything about how to parent except what not to do and keeping your kid inside and reading books all day isnt necessarily good. your kid might end up sheltered or rebel and end up whoring out like you. what about if your kid is a weirdo? are you gonna hate them?

my sister has mixed kids (actually me and my sister are mixed ourselves) and somehow we're all very nice, empathetic, normal people despite that (if you believe in the super racist stuff). i myself am a super racist only because i've experienced what it's like to live in the hood. i've seen little mutt kids toss chairs and throw up gangsigns at teachers. my nieces and nephews love playfighting and playing ball as much as they love playing fortnite. they give me a little attitude sometimes since we're so close, but they've never given their great teachers any

>>82281332
Crazy how a woman's life can go so badly but she'll still have a support circle that she will throw away doing something inane like fucking a nigger lmfao

Nasty tranny larp thread.

>>82281720
>>keeping your kid inside and reading books all day isn't good
i am aware. that is what my childhood consisted of besides the abuse. I obviously want the best for my kid. I don't care if my kid is black or white, or has autism or downsyndrome, I am going to love them and do everything I can to take care of them.

>>82281639
It's not actually lmfao women and some men always use thay retarded excuse for why they picked absolute garbage men
>uhhhh how was i supposed to know this NIGGER was going to abandon his kid i didn't choose this i just fell in love with a nigger while being a proud racist
I hope he gave you can STD too whore

>>82281149 (OP)
>>82281332
Please go to reddit

>>82281761
what support circle did I throw away? The abusive foster home?
The only people who ditched me over the nigger was my online ""friends"" who clearly weren't actually my friends considering they blocked me the first time they disagreed with me. yeah, 3-4 discord friends toooootally counts as a real and valild support circle.....

>>82281790
If it's so easy to find a good partner, then you should be married, and busy supporting your family. Instead, here you are, talking shit about pregnant girls on forum pages

posting my discord/telegram in case anyone has anything positive to contribute.

lxna2004

>>82281359
>>just wait till you read the next part. you wont want me anymore lmfao.
Where is part 2 you stupid bitch?

>>82281776
have you ever seen one of those lifetime daytime dramas? or some movie or tv where a woman breaks down and cries while her baby is crying? that's real. that even happened to me when i got stuck with a baby when i was a stupid teenager because it was a last minute thing and everyone just left me alone with a baby that shit itself and wouldnt stop crying. they start crying harder and harder and its incredibly distressing. you just need to know how much pain you're gonna experience. in a way being a young mom is good because you're not super jaded yet even though you experienced so much shit, it only kinda gets worse as you get older.

anyway sorry that's the last reply i'll post. kinda evil for me to try and get you to kill your unborn child but that's not really how i see it after experiencing and seeing so much child suffering. and experiencing the mom breakdown first hand, and seeing it happen to other single moms in real life with my own eyes, and even seeing my sister breakdown years ago, who had a family and a husband in the picture, was brutal.

on the bright side, because you're pretty much all alone, you have no choice but to do what has to be done for the kid.

>>82282106
i have a lot of experience with babies lol. the abusive foster home i mentioned, i lived there about 3 years (16-19), they would get lots of foster babies, and make me babysit all the time. They would like, take a trip, and leave me alone with newborn baby for like two weeks at a time. This "forcing me to babysit" was a constant thing for 3 years. I have changed 100s or 1000 shitty and pissy diapers. Yes, there were times that I cried and was stressed, because I had a full time (online) college schedule, a full time job, AND I couldn't get any sleep because I had to feed the crying baby at 4am. The baby phase is actually the easiest. Parenting becomes a lot harder when the child is old enough to actively argue with and defy you.

>>82282147
i feel embarassed now that you say that. i guess i was just projecting my trauma from seeing traumatized women. i hope your kid turns out okay

idk i probably just kms

>>82281149 (OP)
post mammaries and what did you expect your 'friends' response to be?