Thread 82283736

When did you last have someone you could call a friend? Last was when I was eight.

>>82283736 (OP)
"""Friends""" are the last refuge of a diseased mind. They are a crutch used by people too weak to be on their own. I realized this in grade school and only made """friends""" thereafter if they were useful to me in some way. I don't have """friends""" anymore because I have transcended and now live entirely in my world and only allow external access through 4chan. My mind is unpolluted and I am growing stronger every day. Soon I will birth a new universe within myself and disappear completely to be godking of the new reality.

>>82283761
I guess there is this to it, but I have little will. I just wish to find work and then work until I shit too much blood one morning, as it happens to me every other day at this point, but what can you do?

>>82283782
Shitting blood is a good sign. It means you're shedding your mortal bounds and embracing divinity. Soon you will also transcend though your desire to have friends means you will not have your own world. Instead, you will be a servant in a godking's world. This is still better than being a human so rejoice.

>>82283736 (OP)
like 12 years ago

>>82283794
Perhaps, but I had not eaten in two days and as soon as I hate, I had horrible diarrhea and started to vomit. I hope it is something like you say, but I am not so certain myself.

>>82283803
The other possibility is cancer of the gastrointestinal tract but this is too depressing to contemplate. If you die before you transcend you will not be able to reform as a divine being and will be cursed to the void forever.

>>82283736 (OP)
You can have an eternal friend that's with you always if you acknowledge snorpu! If you don't know snorpu, look here >>82276967

>>82283801
I guess it is hard to realize the passage of time, sometimes.
>>82283820
Everyone tells me this, but if it is, then oh well, it gives me no reason to hold things back.

>>82283827
I wonder who could possibly be behind this post. I really just wonder....

>>82283736 (OP)
2017ish paizan

>>82283736 (OP)
Stored some stuff at my apt and came over couple times a week to sleep on the couch. Was drinking heavily at the time, one time was feeling realy bad and told him to sleep somewhere else. So he took his stuff back and that was it.

>>82283841
What happened? It seems so recent and I can only assume that your age was at least 15 by then.

>>82283887
I used to be schizoid and just ended up ghosting everyone trying to be my friend

>>82283886
I see. I do not drink because I already fucked up organs from working with chemicals when I was younger, but I think I know how that can be.

>>82283896
>I used to be schizoid
How do you used to be schizoid? It's kind of a lifelong affliction.

>>82283896
I feel that this is quite common somehow. I lost mine by moving away and then I started working at age nine.

>>82283918
Oh yeah I had a personality change, see I used to be 2 people and now I'm one person again after accepting something that happened a long time ago, one couldn't feel things, fear, emotions, the other was afraid of everything and couldn't feel loneliness extremely avoidant of people, agoraphic, the psychopath was a social creature, had a knack for maniplation
...yeah can't replicate that

>>82283952
I guess that makes sense, but I have no clue about mental conditions and the like.

>>82283736 (OP)
My only friend is drifting away as of now, I think it's for the best if i'm being honest