Thread 82282372

love is so annoying and painful, im so fucking lovesick (in the scientific, modern way) and its miserable. imagine having unrequited love and being stuck thinking about them 24/7, not being able to distract yourself whatsoever, its awful. i feel utterly pathetic. every time he gives the tiniest bit of reciprocation, it makes me melt. idek what he looks like, that makes this worse

hopefully itll be over and i can go back to being alone again, not talking to anyone, being a khhv forever

being in love really isnt worth the stress

>>82282372 (OP)
confess

if he says no you can move on the heart break stage

if he says yes

you got a bf

XD

>>82282372 (OP)
i'd advise you to stop thinking about these details and just enjoy the feeling
who cares if it's pathetic or if you don't know what he looks like or whatever, if you enjoy it then let it be your guilty pleasure

i mean despite being able to go outside now and hit a bar or invite others for dinner or whatever, i spend my days locked up in my apartment playing games
i find that pretty pathetic when i can afford to do "better" things but i enjoy it, so fuck that

just enjoy it for now, go think about shit like that later

>>82282381
oh he already knows, ive told him i love him a few times, he said he likes when i say it

>>82282397
youre probably right. i really need to stop thinking so much about it rn. i cant help being sad but i shouldnt feel pathetic, even if it is pathetic.

thanks

>>82282796
aye, the sadness takes a bit to go away but yeah
i hope you're able to make peace with yourself soon enough

what's the time over there, anon? have you been sleeping well lately?
if it's late then try sleeping it off, you'll wake up better tomorrow

>>82282796
>he said he likes when i say it
is it not reciprocated?

>>82282826
thank you for the kind words, anon

its midday right now, ive been sleeping well lately and ive been sleeping a lot more, last night i had a 3 hour nap and then 8 hours of sleep.
i wish sleeping it off were that easy, ive been feeling like this for a week

>>82282874
you must be in asia or australia then for the timezone difference to be that large, it's currently 1 am here still
i'm glad you've been sleeping well though, sleep is the foundation of a person
do you get any dreams during your sleep?

>ive been feeling like this for a week
hmm... do you feel bad over it being one-sided or is it more of a guilt thing? (aka "this is pathetic and i shouldn't feel good about it" so it makes you feel bad for enjoying it instead, like you implied)
or something else?

>>82282372 (OP)
just love me nona i'll give you all of mine

>>82282864
i dont know, i dont want to get my hopes up. he could just like the fact some stupid girl is in love with him so blindly. or i could just actually be blind and stupid

>>82282928
why are you still awake, anon?
usually if i dream its nightmares, which isnt a good thing, because i think that technically ruins sleep? not sure.

i think its a bit of both. and because i fell in love so fast, it makes me feel mentally ill. ive only known the guy for less than 2 months, ive never really liked someone like this so fast before

>>82283096
>why are you still awake, anon?
it's sunday tomorrow and i want to be a waste of space for the weekend, i've been composed and productive far too long already

>usually if i dream its nightmares
yikes... i'm sorry about that
i used to have daily nightmares in my teens as well, but then again i was highly misanthropic and disturbed by other things going on, but still... it sucks.
if you have a nice dream, do write it down wherever you can, on your phone, a notepad, etc.
as the local oneironaut, i like learning about people's dreams
what do you wish you dreamed about, if you had a choice?

>because i fell in love so fast, it makes me feel mentally ill.
lol, if that's a trait of mental illness, then over half the fucking world is mentally ill, myself included
it's quite normal for that to happen, really
but here's the thing, it's going to die down over time, give it 3 months and you'll be on your way back to your senses, so enjoy it while you can
hype yourself up, be as giddy as it gets, banish intrusive thoughts that make you feel bad about it (and welcome the ones that don't), just live in the moment for now

>>82283169
fair enough, everyone needs a break and to stay up late once in a while

do you think your misanthropy affected your dreams?
i dont write any of my dreams down, but i remember most of them, good and bad. i dont think theres any point in writing about them if they live in my head anyways.
if i could have better dreams, id like to have romantic ones, so i could at least live out my romantic fantasies in my head

im aware itll die down a bit, ive been in love before, and i felt pretty strongly even after a year, i only stopped feeling that way once i realised i was being manipulated and im pretty certain i was being cheated on.
ill try to cherish it while i have it, at least

>>82283440
>dreams
nta but i dreamt i was in a vast arid desert landscape with long fences and an industrial setting to the sparse buildings around
there was a giant circus tent, i went inside with a group of my friends from highschool
it was filled with people and had a big waterslide like system (no water just slides) that everyone was using
then i found myself outside, moving along and exploring on some traintrackish parts before coming up to a large factory i recognize in my city
it has a large neon sign, and there was a crane replacing it with a new one, it kinda reminded me of something from Portal (the game) the new neon sign.
then a big wrecking ball crashed into the old neon sign
i rushed around inside my backpack, rushing to pull out my camera realizing this is a big picture opportunity
then i woke up

... Do people really dream about love and normal things?

>>82283490
at least this is a relatively cool/interesting dream, lots of interesting things going on, lots of weird transitions, as dreams should be

ive had romantic dreams before but i dont think theyre a common or normal thing

I haven't been in a relationship since I was 15 (10 years ago).

>>82283096
my advice is if you voicechat and video chat and do it a lot to move onto the next level
otherwise he's just stringing you along and you're going to get hurt
maybe it's not his intention to hurt you, but it may still hurt if it's not at a serious level

>>82283577
teenage romance almost never lasts, but thats ok. youll find someone again eventually, i wish you the best

also that ame art is very cute, i love it sm

>>82283597
hes not always free, and since we live in different timezones we cant call often. we havent videocalled, idk what he looks like, i dont think hed do videocalling

when we call its usually for a long while

but youre right

>>82283577
me too. post your feet haha